0000 00:00:05,000 --> 00:00:10,000 YoubetCash.net Agen Judi Online Aman & Terpercaya 000 00:00:11,000 --> 00:00:15,000 Bonus Cashback Bola 6% Bonus Rollingan 0,80% 00 00:00:16,000 --> 00:00:20,000 Welcome Bonus Rp 25.000 Extra Bonus Tambahan Withdraw Rp 2.000.000 0 00:00:21,000 --> 00:00:25,000 CashBack Mix Parlay 100% Bonus Ajak teman 45,2% 1 00:00:11,968 --> 00:00:13,970 [indistinct chatter] 2 00:00:23,153 --> 00:00:26,156 - I can't tell what's real and what's not anymore! 3 00:00:26,200 --> 00:00:28,028 [rock music] 4 00:01:48,673 --> 00:01:51,937 [crash] [car alarm wailing] 5 00:02:06,561 --> 00:02:08,258 [groaning] 6 00:02:39,115 --> 00:02:41,161 [panting] - Where am I going? 7 00:02:43,293 --> 00:02:45,077 - Minneapolis, sir. 8 00:02:48,516 --> 00:02:50,692 - I'll take a whiskey. 9 00:02:50,735 --> 00:02:52,563 - I'm afraid I can't. 10 00:02:52,607 --> 00:02:54,696 - Vodka. Whatever you have. 11 00:02:54,739 --> 00:02:57,873 - Sir, I'm sorry. I'm not allowed to give you any alcohol. 12 00:02:58,743 --> 00:03:00,180 - Says who? 13 00:03:00,963 --> 00:03:03,357 - The doctor that carried you onto the plane. 14 00:03:05,446 --> 00:03:07,187 Would you like some water? 15 00:03:27,468 --> 00:03:29,383 [belching and retching] 16 00:03:56,018 --> 00:03:58,020 [soft guitar music] 17 00:04:01,197 --> 00:04:04,156 ♪ Hey kids where are you 18 00:04:04,200 --> 00:04:08,683 ♪ Nobody tells you what to do baby ♪ 19 00:04:11,294 --> 00:04:14,471 ♪ Maybe you did maybe you walked ♪ 20 00:04:14,515 --> 00:04:17,431 ♪ Maybe you rocked around the clock ♪ 21 00:04:17,474 --> 00:04:19,171 ♪ Tick 22 00:04:19,215 --> 00:04:20,999 ♪ Tock ♪ 23 00:04:28,790 --> 00:04:30,052 - James. 24 00:04:31,227 --> 00:04:33,838 Come on. Come on. We're here. 25 00:04:51,073 --> 00:04:54,946 James. Hey, hey, hey! Don't make this harder than it needs to be. 26 00:04:54,990 --> 00:04:56,992 - I'm fine. It's okay. 27 00:04:57,035 --> 00:04:58,385 I don't need this. 28 00:04:58,428 --> 00:05:00,691 - Have you fucking seen yourself? 29 00:05:00,735 --> 00:05:02,563 You're a fucking wreck, James. 30 00:05:04,347 --> 00:05:06,218 You need help. 31 00:05:06,262 --> 00:05:07,655 Please. 32 00:05:13,008 --> 00:05:15,271 - Bobby, why you doing this to me? 33 00:05:15,880 --> 00:05:17,447 Why you doing this to me? 34 00:05:19,884 --> 00:05:21,277 - Because you're my brother. 35 00:05:22,104 --> 00:05:23,801 And I love you. 36 00:05:25,368 --> 00:05:27,762 And you're breaking Mom and Dad's hearts. 37 00:05:29,285 --> 00:05:32,288 James, if you carry on the way you're going, you're gonna die. 38 00:05:39,382 --> 00:05:40,775 James. 39 00:06:07,323 --> 00:06:10,370 - James, the nurse's station is around the corner. 40 00:06:10,413 --> 00:06:12,067 Come with me, okay? 41 00:06:18,508 --> 00:06:22,469 This facility was founded by a group of priests more than 40 years ago, 42 00:06:22,512 --> 00:06:26,081 and more than 25,000 patients have passed through our doors. 43 00:06:26,647 --> 00:06:29,345 We are one of the largest treatment centres in the world 44 00:06:29,389 --> 00:06:31,826 and have one of the highest long-term success rates. 45 00:06:33,088 --> 00:06:34,916 We have a few strict rules here. 46 00:06:34,959 --> 00:06:38,136 If you are caught in possession and/or using or drinking, 47 00:06:38,180 --> 00:06:40,095 you will be sent home immediately. 48 00:06:41,183 --> 00:06:43,707 And if you say anything more than hello to any woman 49 00:06:43,751 --> 00:06:45,927 that is not a member of our staff, 50 00:06:45,970 --> 00:06:47,842 you will be sent home immediately. 51 00:06:48,973 --> 00:06:51,541 [voice fading]: For the sake and safety of our patients... 52 00:07:04,598 --> 00:07:06,426 [intense music] 53 00:07:18,307 --> 00:07:20,570 [soft haunting music] 54 00:07:27,185 --> 00:07:28,752 [music continues] 55 00:08:40,476 --> 00:08:42,086 [vomiting] 56 00:08:53,315 --> 00:08:56,536 - I had the nurse put you on Librium and Diazepam. 57 00:08:57,493 --> 00:08:59,626 They're detoxification drugs. 58 00:08:59,669 --> 00:09:03,064 They'll stabilize the heart and keep your blood pressure low. 59 00:09:03,107 --> 00:09:05,762 We wouldn't want you to have a heart attack or a stroke. 60 00:09:05,806 --> 00:09:07,459 - Oh. - Or a seizure. 61 00:09:07,503 --> 00:09:09,200 - Ah! - Ah, ah, okay, we're getting there, 62 00:09:09,244 --> 00:09:10,506 getting there. 63 00:09:11,942 --> 00:09:14,510 I'll have you seen by the dentist this week. Okay? 64 00:09:16,338 --> 00:09:18,340 Alright, this is the last one. Last one. 65 00:09:21,909 --> 00:09:23,650 Alright. 66 00:09:23,693 --> 00:09:26,087 Now, let's look at that nose, shall we? 67 00:09:26,130 --> 00:09:27,610 - Oh, no, we can leave that. 68 00:09:27,654 --> 00:09:30,091 - Be still. Look at me. 69 00:09:30,134 --> 00:09:32,136 - Ahem. - Look straight ahead. 70 00:09:33,703 --> 00:09:35,575 [James sighing] Alright. 71 00:09:36,271 --> 00:09:39,579 I'm going to have to break it in order to reset it. 72 00:09:39,622 --> 00:09:42,494 - No, you don't. No... - Put your hands down. 73 00:09:42,538 --> 00:09:44,845 Hold on tight. Alright? 74 00:09:45,672 --> 00:09:48,500 Take a deep breath. Here we go. And... 75 00:09:48,544 --> 00:09:50,807 [cracking] [screaming] 76 00:09:54,158 --> 00:09:55,856 - Ma'am, step up. 77 00:10:16,137 --> 00:10:18,052 [TV playing] 78 00:10:27,409 --> 00:10:29,063 [sighing] 79 00:10:30,673 --> 00:10:32,414 [whispering]: Wanna do some blow? 80 00:10:33,415 --> 00:10:36,418 I mean, I don't have any. I'm just wondering. 81 00:10:37,985 --> 00:10:40,161 [woman chuckling] 82 00:10:40,204 --> 00:10:41,771 Can I have a cigarette? 83 00:10:45,079 --> 00:10:46,602 What happened to your face? 84 00:10:49,431 --> 00:10:50,650 Hmm? 85 00:10:51,607 --> 00:10:53,870 I'm sor... Are you deaf, or retarded? 86 00:10:53,914 --> 00:10:56,394 I'm finding it really hard to tell. 87 00:10:56,438 --> 00:10:58,222 [James groaning softly] 88 00:10:59,441 --> 00:11:00,790 Where are you from? 89 00:11:05,926 --> 00:11:07,449 - Cleveland. 90 00:11:07,710 --> 00:11:09,364 - Cleveland. 91 00:11:09,407 --> 00:11:11,888 So you are retarded. 92 00:11:11,932 --> 00:11:13,629 - Hey... 93 00:11:14,456 --> 00:11:15,805 - You okay? 94 00:11:18,242 --> 00:11:20,810 Yeah, it's a stupid question. 95 00:11:21,811 --> 00:11:24,422 - Well, y-you know... Why are you talking to me? 96 00:11:24,466 --> 00:11:25,815 You don't know me. 97 00:11:26,816 --> 00:11:28,470 - Mm, sure I do. 98 00:11:29,253 --> 00:11:30,646 You got issues. 99 00:11:31,473 --> 00:11:32,822 That's why you're here. 100 00:11:33,823 --> 00:11:36,043 I got issues. That's why I'm here. 101 00:11:38,045 --> 00:11:40,787 You know, my grandma, she drove me all the way from Chicago. 102 00:11:40,830 --> 00:11:42,266 - Mr. Fray? 103 00:11:43,833 --> 00:11:46,706 - Hi. - Hi. I'm Roy, a patient here. 104 00:11:46,749 --> 00:11:49,273 I was told to bring you down into the Sawyer unit. 105 00:11:50,492 --> 00:11:51,711 Let's go. 106 00:11:59,849 --> 00:12:02,112 Uh... you do know that you're not allowed 107 00:12:02,156 --> 00:12:04,027 to fraternize with the women here. 108 00:12:04,071 --> 00:12:05,550 Hmm? 109 00:12:05,594 --> 00:12:07,335 - Uh... - Good. 110 00:12:07,378 --> 00:12:09,554 'Cause we can ask you to leave if you cross the line. Okay? 111 00:12:10,425 --> 00:12:11,948 - You're a patient, right? 112 00:12:11,992 --> 00:12:14,298 - Mm. - Then what the fuck are you gonna do? 113 00:12:14,342 --> 00:12:15,691 [chuckling] 114 00:12:18,302 --> 00:12:19,695 - This way, Mr. Fray. 115 00:12:20,783 --> 00:12:22,306 - Fine, asshole. 116 00:12:29,792 --> 00:12:31,663 - Those are for staff only. 117 00:12:31,707 --> 00:12:34,057 So that is absolutely off-limits. 118 00:12:34,101 --> 00:12:36,494 This is our shared kitchen. You really share it, 119 00:12:36,538 --> 00:12:38,627 so you can get coffee whenever you like, 120 00:12:38,670 --> 00:12:41,848 but make sure to clean up after yourself when you're done, okay? 121 00:12:41,891 --> 00:12:43,501 Mugs here. You're gonna get your own. 122 00:12:43,545 --> 00:12:45,677 You gotta remember to put your name on it. Okay? 123 00:12:45,721 --> 00:12:47,418 Shhh. This is the communal phone. 124 00:12:47,462 --> 00:12:49,725 You get to use that during private time only. 125 00:12:49,769 --> 00:12:52,815 This is going to be your home for the next six weeks. 126 00:12:55,339 --> 00:12:58,690 Make sure that you check the jobs board every Thursday morning, okay? 127 00:12:58,734 --> 00:13:00,562 Let's see, James Fray... 128 00:13:00,605 --> 00:13:03,434 - Frey, Frey, Frey, like a fucking French fry, y'know? 129 00:13:03,478 --> 00:13:06,046 - Isn't that appropriate. Cleaning out the shit. 130 00:13:06,742 --> 00:13:08,831 Make sure you scrub those toilets spotless, okay? 131 00:13:08,875 --> 00:13:12,313 What you put into this is what you're gonna get out of it. 132 00:13:12,356 --> 00:13:15,925 This is our communal space. We keep Big Books over there, 133 00:13:15,969 --> 00:13:18,667 and we do step work after every meal. 134 00:13:18,710 --> 00:13:21,757 Absolutely no sleeping in the communal space. 135 00:13:23,498 --> 00:13:25,892 Follow me. I know it's a lot coming at you fast, 136 00:13:25,935 --> 00:13:29,025 so if you have any questions, always feel free to check in with Lincoln. 137 00:13:29,069 --> 00:13:32,768 He is the Unit Supervisor. His room's down there. Your room's gonna be this way 138 00:13:35,162 --> 00:13:36,772 - Is there a mini bar? 139 00:13:37,947 --> 00:13:39,383 - And... 140 00:13:40,776 --> 00:13:43,083 ...here we are. That's your bed. 141 00:13:45,389 --> 00:13:46,782 Good luck. 142 00:13:54,964 --> 00:13:56,618 [sighing] 143 00:14:03,973 --> 00:14:06,758 [clarinet playing] - Oh, my God! 144 00:14:06,802 --> 00:14:08,804 Ah... shit! 145 00:14:10,197 --> 00:14:11,851 Ah, fuck. 146 00:14:12,808 --> 00:14:14,418 [silence] 147 00:14:21,773 --> 00:14:23,384 [panting] - Shhh. 148 00:14:23,427 --> 00:14:24,951 Shhh. 149 00:14:24,994 --> 00:14:27,605 It's okay. You're just going through withdrawal. 150 00:14:27,649 --> 00:14:29,259 It's okay. Shhh. 151 00:14:29,303 --> 00:14:30,870 - Ah... - You'll be fine. 152 00:14:31,914 --> 00:14:34,569 Oh, my God. Your face is so fucked up. 153 00:14:37,137 --> 00:14:38,442 Here. 154 00:14:41,663 --> 00:14:43,970 You ever fuck anybody in the ass? 155 00:14:44,013 --> 00:14:45,623 - Excuse me? 156 00:14:45,667 --> 00:14:48,278 - Yeah, I got really into it when I was in prison, 157 00:14:48,322 --> 00:14:51,281 and I don't need to be the giver; I'm not picky anymore. 158 00:14:51,325 --> 00:14:53,805 - This ain't fuckin' prison. - Yeah, tell that to the judge. 159 00:14:53,849 --> 00:14:57,026 Half of us are in here on some special plea-bargain bullshit. 160 00:15:00,160 --> 00:15:02,771 - Leave me alone. - Hey, I'm just working the program, man. 161 00:15:02,814 --> 00:15:07,297 I'm just laying it all out there like it is. You can take it or leave it. 162 00:15:07,341 --> 00:15:09,082 - I'll fucking leave it, thanks. 163 00:15:10,474 --> 00:15:13,216 - Tsk. Alright, well, I'm glad we worked that out. 164 00:15:13,260 --> 00:15:16,480 [James retching] I'm just gonna leave this on your pillow. 165 00:15:37,632 --> 00:15:39,503 [country music] 166 00:16:10,752 --> 00:16:12,754 [dissonant soundscape] 167 00:16:19,935 --> 00:16:21,981 [background chatter] 168 00:16:22,764 --> 00:16:24,461 - Appreciate the cigars, Hank. 169 00:16:25,680 --> 00:16:27,638 Are you shitting me? In a T-shirt? 170 00:16:27,682 --> 00:16:29,727 You're outta your fucking mind, kid. 171 00:16:29,771 --> 00:16:31,338 - Hop in front. 172 00:16:39,346 --> 00:16:42,001 Hmm. You got kinda fucked up, huh? 173 00:16:42,958 --> 00:16:45,265 - No, I was just born this fucking way. 174 00:16:49,791 --> 00:16:51,140 Here, hold on. 175 00:16:53,316 --> 00:16:55,101 I used to wear this when I was working on the boat. Take it. It's a good jacket. 176 00:16:55,144 --> 00:16:56,841 - No, I'm good. It's okay. 177 00:16:56,885 --> 00:16:59,018 - You don't owe me anything. Now, take it. 178 00:17:01,368 --> 00:17:02,804 - Alright. 179 00:17:02,847 --> 00:17:05,285 - It's a lucky fucking jacket. 180 00:17:13,249 --> 00:17:16,035 [radio]: The ultimate pizza has arrived! 181 00:17:16,078 --> 00:17:20,778 With zesty herbs and spices and thicker pepperoni for a new pizza experience. 182 00:17:20,822 --> 00:17:22,171 One bite... 183 00:17:22,824 --> 00:17:24,608 - Let's get those X-rays, huh? 184 00:17:51,418 --> 00:17:53,855 [country music playing] 185 00:17:54,638 --> 00:17:56,858 [sighing] [background chatter] 186 00:18:03,647 --> 00:18:05,345 [soul music] 187 00:18:05,388 --> 00:18:07,434 ♪ You were tired... 188 00:18:10,045 --> 00:18:13,048 ♪ And you want to be free 189 00:18:14,789 --> 00:18:17,879 ♪ My love is growing stronger 190 00:18:19,446 --> 00:18:23,232 ♪ As you become a habit to me 191 00:18:24,059 --> 00:18:26,757 ♪ Ooh been loving you 192 00:18:26,801 --> 00:18:28,846 [James]: Motherfucking bitch! 193 00:18:29,673 --> 00:18:31,719 Take me... take me back, please. 194 00:18:33,068 --> 00:18:35,505 These are your friends that talk shit about me?! 195 00:18:35,549 --> 00:18:38,508 Alright, you guys, look, look, it's about you and me, baby. 196 00:18:38,552 --> 00:18:40,206 It's you... You believe me, right? 197 00:18:40,249 --> 00:18:43,209 You pig-faced motherfucker!! Baby, baby, 198 00:18:43,252 --> 00:18:45,689 bail me out, okay? 199 00:18:50,172 --> 00:18:52,043 ♪ ...On my knees 200 00:18:52,087 --> 00:18:54,916 ♪ Please don't make me stop now ♪ 201 00:18:56,918 --> 00:19:00,226 ♪ I love you I love you 202 00:19:00,269 --> 00:19:03,403 ♪ I love you with all my heart And I can't stop ♪♪ 203 00:19:25,947 --> 00:19:27,122 - Hmm. 204 00:19:29,037 --> 00:19:31,866 You know, you did a shitty job yesterday. 205 00:19:33,433 --> 00:19:35,609 - Looked pretty clean to me. [spraying] 206 00:19:37,524 --> 00:19:39,221 - That's because you're filth. 207 00:19:39,265 --> 00:19:41,702 And you don't know what clean is. 208 00:19:41,745 --> 00:19:43,443 - What's your problem? 209 00:19:43,486 --> 00:19:45,488 - I don't have a problem. People like you, you come in here, 210 00:19:45,532 --> 00:19:47,490 you've got the world handed to you on a plate. 211 00:19:47,534 --> 00:19:48,883 You know? You don't know shit. 212 00:19:48,926 --> 00:19:51,059 - Alright, Roy, get the fuck outta here. 213 00:19:51,102 --> 00:19:53,801 - No, not until you learn how to clean. You need to learn how to clean. 214 00:19:53,844 --> 00:19:56,107 - Oh, that's right. You want it to be spotless, right? 215 00:19:56,151 --> 00:19:58,588 - And it will be spotless. - Let's start with you. - Oh, goddammit! Help! 216 00:19:58,632 --> 00:20:00,373 - Clean up? - No!! Help! Help! 217 00:20:00,416 --> 00:20:02,940 Stop! Stop it! Stop! Help!!! 218 00:20:02,984 --> 00:20:05,160 - You're kidding? - He's trying to kill me. 219 00:20:05,204 --> 00:20:07,075 - It's fucking water. - Help! Help. - Jesus. 220 00:20:07,118 --> 00:20:09,947 - What are you doing? - Roy, get the fuck up. 221 00:20:09,991 --> 00:20:11,993 - No! - Come on, man. 222 00:20:12,036 --> 00:20:14,865 - Stay away from me! Stay the fuck-- - What's going on in here? 223 00:20:14,909 --> 00:20:16,650 Wait, wait, wait. Hey, whoa, whoa. 224 00:20:16,693 --> 00:20:18,739 [Roy shouting] - He's outta his fucking mind! 225 00:20:18,782 --> 00:20:20,828 - Get the fuck off me, you shit. 226 00:20:20,871 --> 00:20:23,570 [panting] - It's alright. I'm okay. I'm okay. 227 00:20:24,571 --> 00:20:27,574 I just... Oh, my God. 228 00:20:27,617 --> 00:20:29,271 [phone ringing] 229 00:20:34,276 --> 00:20:36,974 - Hey, this is Bob. I'm out. Leave a message. 230 00:20:37,018 --> 00:20:38,541 [beep] 231 00:20:38,585 --> 00:20:41,240 [James]: Bob... Jesus... Where are you, man? 232 00:20:41,283 --> 00:20:43,764 I just need to talk to you. I just... 233 00:20:43,807 --> 00:20:45,505 [sighing] Goddammit! 234 00:20:45,548 --> 00:20:49,030 These detox pills are just... fucking with my head! 235 00:20:49,944 --> 00:20:51,554 [sighing] 236 00:20:51,598 --> 00:20:53,774 I can't... I can't do this. 237 00:20:53,817 --> 00:20:56,167 I'm sorry, buddy. I'm sorry. 238 00:20:56,211 --> 00:20:57,821 [screaming] 239 00:20:59,475 --> 00:21:01,085 [screaming] 240 00:21:17,319 --> 00:21:19,234 - Come with me, James. 241 00:21:23,238 --> 00:21:26,328 - Look, if you're gonna fucking kick me out, just do it, man. 242 00:21:26,372 --> 00:21:28,199 - Want to tell me what happened, James? 243 00:21:28,243 --> 00:21:30,680 'Cause I heard you were threatening a fellow patient. 244 00:21:30,724 --> 00:21:32,943 - I didn't lay a fucking finger on him. 245 00:21:32,987 --> 00:21:37,034 He's just a fucking retard playing boss, trying to treat me like his bitch. 246 00:21:37,078 --> 00:21:39,298 - Okay, calm down. - Alright, fuck you, man. 247 00:21:39,341 --> 00:21:41,909 - I said, calm down. - Or what? You're gonna fuckin' throw me out? 248 00:21:41,952 --> 00:21:43,824 - Listen to me, James. 249 00:21:43,867 --> 00:21:45,391 You're wanted in three states. 250 00:21:45,434 --> 00:21:48,176 You do anything out there right now - anything - 251 00:21:48,219 --> 00:21:49,046 you're going to prison. 252 00:21:49,090 --> 00:21:51,310 That what you want? 253 00:21:51,353 --> 00:21:55,226 - I guess that rules the presidency out, then, huh? - You know what, Lincoln? 254 00:21:55,270 --> 00:21:58,882 Um... why don't you go check on Roy? 255 00:21:59,448 --> 00:22:02,886 - Ahem. That's a good idea. - Yeah, why don't you go check on Roy? 256 00:22:20,469 --> 00:22:22,558 Look, truth is, I don't need to be here. 257 00:22:22,602 --> 00:22:25,256 I'm not like these other people. I had an accident, okay? 258 00:22:25,300 --> 00:22:27,868 And everyone's making a big deal out of nothing. 259 00:22:27,911 --> 00:22:29,478 - Is it really nothing? 260 00:22:31,611 --> 00:22:34,048 - It's been a bad time recently. 261 00:22:34,091 --> 00:22:35,484 Y'know, I'll admit that. 262 00:22:38,052 --> 00:22:40,663 I just need some time to figure it out. 263 00:22:40,707 --> 00:22:43,405 - That's exactly what this time is. 264 00:22:43,449 --> 00:22:46,365 - No, this... this is about AA. 265 00:22:46,408 --> 00:22:49,455 And it's dog shit if you really want to know what I think. 266 00:22:49,498 --> 00:22:50,804 - I don't. 267 00:22:52,022 --> 00:22:54,024 I know that this program works. 268 00:22:54,068 --> 00:22:57,071 And it seems to me, you might not have given it a try. 269 00:22:57,114 --> 00:22:58,725 - 'Cause there's no fucking point. 270 00:23:00,727 --> 00:23:02,598 You know why? 'Cause it's based around God, and I don't believe in God. 271 00:23:02,642 --> 00:23:05,601 - God. A higher power, a power greater than yourself 272 00:23:05,645 --> 00:23:08,952 - Either way, however you want to put it, higher power, 273 00:23:08,996 --> 00:23:11,390 what you actually mean is God. Right? 274 00:23:11,433 --> 00:23:14,088 Mr. Frey, I'm gonna level with you. 275 00:23:14,958 --> 00:23:16,917 We are a drug-rehabilitation centre 276 00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:19,310 whose sole purpose is to help addicts. 277 00:23:19,354 --> 00:23:21,878 [James coughing] Not Christians or Jews, 278 00:23:21,922 --> 00:23:24,446 or Muslims or Buddhists... but addicts. 279 00:23:24,490 --> 00:23:27,057 And every addict needs structure. 280 00:23:27,101 --> 00:23:30,757 They need a strong foundation and support system if they ever hope to survive. 281 00:23:30,800 --> 00:23:33,237 - Who said I'm an addict? I'm not an addict. 282 00:23:34,674 --> 00:23:37,633 - Mm. - I'm not an addict. Okay? 283 00:23:37,677 --> 00:23:41,028 - Okay. - I might be fucked up. I'm not an addict. 284 00:23:42,551 --> 00:23:46,163 - Well, we have a saying here: It's one day at a time. 285 00:23:46,207 --> 00:23:48,339 And in about 10 minutes, it's breakfast. 286 00:23:48,383 --> 00:23:52,735 I'll be in room 312 if you want to talk to me about anything. 287 00:23:52,779 --> 00:23:54,128 Okay? 288 00:23:58,393 --> 00:24:01,440 - I can't take these... fucking meds anymore. 289 00:24:03,877 --> 00:24:06,357 - I'll talk to Dr. Baker for you, okay? 290 00:24:06,575 --> 00:24:08,403 The first week's the hardest. 291 00:24:16,237 --> 00:24:18,587 [thunder rumbling] [rainfall] 292 00:24:34,037 --> 00:24:35,604 [thunder] 293 00:24:53,274 --> 00:24:55,058 [indistinct chatter] 294 00:25:03,937 --> 00:25:06,200 [clatter] - ...spinach and roughage. 295 00:25:06,243 --> 00:25:07,984 Double of everything. 296 00:25:19,300 --> 00:25:22,129 What do you say, James? Are you fucked up? 297 00:25:22,956 --> 00:25:26,525 'Cause I'm a little fucked up. My buddies are fucked up. 298 00:25:27,308 --> 00:25:30,267 So we thought we might just eat here with you, y'know? 299 00:25:30,311 --> 00:25:32,487 This is the fucked-up table, right? 300 00:25:33,880 --> 00:25:35,577 - It is now. 301 00:25:35,621 --> 00:25:37,971 - This is Ed and that's Ted. No relation. 302 00:25:38,014 --> 00:25:40,495 So Ed here fucked his best friend's wife. 303 00:25:40,539 --> 00:25:44,673 His best friend got pissed off and pulled his hair plugs out. Ain't that some shit? 304 00:25:44,717 --> 00:25:47,197 That's why he wears that Bon Jovi thing. 305 00:25:47,241 --> 00:25:50,636 - Look, no offense, but, uh, I don't want to be friends. 306 00:25:50,679 --> 00:25:54,117 - I understand that. The last fucking thing I need is more friends. 307 00:25:54,509 --> 00:25:58,295 Just thought it was kinda funny the way you whipped Roy's ass. He's a little weasel, y'know? 308 00:25:58,339 --> 00:25:59,688 - I didn't. [clatter] 309 00:26:00,907 --> 00:26:02,604 - Really? 310 00:26:02,648 --> 00:26:04,519 Alright, then-- [clatter] 311 00:26:05,172 --> 00:26:08,567 You guys know if that's chicken or fish? Should we just roll the dice? 312 00:26:08,915 --> 00:26:10,699 - Did you hear what I said, James? 313 00:26:11,918 --> 00:26:13,702 Do you understand what I said? 314 00:26:16,270 --> 00:26:18,054 Let me put it more bluntly. 315 00:26:18,707 --> 00:26:21,101 We've looked at all your blood work, 316 00:26:21,144 --> 00:26:22,581 examined all the tests. 317 00:26:24,583 --> 00:26:28,630 Your body has suffered a pattern of such profound and prolonged abuse, I'm... 318 00:26:28,674 --> 00:26:32,155 surprised you can even stand, let alone walk. 319 00:26:33,722 --> 00:26:37,204 You've done near-fatal damage to all your major organs. 320 00:26:38,031 --> 00:26:39,902 Lungs, stomach, bladder, 321 00:26:39,946 --> 00:26:42,557 kidneys, liver, your heart. 322 00:26:43,384 --> 00:26:44,646 Everything. 323 00:26:48,171 --> 00:26:49,738 I've never seen... 324 00:26:49,782 --> 00:26:53,350 this degree of degradation in someone so young. 325 00:26:53,916 --> 00:26:56,310 If you were to start using again, 326 00:26:56,353 --> 00:26:59,705 it's more than likely that you would go into cardiac arrest immediately. 327 00:26:59,748 --> 00:27:01,402 And that would be it. 328 00:27:08,627 --> 00:27:10,977 - Ah! [groaning] 329 00:27:13,066 --> 00:27:16,765 - Even a single drink could result in death within days. 330 00:27:17,766 --> 00:27:19,072 The end. 331 00:27:20,334 --> 00:27:21,596 Finished. 332 00:27:36,089 --> 00:27:39,135 - Oh! What the fuck, John?! Get the fuck outta here, man! 333 00:27:39,179 --> 00:27:41,442 - I just thought you might want some company. 334 00:27:41,485 --> 00:27:43,792 - Get the fuck out, John. - No, it's okay. - No, it's not okay. 335 00:27:43,836 --> 00:27:46,186 - Just put it in my mouth. - It's not okay. - Just try it. 336 00:27:46,229 --> 00:27:48,797 - No. What are you doing?! Get off your fuckin' knees, goddammit. Get up! 337 00:27:48,841 --> 00:27:50,451 - No. Ah, come on. 338 00:27:53,802 --> 00:27:56,936 Fuck. Stop! Stop, stop! 339 00:27:58,415 --> 00:28:00,679 I'm sorry. - Put on a fucking towel. 340 00:28:01,375 --> 00:28:04,508 - You can hit me if you want. - No, no, no. I don't want to hit you. 341 00:28:04,552 --> 00:28:06,728 - Yeah, you do. I can see that. You're mad at me. 342 00:28:06,772 --> 00:28:09,339 - No, I don't. - I did something wrong. - John, I'm not gonna hit you. 343 00:28:09,383 --> 00:28:11,864 - Come on, it's fun. You can hit me. - No, it's not fun. 344 00:28:11,907 --> 00:28:14,344 I don't find it-- - Hit me! - Stay off me. 345 00:28:14,388 --> 00:28:16,564 - I'm sorry. I'm sorry. - Goddammit, John. - I'm sorry. 346 00:28:16,607 --> 00:28:18,305 - Leave me alone. - I'm sorry. 347 00:28:18,348 --> 00:28:19,654 It's alright. 348 00:28:32,406 --> 00:28:34,277 [insect buzzing] 349 00:28:36,236 --> 00:28:37,846 [applause] 350 00:28:39,848 --> 00:28:42,329 - Having succeeded in a lot of things in my life, 351 00:28:42,372 --> 00:28:45,811 I think my biggest fear was that I wasn't gonna succeed in this. 352 00:28:45,854 --> 00:28:48,248 But you guys give me an incredible gift. 353 00:28:48,291 --> 00:28:49,728 A gift that I know... 354 00:28:49,771 --> 00:28:52,295 - I give him two weeks. [James sighing] 355 00:28:53,427 --> 00:28:54,907 - I give him one. 356 00:28:54,950 --> 00:28:57,257 - No, it'll be two. You want to make a wager? 357 00:28:57,300 --> 00:28:59,128 [Roy]: One step at a time. Thank you. 358 00:28:59,172 --> 00:29:01,696 [applause] - All this is bullshit. 359 00:29:15,101 --> 00:29:18,365 - Hey, hang on a second, kid. - Oh, God, leave me alone. 360 00:29:18,408 --> 00:29:20,497 - Come back inside. Let's talk. Come on. 361 00:29:20,541 --> 00:29:22,282 - Stop fucking following me! Stop! 362 00:29:22,325 --> 00:29:24,327 - What are you so goddamn afraid of? 363 00:29:25,111 --> 00:29:29,028 - Fuck you. - Yeah, fuck me, fuck everybody, go fuck yourself. 364 00:29:29,071 --> 00:29:31,073 Die in the street in your own puke. 365 00:29:31,117 --> 00:29:33,510 - Why do you give a shit? - You know, frankly, I don't give a shit. 366 00:29:33,554 --> 00:29:35,121 - Well, then, fuck off! - Ha! 367 00:29:35,164 --> 00:29:37,210 Really? I think you do fucking care. 368 00:29:37,253 --> 00:29:39,299 I also think you're a fucking pussy 369 00:29:39,342 --> 00:29:41,997 and you don't have the balls to face it! 370 00:29:42,041 --> 00:29:43,869 That's what I think! [grunting] 371 00:29:43,912 --> 00:29:47,307 So you do have life left in you. - What is it you fucking want? 372 00:29:47,350 --> 00:29:49,570 - It's not what I want. It's what you want. 373 00:29:49,613 --> 00:29:51,833 You're choking to death, you're so fucking scared. 374 00:29:51,877 --> 00:29:55,619 But it's a trick. It's a mind-fuck. You can win this thing. 375 00:29:57,360 --> 00:29:58,709 You can win it. 376 00:29:58,753 --> 00:30:00,363 - I can't. - Yeah, you can! 377 00:30:03,932 --> 00:30:05,847 Why don't you fuckin' let go of me? 378 00:30:05,891 --> 00:30:07,762 I got ribs like a fuckin' blue jay. 379 00:30:14,769 --> 00:30:18,033 Tell you what. I'll make a deal with you. 380 00:30:18,077 --> 00:30:20,557 You go back in there for 24 hours - 381 00:30:20,601 --> 00:30:22,777 just give it 24 hours, that's it - 382 00:30:22,821 --> 00:30:25,911 and if you still feel this way this time tomorrow, 383 00:30:25,954 --> 00:30:28,652 I'll pack your bags and send you away with a sandwich. 384 00:30:35,398 --> 00:30:36,835 Twenty-four fucking hours. 385 00:30:38,271 --> 00:30:39,533 Deal? 386 00:30:44,973 --> 00:30:48,629 - It doesn't mean we're fucking friends. - Damn right it doesn't. 387 00:30:56,637 --> 00:30:57,986 [playing] 388 00:31:00,554 --> 00:31:02,512 - Didn't appreciate you disrespecting our room the other day. 389 00:31:02,556 --> 00:31:05,124 You might think this is a joke, but it's not for me. 390 00:31:05,167 --> 00:31:06,908 - Well, I'm not gonna be here much longer, 391 00:31:06,952 --> 00:31:09,128 so you can enjoy sticking that in your asshole tonight. 392 00:31:09,171 --> 00:31:11,478 - Well, meantime, I can do without your bullshit. 393 00:31:11,521 --> 00:31:14,437 - Yeah, I can do without your murdering the goddamn clarinet! 394 00:31:16,004 --> 00:31:17,832 [playing] 395 00:31:19,965 --> 00:31:21,662 [groaning] 396 00:31:27,233 --> 00:31:28,582 Ah! 397 00:31:29,235 --> 00:31:30,845 [banging] 398 00:31:34,849 --> 00:31:37,025 Ah, goddammit. [sniffling] 399 00:32:14,715 --> 00:32:16,804 - What's up, buddy? - Wow. 400 00:32:18,719 --> 00:32:20,199 What are you doing here? 401 00:32:21,069 --> 00:32:23,898 - It's visiting day. What you think I'm doing? 402 00:32:27,510 --> 00:32:28,903 - What's all this? 403 00:32:29,730 --> 00:32:31,688 - I, uh, brought you some stuff. 404 00:32:31,732 --> 00:32:33,690 - You didn't have to do that. 405 00:32:33,734 --> 00:32:35,605 - I wanted to. Here, take a look. 406 00:32:35,649 --> 00:32:37,085 - I'd rather just talk. 407 00:32:38,521 --> 00:32:39,914 - Just take a look. 408 00:32:45,398 --> 00:32:47,922 [chuckling] - Good job, Mom. 409 00:32:48,662 --> 00:32:49,968 - There's more. 410 00:33:02,937 --> 00:33:06,375 Bunch of people reached out, wanted to see how you're doing. 411 00:33:07,376 --> 00:33:09,248 Julie and Kirk send their best. 412 00:33:10,771 --> 00:33:13,426 - What about Arctic Eyes? She check in with you yet? 413 00:33:14,688 --> 00:33:16,995 - Uh, no. No, nothing from her. 414 00:33:29,050 --> 00:33:30,356 I quit. 415 00:33:44,370 --> 00:33:46,720 - What if I'm fucked up beyond repair? 416 00:33:51,072 --> 00:33:53,118 - I saw this thing on TV, 417 00:33:53,161 --> 00:33:55,381 about how in Japan... 418 00:33:56,295 --> 00:33:59,776 ...they, like... repair broken objects with gold. 419 00:34:00,734 --> 00:34:03,563 It's like the flaw becomes a part of its history. 420 00:34:03,606 --> 00:34:05,391 Part of what makes it beautiful. 421 00:34:06,305 --> 00:34:08,785 - Nothing about what I am is beautiful. 422 00:34:11,005 --> 00:34:13,573 - I was thinking maybe you should get some gold teeth. 423 00:34:13,616 --> 00:34:15,053 [James chuckling] 424 00:34:17,185 --> 00:34:20,841 - Only 15% stay sober after they leave this place. 425 00:34:21,842 --> 00:34:24,062 And that's only after the first year. 426 00:34:24,105 --> 00:34:28,153 [sniffling] Those are the real statistics. The ones they don't advertise. 427 00:34:30,198 --> 00:34:32,026 - Why are saying that shit? 428 00:34:32,766 --> 00:34:34,072 - It's a fact. 429 00:34:38,032 --> 00:34:39,425 - Who's that? 430 00:34:40,861 --> 00:34:42,167 Come on. 431 00:34:42,210 --> 00:34:44,082 [patting leg] Let's go back. 432 00:34:44,647 --> 00:34:46,954 - I think I might just stay here a while. 433 00:34:51,524 --> 00:34:52,786 - Yeah? 434 00:34:57,660 --> 00:34:59,053 See you next week. 435 00:35:03,449 --> 00:35:05,842 I'm gonna see you next week. 436 00:35:05,886 --> 00:35:07,061 - Sure. 437 00:35:18,812 --> 00:35:20,901 [train whistle blowing] 438 00:35:23,686 --> 00:35:25,601 [woman]: Why are you calling me? 439 00:35:25,645 --> 00:35:28,822 - But didn't anyone tell you where I am or... 440 00:35:28,865 --> 00:35:30,215 what I'm doing? I mean-- 441 00:35:30,258 --> 00:35:32,173 - James, this really isn't a good time. 442 00:35:32,217 --> 00:35:34,915 - What do you think this is for me, fucking party time? 443 00:35:34,958 --> 00:35:36,917 - James, I'm not doing this right now! [disconnection] 444 00:35:46,187 --> 00:35:47,928 [phone ringing] 445 00:35:48,929 --> 00:35:53,151 - Look, I didn't mean that. I know I put you through a lot. 446 00:35:53,194 --> 00:35:57,155 I just thought you'd be... happy I was here, is all, y'know? 447 00:35:57,198 --> 00:35:58,591 - I am. 448 00:35:59,722 --> 00:36:01,202 - Wait, who is this? 449 00:36:01,246 --> 00:36:03,683 - I thought you knew. Now I'm offended. 450 00:36:03,726 --> 00:36:06,164 - No, don't be. I just wasn't expecting... 451 00:36:07,948 --> 00:36:09,689 [chuckling] Who is this? 452 00:36:09,732 --> 00:36:12,909 - My grandma thought you were very handsome today. 453 00:36:12,953 --> 00:36:16,174 - Oh, she did, did she? You sure she didn't mean my brother? 454 00:36:17,305 --> 00:36:20,395 [sighing] How did you know I'd answer? 455 00:36:20,439 --> 00:36:22,702 - I didn't. 456 00:36:22,745 --> 00:36:26,184 Hey, you know we're the youngest two in here by at least 10 years? 457 00:36:26,749 --> 00:36:28,969 - No, I-I didn't know that. How'd you know that? 458 00:36:29,012 --> 00:36:31,493 - It's bullshit that men and women can't talk to each other. 459 00:36:31,537 --> 00:36:33,365 - Hmm. Yeah. 460 00:36:33,408 --> 00:36:37,369 I guess it's not supposed to feel like the real world in here. 461 00:36:37,412 --> 00:36:40,285 - They're shutting us off from something that's completely natural. 462 00:36:40,328 --> 00:36:44,202 What am I supposed to do? Leave this place and never talk to another man again? 463 00:36:44,245 --> 00:36:46,508 Shit, I can't quit that too. 464 00:36:46,552 --> 00:36:47,770 - Hmm. 465 00:36:50,947 --> 00:36:52,993 I'm glad you called. 466 00:36:54,255 --> 00:36:56,475 - I'm lucky I got you. - Huh. 467 00:36:57,911 --> 00:36:59,782 - See you in the Lecture Hall, I guess. 468 00:37:01,784 --> 00:37:03,221 - Turn around. 469 00:37:04,265 --> 00:37:06,180 - Turn around? - Yeah. 470 00:37:10,010 --> 00:37:11,229 - Oops. 471 00:37:12,491 --> 00:37:13,753 Busted. 472 00:37:15,798 --> 00:37:18,627 It wasn't my grandma that thought you were handsome. 473 00:37:19,280 --> 00:37:20,716 It was me. 474 00:37:53,314 --> 00:37:55,229 [soft music] 475 00:37:58,624 --> 00:38:00,234 ♪ Still 476 00:38:02,976 --> 00:38:04,543 ♪ Falling 477 00:38:09,722 --> 00:38:13,291 ♪ Breathless and on... 478 00:38:14,074 --> 00:38:15,641 ♪ Again 479 00:38:21,081 --> 00:38:22,648 ♪ Inside 480 00:38:25,433 --> 00:38:27,261 ♪ Today 481 00:38:32,440 --> 00:38:35,269 ♪ Beside me 482 00:38:36,705 --> 00:38:38,316 ♪ Today 483 00:38:43,582 --> 00:38:45,801 ♪ A round 484 00:38:45,845 --> 00:38:47,629 ♪ Broken 485 00:38:47,673 --> 00:38:49,762 ♪ In two ♪ 486 00:38:50,589 --> 00:38:52,286 [door opening] 487 00:38:56,290 --> 00:38:58,727 - James. She's pretty, right? 488 00:38:58,771 --> 00:39:00,860 - Um, yeah, she's pretty, yes. 489 00:39:00,903 --> 00:39:03,384 - She's 22. Come here. You can take her out if you want. 490 00:39:03,428 --> 00:39:06,779 I feel bad about the other day, and I want to make it up to you. 491 00:39:06,822 --> 00:39:09,738 - Okay, okay, let it go. - No, you can do whatever you want to her. 492 00:39:09,782 --> 00:39:11,740 I'm her father, so she'll do what I say. 493 00:39:11,784 --> 00:39:14,090 - Jesus Christ! - What, is that bad? 494 00:39:14,134 --> 00:39:16,049 - She's your fucking daughter, man. 495 00:39:16,092 --> 00:39:17,572 So, yeah. 496 00:39:17,616 --> 00:39:19,661 - Oh, I'm sorry, man. 497 00:39:19,705 --> 00:39:21,663 Fucking judgmental prick. 498 00:39:21,707 --> 00:39:23,317 - Appreciate that. 499 00:39:25,928 --> 00:39:27,800 [James sighing] 500 00:39:28,322 --> 00:39:31,151 - Goddamn, that'll make a gorilla shit the tree house. 501 00:39:31,194 --> 00:39:33,719 - Mm-hmm. I'm glad I can be of service. 502 00:39:34,415 --> 00:39:38,158 - So you decided to flip the tables, huh? - What? 503 00:39:38,506 --> 00:39:41,291 - Well, it's been longer than 24 hours. You're still here. 504 00:39:41,944 --> 00:39:44,207 - I was just on my way out, actually. 505 00:39:44,251 --> 00:39:47,472 - There's no shame in it. You decided to stay. - No, I decided not to leave. 506 00:39:47,515 --> 00:39:50,649 Don't want to be responsible for you having a fucking heart attack trying to stop me. 507 00:39:50,692 --> 00:39:52,564 - So it was an entirely selfless act? 508 00:39:52,607 --> 00:39:55,044 - Fuck you. - No matter how you slice it... 509 00:39:55,088 --> 00:39:57,220 We were having a conversation here, James. 510 00:39:57,264 --> 00:39:59,397 I was just getting to the good shit. 511 00:40:01,529 --> 00:40:04,793 - Alright, you ready for your brand-new smile? 512 00:40:04,837 --> 00:40:06,491 - What's wrong with this one? 513 00:40:06,534 --> 00:40:08,971 - Nothing. They're perfect. Let's get outta here. 514 00:40:09,537 --> 00:40:11,321 Alright, kid, look. 515 00:40:11,365 --> 00:40:13,715 I know you got a pair of balls of your own, but... 516 00:40:13,759 --> 00:40:16,326 I figure you might need these, too. 517 00:40:16,370 --> 00:40:17,676 - Why? 518 00:40:19,373 --> 00:40:22,158 - James, they're not gonna give you... anesthesia, 519 00:40:22,202 --> 00:40:23,682 painkillers, none of it. 520 00:40:25,118 --> 00:40:26,685 They can't. 521 00:40:26,728 --> 00:40:29,122 Not while you're a patient at the treatment centre. 522 00:40:31,298 --> 00:40:32,778 - Okay. 523 00:40:33,996 --> 00:40:35,389 - It starts hurting... 524 00:40:36,216 --> 00:40:37,783 ...you start squeezing. 525 00:40:39,219 --> 00:40:40,438 - Alrighty. 526 00:40:42,135 --> 00:40:45,443 Here we go. Okay, I am just gonna lower you just a bit. 527 00:40:45,486 --> 00:40:47,140 - Mm-hmm. - James... 528 00:40:47,183 --> 00:40:48,576 There we go. 529 00:40:53,712 --> 00:40:55,453 Do you mind if we move the book? 530 00:40:57,411 --> 00:40:59,892 - I... I'd rather you didn't. 531 00:41:00,588 --> 00:41:01,894 - Okay, okay. 532 00:41:03,025 --> 00:41:05,201 Here we come, James. 533 00:41:05,245 --> 00:41:07,465 Open. Please turn towards me. 534 00:41:07,508 --> 00:41:10,206 - Mm-hmm. - Thank you. Just... 535 00:41:10,250 --> 00:41:12,731 Mm-hmm. I'm just checking things. 536 00:41:13,601 --> 00:41:15,385 Okay. - Oh! - Ah! Okay. 537 00:41:15,429 --> 00:41:16,909 Cotton, please? 538 00:41:18,824 --> 00:41:20,478 Alright. [sighing] 539 00:41:23,611 --> 00:41:25,439 Okay. Ahem. 540 00:41:27,049 --> 00:41:29,922 We've gotta move quickly. Here we go. 541 00:41:30,749 --> 00:41:32,446 And here we... 542 00:41:37,277 --> 00:41:38,626 [moaning] 543 00:41:39,627 --> 00:41:41,281 [moaning] 544 00:41:42,630 --> 00:41:44,066 - Ah! 545 00:41:45,198 --> 00:41:46,547 [moaning] 546 00:41:46,591 --> 00:41:48,506 [crying out] 547 00:41:51,639 --> 00:41:53,423 [screaming] 548 00:41:54,947 --> 00:41:57,297 Ah... [panting] 549 00:41:59,952 --> 00:42:02,868 - This is... this is just a precaution. - For what? 550 00:42:02,911 --> 00:42:05,827 - So I don't injure the back of your throat. 551 00:42:05,871 --> 00:42:08,090 - My throat? - I need you to be still. 552 00:42:08,134 --> 00:42:10,049 But in case, this is a precaution. 553 00:42:10,092 --> 00:42:12,530 We'll move as fast as we can, James. 554 00:42:13,313 --> 00:42:15,010 - Okay. - Alright, tight. 555 00:42:15,837 --> 00:42:17,796 Okay, hold his head. 556 00:42:18,623 --> 00:42:20,059 Are you ready? 557 00:42:20,102 --> 00:42:22,365 [whimpering] Okay, here we go. 558 00:42:22,888 --> 00:42:26,326 Here we go, James. Open. Open. Okay. 559 00:42:26,892 --> 00:42:28,458 [moaning] 560 00:42:33,812 --> 00:42:35,814 [screaming] 561 00:42:48,522 --> 00:42:50,524 [TV playing] 562 00:42:59,838 --> 00:43:01,535 - Oh, shit. 563 00:43:18,639 --> 00:43:19,988 [knocking] 564 00:43:21,642 --> 00:43:23,165 - You found me. 565 00:43:24,384 --> 00:43:25,733 Well, come in. 566 00:43:26,168 --> 00:43:28,388 There's the couch there if you'd like. 567 00:43:32,174 --> 00:43:33,611 Coffee? - Hmm? 568 00:43:35,961 --> 00:43:37,571 Sure. Thanks. 569 00:43:39,704 --> 00:43:41,793 [pouring] 570 00:43:41,836 --> 00:43:43,751 [clatter] That's yours? 571 00:43:45,057 --> 00:43:47,059 - No, that's my boyfriend's. 572 00:43:47,973 --> 00:43:49,627 I ride. 573 00:43:49,670 --> 00:43:51,280 Yeah. 574 00:43:51,324 --> 00:43:52,978 Had him about 10 years. 575 00:43:54,414 --> 00:43:56,024 Turns out... 576 00:43:56,068 --> 00:43:58,810 there's a way to feed the soul, not just destroy it. 577 00:44:01,421 --> 00:44:05,294 - We'd go on fishing trips... now and then. 578 00:44:05,338 --> 00:44:07,993 I was never good with a rod, but... 579 00:44:08,689 --> 00:44:10,648 ...I can drink like a fish. 580 00:44:12,606 --> 00:44:14,390 - Yeah. 581 00:44:14,434 --> 00:44:16,044 I could too once. 582 00:44:17,785 --> 00:44:20,527 - But you're not AA. - Yeah. 583 00:44:20,570 --> 00:44:22,007 We're all AA here. 584 00:44:22,790 --> 00:44:24,705 Everyone who works in this joint, 585 00:44:24,749 --> 00:44:26,664 from the janitors to the counsellors. 586 00:44:26,707 --> 00:44:28,666 We're all addicts. 587 00:44:33,105 --> 00:44:34,584 [James sighing] 588 00:44:35,803 --> 00:44:39,067 - Well, I don't know how I'm supposed to... leave here 589 00:44:39,111 --> 00:44:42,680 and never smoke crack or drink a drop of alcohol again. 590 00:44:43,811 --> 00:44:47,249 You expect me to do that for the rest of my fucking life? 591 00:44:48,468 --> 00:44:49,817 I love crack. 592 00:44:50,644 --> 00:44:52,254 I fuckin' love it. 593 00:44:54,953 --> 00:44:57,259 And I can't stop. I can't. 594 00:44:58,130 --> 00:45:01,524 - James, as soon as you realize that there is no choice, 595 00:45:01,568 --> 00:45:03,352 there's a choice. 596 00:45:03,396 --> 00:45:04,702 You see? 597 00:45:06,399 --> 00:45:08,531 - Sounds like a load of horseshit. 598 00:45:08,575 --> 00:45:10,098 - Maybe. 599 00:45:10,142 --> 00:45:12,231 But it works. [James sighing] 600 00:45:12,274 --> 00:45:13,972 You just did the first step. 601 00:45:16,278 --> 00:45:19,673 - Well, if it's one of the 12, it's the only one I'm doing. 602 00:45:20,630 --> 00:45:22,241 - Which brings us to... 603 00:45:22,284 --> 00:45:23,764 step five. 604 00:45:23,808 --> 00:45:26,027 The fifth step. 605 00:45:26,071 --> 00:45:28,769 We have admitted to God, to ourselves, 606 00:45:28,813 --> 00:45:32,991 and to another human being, the exact nature of our wrongs. 607 00:45:33,513 --> 00:45:37,038 Now, what I want to say about that is that... 608 00:45:37,082 --> 00:45:39,084 your sins are pardonable. 609 00:45:40,172 --> 00:45:42,043 There is forgiveness. 610 00:45:42,087 --> 00:45:44,654 That's really what the fifth step is about. 611 00:45:44,698 --> 00:45:47,048 Forgiveness through confession. 612 00:45:48,615 --> 00:45:52,271 Seeking to forgive others that we believe have harmed us. 613 00:45:52,314 --> 00:45:54,534 [door slamming] 614 00:45:59,713 --> 00:46:01,715 [soft music] 615 00:47:14,396 --> 00:47:15,745 - "What is rooted will grow. 616 00:47:15,789 --> 00:47:18,923 A giant tree grows from a single seed. 617 00:47:18,966 --> 00:47:23,362 The journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step. 618 00:47:23,405 --> 00:47:26,756 If you have nothing, you have nothing to lose. 619 00:47:26,800 --> 00:47:29,107 [screaming] - Roy! 620 00:47:29,150 --> 00:47:31,109 - Get back, old man! You're in my way! 621 00:47:31,152 --> 00:47:32,632 Get back, old man! Stand down! 622 00:47:32,675 --> 00:47:34,721 Fuck you! Get back! Get back! Get back! 623 00:47:34,764 --> 00:47:38,333 Look at me again and I swear to God, I'll bash your brains in, man! 624 00:47:38,377 --> 00:47:40,248 I swear to God! [Roy crying] - Roy? 625 00:47:40,292 --> 00:47:43,425 - I'll kill you. I'll fuckin'... [panting] You. 626 00:47:43,469 --> 00:47:45,775 C'mere. Come on. Come on! 627 00:47:45,819 --> 00:47:48,126 Come on, you! Come on. 628 00:47:48,169 --> 00:47:50,041 C'mere, c'mere. 629 00:47:51,216 --> 00:47:54,306 - What do you want, Roy? - Roy? There's no Roy! 630 00:47:54,349 --> 00:47:56,743 I'm a fucking god!! 631 00:47:56,786 --> 00:48:00,094 And the only thing between you and me is this fucking staff! 632 00:48:00,138 --> 00:48:01,879 You hear me? So you submit. 633 00:48:01,922 --> 00:48:03,750 - Roy, put the fucking lamp down, okay? 634 00:48:03,793 --> 00:48:05,360 - Submit!! You will submit to me, 635 00:48:05,404 --> 00:48:07,841 or I swear to God, I'll fucking injure you. 636 00:48:07,885 --> 00:48:09,930 - Alright, alright, alright. - Surrender. Shhh! Surr... 637 00:48:09,974 --> 00:48:12,454 No, no! No! They don't like him!! 638 00:48:12,498 --> 00:48:14,761 - Alright, alright. It's just you and me. Look at me. 639 00:48:14,804 --> 00:48:16,197 - Surren...Shhh! You didn't pray. 640 00:48:16,241 --> 00:48:18,373 I wanna help you. You need to pray. 641 00:48:18,417 --> 00:48:20,680 And he's listening. And you're gonna submit before God, 642 00:48:20,723 --> 00:48:22,247 or fight the Higher Power! 643 00:48:22,290 --> 00:48:24,902 Get on your knees! Get down... 644 00:48:24,945 --> 00:48:27,948 - Like this? - Close your eyes. 645 00:48:27,992 --> 00:48:30,733 Close your eyes!! Put your hands together. 646 00:48:30,777 --> 00:48:33,127 We're gonna pray. We're gonna pray. 647 00:48:33,171 --> 00:48:35,260 By a power greater than me, 648 00:48:35,303 --> 00:48:36,914 I'm gonna do you a service, okay? 649 00:48:36,957 --> 00:48:38,567 - No! [Roy exclaiming] 650 00:48:38,611 --> 00:48:41,701 [sobbing] I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 651 00:48:41,744 --> 00:48:44,660 I'm sorry. I'm going to hell. [sobbing] 652 00:48:44,704 --> 00:48:47,837 - Show's over! - I'm sorry. - Go back to your rooms! 653 00:48:50,014 --> 00:48:52,016 I said show's over! 654 00:48:53,191 --> 00:48:55,062 [Roy crying] 655 00:49:02,287 --> 00:49:04,942 - You been here all night? - Pretty much. 656 00:49:06,508 --> 00:49:08,641 - Let's take a walk. 657 00:49:08,684 --> 00:49:11,078 - What makes you think I'm going anywhere with you looking like that? 658 00:49:12,297 --> 00:49:14,821 - Looking like what? - What the hell are you wearing? 659 00:49:14,864 --> 00:49:16,954 - Let me tell you something, buddy boy. 660 00:49:16,997 --> 00:49:20,305 These glasses are a down payment on a pretty fuckin' decent car. 661 00:49:20,348 --> 00:49:22,742 Okay? You see this watch? 662 00:49:22,785 --> 00:49:24,526 There's enough gold in this fucking watch, 663 00:49:24,570 --> 00:49:26,920 where if I hit you, it'd kill you instantly. 664 00:49:26,964 --> 00:49:29,053 - I was talking about the onesie. 665 00:49:29,096 --> 00:49:32,186 That's the kind of thing my mom would put me in for a family portrait. 666 00:49:32,230 --> 00:49:33,883 - Ah, yeah, whatever. 667 00:49:35,537 --> 00:49:37,757 How you doing? 668 00:49:37,800 --> 00:49:39,280 - I dunno. 669 00:49:39,324 --> 00:49:40,978 Fine, I guess. 670 00:49:41,021 --> 00:49:43,328 - Cut the bullshit. It's me you're talking to. 671 00:49:44,938 --> 00:49:46,896 [sighing] - Some days I feel okay, 672 00:49:46,940 --> 00:49:50,291 others I just want to crawl up in a dark hole and die. 673 00:49:50,335 --> 00:49:52,511 - Well, good. You're doing okay, then. 674 00:49:52,554 --> 00:49:54,513 Just hold on. 675 00:49:54,556 --> 00:49:56,950 - Oh, really? What would you know? You're a fuckin' cokehead. 676 00:50:04,349 --> 00:50:06,438 - I was just a kid, y'know? 677 00:50:06,481 --> 00:50:09,310 And I was on the streets for several months, 678 00:50:09,354 --> 00:50:11,965 and I met this guy, Mike the Nose. 679 00:50:12,009 --> 00:50:13,923 How about that? Mike the Nose? 680 00:50:13,967 --> 00:50:15,534 [James chuckling] 681 00:50:15,577 --> 00:50:17,579 He was kind of like the town hero. 682 00:50:17,623 --> 00:50:20,713 He was a gangster, had a Cadillac. You know, the whole deal. 683 00:50:20,756 --> 00:50:23,455 Anyhow, he and his wife Geena, they adopted me. 684 00:50:23,498 --> 00:50:25,979 Took me in and made my life good. 685 00:50:28,286 --> 00:50:32,812 And then Geena gets cancer and she dies way quicker than a human should have to. 686 00:50:35,162 --> 00:50:37,164 Of course, Mike went off the rails. 687 00:50:38,296 --> 00:50:41,038 Got into coke and whores and, y'know, liquor. 688 00:50:41,081 --> 00:50:42,735 The usual shit, y'know. 689 00:50:43,953 --> 00:50:47,174 And then he just... just disappeared. 690 00:50:49,089 --> 00:50:50,786 And... 691 00:50:50,830 --> 00:50:52,484 I didn't have anybody. 692 00:50:54,834 --> 00:50:56,314 Completely lost. 693 00:50:57,924 --> 00:51:00,013 So I went after it pretty hard. 694 00:51:02,842 --> 00:51:04,191 About a year later... 695 00:51:05,018 --> 00:51:07,760 ...one night, I heard this noise in my kitchen. 696 00:51:09,414 --> 00:51:12,025 So I go downstairs - with a gun, of course - 697 00:51:14,332 --> 00:51:19,076 and I nearly put one in the back of the head of this healthy-looking, 698 00:51:19,119 --> 00:51:21,252 put-together guy, y'know, who was bitching 699 00:51:21,295 --> 00:51:23,210 about how my refrigerator was empty. 700 00:51:25,647 --> 00:51:27,301 It was fuckin' Mike. 701 00:51:27,345 --> 00:51:28,868 - Huh. 702 00:51:30,043 --> 00:51:33,438 - And... he told me about this place. 703 00:51:34,787 --> 00:51:36,745 And he said... 704 00:51:36,789 --> 00:51:38,791 "Lenny, I've come to take you there." 705 00:51:39,879 --> 00:51:42,011 He said, "Now, you're gonna have some shitty days, 706 00:51:42,055 --> 00:51:44,405 probably the shittiest days you ever had in your life, 707 00:51:44,449 --> 00:51:46,581 and you're gonna have a pain in your soul 708 00:51:46,625 --> 00:51:48,061 like you never dreamed you'd have. 709 00:51:49,802 --> 00:51:51,456 But you'll get through it... 710 00:51:53,240 --> 00:51:56,548 ...and you will live sober and you will live free." 711 00:51:58,376 --> 00:52:01,422 - And did he live free and sober, or...? 712 00:52:01,466 --> 00:52:04,121 - So that night, we went out to celebrate. 713 00:52:04,860 --> 00:52:07,254 It was our first dinner after all that time, y'know. 714 00:52:07,298 --> 00:52:11,215 Well, we finish up and we go out front to the valet to get the car, 715 00:52:11,258 --> 00:52:15,088 and he gets gunned down by a bunch of motherfuckers that he owed money to. 716 00:52:17,090 --> 00:52:18,700 And that was it. 717 00:52:20,398 --> 00:52:22,095 You know what I did? 718 00:52:23,270 --> 00:52:25,142 - You came here. 719 00:52:26,708 --> 00:52:30,364 - I went and found every last motherfucking one of those guys 720 00:52:30,408 --> 00:52:32,410 and the people they worked for. 721 00:52:33,933 --> 00:52:35,413 And then I came here. 722 00:52:37,937 --> 00:52:42,028 I'm tortured by who I used to be and all the horrific things I did. 723 00:52:43,116 --> 00:52:46,946 It just runs in a loop in my head, some of it. 724 00:52:49,296 --> 00:52:52,125 And it... and it might not look like it... 725 00:52:52,952 --> 00:52:55,955 ...but I wanna kill myself every fucking day. 726 00:52:58,523 --> 00:53:00,829 But I hold on. 727 00:53:00,873 --> 00:53:02,744 'Cause I think of Mike. 728 00:53:03,789 --> 00:53:06,444 'Cause I made a promise and I don't break a promise. 729 00:53:09,534 --> 00:53:12,319 And I will live sober. And I will live free. 730 00:53:15,714 --> 00:53:17,629 You think you could do that? 731 00:53:18,325 --> 00:53:20,153 You think you can hold on? 732 00:53:26,290 --> 00:53:31,120 [all]: God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, 733 00:53:31,164 --> 00:53:34,211 the courage to change the things I can, 734 00:53:34,254 --> 00:53:36,952 and the wisdom to know the difference. 735 00:53:36,996 --> 00:53:38,563 - Good work today, guys. 736 00:53:39,999 --> 00:53:42,393 - You did good, kid. 737 00:53:42,436 --> 00:53:46,092 And you gotta remember, this fucking guy is a sheriff, so keep that in mind, right? 738 00:53:46,135 --> 00:53:47,963 Well, he looks exactly like Jackie Gleason. 739 00:53:48,007 --> 00:53:50,183 Where you going? You're gonna learn something here. 740 00:53:51,358 --> 00:53:53,230 - Oh, fuck. I'm sorry. 741 00:53:58,670 --> 00:54:01,412 - Anyways, what he would do is, he'd pull up in the front yard. 742 00:54:01,455 --> 00:54:03,805 He didn't get out of the car. He honked the horn. 743 00:54:03,849 --> 00:54:06,895 So we all stagger out on the fuckin' porch, all fucked up and everything... 744 00:54:23,695 --> 00:54:28,308 I can't remember, but I was surprised he lived to 44, y'know. 745 00:54:28,352 --> 00:54:32,225 Mesothelioma, or whatever they call it now, but back then... 746 00:54:34,706 --> 00:54:37,491 A recipe for disaster is what it was. 747 00:54:37,535 --> 00:54:39,972 That's all I know. [indistinct chatter] 748 00:54:55,335 --> 00:54:57,294 - Hi. 749 00:54:57,337 --> 00:54:58,860 Welcome. 750 00:55:00,253 --> 00:55:01,863 [Lilly laughing] 751 00:55:02,647 --> 00:55:05,171 So I suppose you have a girlfriend. 752 00:55:05,214 --> 00:55:06,955 - Why would you assume that? 753 00:55:06,999 --> 00:55:10,002 - 'Cause you went to college and everybody in college 754 00:55:10,045 --> 00:55:12,744 is dating or fucking or losing their virginity. 755 00:55:12,787 --> 00:55:15,442 - What makes you think I went to college? - Did you? 756 00:55:17,183 --> 00:55:18,271 - Yeah. 757 00:55:20,665 --> 00:55:23,232 - So how'd you lose your virginity? 758 00:55:23,276 --> 00:55:25,496 - How'd I lose my virginity? 759 00:55:25,539 --> 00:55:27,411 You... you don't wanna know. 760 00:55:27,454 --> 00:55:30,022 - Yeah, I do. It says a lot about a person. 761 00:55:31,589 --> 00:55:33,895 - Uh... I was 16. 762 00:55:34,592 --> 00:55:36,985 That's pretty... pretty late, right? 763 00:55:37,029 --> 00:55:41,729 You know, it is. No, I mean, my friends had lost theirs two or three years before. 764 00:55:41,773 --> 00:55:45,472 So I was, uh... feeling the pressure, you know? 765 00:55:46,908 --> 00:55:48,954 And, uh... it was prom night. 766 00:55:48,997 --> 00:55:51,304 - That's romantic. - Well, mm... no. 767 00:55:51,348 --> 00:55:55,047 I didn't actually have a date, and, uh... 768 00:55:59,399 --> 00:56:02,184 It was with a whore in the back of my mom's car. 769 00:56:03,925 --> 00:56:06,363 She was fucking disgusting. 770 00:56:07,059 --> 00:56:11,368 And she smelled bad. And she just talked to me in this fake dirty voice. 771 00:56:11,411 --> 00:56:13,631 It was over in seconds. It was... 772 00:56:16,634 --> 00:56:18,244 ...not at all romantic. 773 00:56:19,071 --> 00:56:21,769 And so I went home and said I had a good evening and... 774 00:56:23,162 --> 00:56:26,818 ...drank half a bottle of Wild Turkey and cried myself to sleep. 775 00:56:29,516 --> 00:56:31,300 [sighing] 776 00:56:31,344 --> 00:56:33,607 [scoffing] It's pretty pathetic, I know. 777 00:56:33,651 --> 00:56:35,348 It's pathetic, huh? 778 00:56:36,349 --> 00:56:38,133 - No. 779 00:56:38,177 --> 00:56:41,006 It's not as pathetic as attacking a baby tree. 780 00:56:41,049 --> 00:56:42,964 [James laughing] - Fuck you. [Lilly chuckling] 781 00:56:46,272 --> 00:56:48,187 I never told anyone that before. 782 00:56:58,676 --> 00:57:00,417 - What if I told you... 783 00:57:02,680 --> 00:57:06,205 ...that I lost my virginity as a whore instead of with one? 784 00:57:08,773 --> 00:57:10,427 - I would say I'm sorry. 785 00:57:15,997 --> 00:57:17,390 I'm sorry. 786 00:57:24,005 --> 00:57:26,530 How'd you find this fucking place? It's, uh... 787 00:57:31,578 --> 00:57:34,407 You know we could get thrown out for doing this? 788 00:57:39,151 --> 00:57:42,807 - A second of freedom is worth more than a lifetime of bondage. 789 00:57:46,332 --> 00:57:47,855 - Who said that? 790 00:57:49,422 --> 00:57:50,728 - I did. 791 00:57:52,164 --> 00:57:53,513 My grandma. 792 00:57:56,168 --> 00:57:57,604 - You really love her, huh? 793 00:57:59,606 --> 00:58:01,260 - More than anything. 794 00:58:07,527 --> 00:58:09,442 We should have a secret code. 795 00:58:10,269 --> 00:58:14,099 - Like... like what? Like how? - I don't know, like, uh... 796 00:58:14,142 --> 00:58:17,015 the amount of plates on your tray at lunch 797 00:58:17,058 --> 00:58:19,931 could mean the time that we meet up later. 798 00:58:20,845 --> 00:58:24,239 -Yeah, I could do that. It's... it's pretty easy. 799 00:58:24,283 --> 00:58:26,111 - Five plates? - Five o'clock. 800 00:58:26,154 --> 00:58:29,201 - Five o'clock. - Yeah, I get the concept. [laughing] 801 00:58:36,295 --> 00:58:38,645 - I've been looking for you. - Why? 802 00:58:40,865 --> 00:58:42,519 It's been opened. 803 00:58:42,562 --> 00:58:44,825 - What do you expect? You're in rehab. 804 00:59:02,887 --> 00:59:05,019 - Failure is an opportunity. 805 00:59:06,325 --> 00:59:09,502 If you blame others... there's no end to blame. 806 00:59:12,505 --> 00:59:14,159 Demand nothing... 807 00:59:15,073 --> 00:59:17,292 ...and give all. [clattering] 808 00:59:22,689 --> 00:59:24,909 [soft piano music] 809 00:59:36,703 --> 00:59:38,357 What's going on? 810 00:59:42,143 --> 00:59:44,537 - I'm just... I'm just scared. 811 00:59:51,849 --> 00:59:53,285 - Why's that? 812 00:59:59,160 --> 01:00:01,598 - I'm... I'm... I'm leaving and... and I... 813 01:00:03,948 --> 01:00:05,950 I... I know that I'm not better. 814 01:00:20,573 --> 01:00:23,750 I just... I just feel safe here, but, uh, I... 815 01:00:26,579 --> 01:00:30,061 And I know I'm gonna do something stupid and end up back in prison. 816 01:00:31,192 --> 01:00:32,629 - Why do you think that? 817 01:00:34,587 --> 01:00:36,371 [sniffling] 818 01:00:36,415 --> 01:00:38,199 - Do you think I'm strong? 819 01:00:54,215 --> 01:00:55,608 [sniffling] 820 01:00:57,610 --> 01:01:00,482 Here's my... here's my daughter's phone number. 821 01:01:00,526 --> 01:01:03,616 - John. - No, no, no, no, no. No, no, no. No, no. 822 01:01:03,660 --> 01:01:07,011 I... I just want you to... I want you to call her... 823 01:01:08,795 --> 01:01:11,232 ...and tell her that her father loves her. 824 01:01:12,930 --> 01:01:15,454 And that... I tried. 825 01:01:18,239 --> 01:01:19,806 I really tried, okay? 826 01:01:24,724 --> 01:01:26,247 - I'll do that. 827 01:01:28,249 --> 01:01:30,643 [sniffling] - You're such a fucking cowboy. 828 01:01:51,925 --> 01:01:55,712 [Lenny]: Yeah... that's Miles Davis's new roommate. 829 01:01:55,755 --> 01:01:57,496 [laughter] 830 01:02:05,286 --> 01:02:06,635 [clatter] - Shit. 831 01:02:06,679 --> 01:02:08,202 - Ten? 832 01:02:09,421 --> 01:02:11,902 - That is one sad motherfucking addiction. 833 01:02:11,945 --> 01:02:14,513 [laughter] - You got no idea, buddy. 834 01:02:14,556 --> 01:02:16,820 Have a seat, kid. I want you to meet somebody. 835 01:02:16,863 --> 01:02:18,560 This is Matty. 836 01:02:19,300 --> 01:02:22,347 - Oh, wait, I know you. Yeah, you're the Featherweight Champ. 837 01:02:22,390 --> 01:02:25,480 - More like the chunky-weight champ now, but same guy. 838 01:02:25,524 --> 01:02:27,787 - Fuck you, Lee. The chunky-weight champ 839 01:02:27,831 --> 01:02:29,658 can still knock a featherweight the fuck out. 840 01:02:29,702 --> 01:02:31,922 - I don't know, buddy. I think those days are over. 841 01:02:31,965 --> 01:02:35,142 - Nah. - Sure made me a lot of money, though. 842 01:02:35,186 --> 01:02:37,666 - Damn right. - Yeah. How are the kids? 843 01:02:37,710 --> 01:02:40,017 - Yeah, well, they don't talk to me no more. 844 01:02:40,060 --> 01:02:43,585 - Well, you're here now. That's all that matters, y'know. 845 01:02:43,629 --> 01:02:45,413 [toilet flushing] 846 01:02:45,457 --> 01:02:47,851 - So is your name really Miles Davis? 847 01:02:47,894 --> 01:02:50,679 - Yes, it is. It's on my birth certificate. 848 01:02:50,723 --> 01:02:54,205 And I don't play the trumpet. I play the clarinet. 849 01:02:54,248 --> 01:02:56,685 - Yeah, shame you can't play as good, though, huh? 850 01:02:56,729 --> 01:02:59,863 - Well, that's why I'm a judge, not a musician. - You're a judge? 851 01:02:59,906 --> 01:03:02,604 [laughing] They put me in here with a fucking judge? 852 01:03:02,648 --> 01:03:05,085 - Been to prison, or something? 853 01:03:05,129 --> 01:03:08,872 - I skipped bail on a bunch of charges, but I'm not going to prison. 854 01:03:08,915 --> 01:03:10,917 - Got warrants on you, then. 855 01:03:12,136 --> 01:03:13,877 - Okay, Your Honour. 856 01:03:13,920 --> 01:03:15,704 I, uh... 857 01:03:15,748 --> 01:03:19,404 flipped a car, hit a cop, kicked the shit outta some kid, 858 01:03:19,447 --> 01:03:21,928 set fire to my neighbour's new Jag, I... 859 01:03:24,583 --> 01:03:26,846 ...sold drugs, theft. You know, dumb shit. 860 01:03:26,890 --> 01:03:29,153 - You won't get an argument from me. 861 01:03:30,371 --> 01:03:33,200 - I'm sorry, Your Honour, can I be, uh, dismissed? 862 01:03:33,244 --> 01:03:34,723 - Where are you going? 863 01:03:35,768 --> 01:03:37,596 - I think I might plead the fifth. 864 01:03:40,599 --> 01:03:41,948 - You're gonna get in trouble. 865 01:03:44,559 --> 01:03:46,953 ♪ Candy says... 866 01:03:49,608 --> 01:03:53,960 ♪ I've come to hate my body 867 01:03:55,875 --> 01:03:59,836 ♪ And all that it requires 868 01:03:59,879 --> 01:04:02,273 ♪ In this world... 869 01:04:07,887 --> 01:04:10,803 ♪ Candy says... 870 01:04:14,024 --> 01:04:18,419 ♪ I'd like to know completely 871 01:04:20,117 --> 01:04:24,164 ♪ What others so discretely 872 01:04:24,208 --> 01:04:26,993 ♪ Talk about 873 01:04:32,477 --> 01:04:36,524 ♪ I'm gonna watch the bluebirds ♪ 874 01:04:36,568 --> 01:04:38,309 ♪ Fly... 875 01:04:40,006 --> 01:04:42,443 ♪ Over my shoulder 876 01:04:44,402 --> 01:04:46,926 ♪ I'm gonna watch them 877 01:04:46,970 --> 01:04:48,928 ♪ Pass me by 878 01:04:51,322 --> 01:04:54,412 ♪ If I could walk away from me... ♪♪ 879 01:04:54,455 --> 01:04:56,588 - What? - I... I can't. 880 01:04:58,068 --> 01:05:00,679 You don't need to do that with me. 881 01:05:02,333 --> 01:05:04,030 - But what if I want to? 882 01:05:10,689 --> 01:05:12,865 - I can't. I can't go any further. 883 01:05:17,609 --> 01:05:19,567 - You think I'm dirty. 884 01:05:19,611 --> 01:05:21,613 - No. No, I don't. 885 01:05:26,052 --> 01:05:28,054 I... I've never done this. 886 01:05:31,797 --> 01:05:33,190 Sober, that is. 887 01:05:38,717 --> 01:05:40,632 - Fuck. Neither have I. 888 01:05:57,736 --> 01:06:00,521 - Trust is the motherfucker of life. 889 01:06:01,392 --> 01:06:03,872 Trust... in ourselves, 890 01:06:03,916 --> 01:06:06,136 in our... our worthiness, 891 01:06:06,179 --> 01:06:09,661 our family, our loved ones, let alone some... 892 01:06:09,704 --> 01:06:11,793 foreign process and program 893 01:06:11,837 --> 01:06:16,363 that's insanely different from your current brain's paradigm, right? 894 01:06:18,322 --> 01:06:20,759 Not everybody gets it the first time. 895 01:06:20,802 --> 01:06:22,979 I know I didn't. Mm-mm. 896 01:06:23,936 --> 01:06:25,285 No. 897 01:06:26,417 --> 01:06:28,114 But the steps work. 898 01:06:29,463 --> 01:06:30,769 They do. 899 01:06:31,944 --> 01:06:33,641 Recovery is a process. 900 01:06:33,685 --> 01:06:36,035 - Well, what about Roy? He did the steps, right? 901 01:06:36,079 --> 01:06:39,604 He's like a model student of the fucking year, and then he just-- 902 01:06:39,647 --> 01:06:41,736 - Roy is diagnosed bipolar, 903 01:06:41,780 --> 01:06:44,087 and he's been moved to another unit. 904 01:06:44,130 --> 01:06:46,654 - Yeah, that's different. - Look, I was like you. 905 01:06:46,698 --> 01:06:49,527 I was one of those guys that was, like: 906 01:06:49,570 --> 01:06:51,442 "Look at these AA motherfuckers. 907 01:06:51,485 --> 01:06:55,098 They're all grateful for everything." I wanted to strangle 'em. 908 01:06:55,141 --> 01:06:58,057 - Yeah! - I was like that the first time, too. 909 01:06:58,101 --> 01:07:00,233 - Yeah, it's mutual. 910 01:07:00,277 --> 01:07:02,453 But I trusted in the process. 911 01:07:04,150 --> 01:07:07,675 I worked the steps. Alcoholism is a disease. 912 01:07:07,719 --> 01:07:10,983 - No. Alzheimer's is a disease. Cancer... is a disease. 913 01:07:11,027 --> 01:07:13,551 And you can't control that, can you? 914 01:07:13,594 --> 01:07:18,077 You don't say, "Hey, give me a shitload of Parkinson's and a shot of cancer," do you? 915 01:07:18,121 --> 01:07:20,340 - But you lost control. - I'm talking about that. Exactly. 916 01:07:20,384 --> 01:07:22,995 I choose to fucking drink. I chose to take crack. 917 01:07:23,039 --> 01:07:27,130 You can't help it if you got a god-awful fucking disease you don't want anymore. 918 01:07:27,173 --> 01:07:30,568 Y'know, and you wanna get rid of it. You see what I'm saying? 919 01:07:30,611 --> 01:07:33,614 - I'll give you that, yeah. - It's a decision. It's a choice. 920 01:07:33,658 --> 01:07:35,964 Do I or don't I, y'know? 921 01:07:36,008 --> 01:07:40,839 Am I gonna be a dumb-shit addict and continue to waste my life, 922 01:07:40,882 --> 01:07:43,276 or am I gonna, uh, be, uh... 923 01:07:43,320 --> 01:07:44,799 - Sober? - Right, sober, y'know? 924 01:07:44,843 --> 01:07:47,454 - Well, let me ask you this, James. 925 01:07:49,413 --> 01:07:51,328 All the damage you've done. 926 01:07:52,851 --> 01:07:54,766 All the harm you've caused. 927 01:07:55,636 --> 01:07:57,160 Did you choose that? 928 01:07:57,203 --> 01:07:58,639 - No. 929 01:08:00,424 --> 01:08:03,862 - So it wasn't your childhood ambition to... destroy your family? 930 01:08:05,124 --> 01:08:07,039 Ruin your career? - Of course not. 931 01:08:09,346 --> 01:08:11,783 - It happened 'cause you're an addict, right? 932 01:08:13,437 --> 01:08:15,003 - Yeah. 933 01:08:15,047 --> 01:08:16,614 - Yeah. 934 01:08:16,657 --> 01:08:18,398 You had no choice. 935 01:08:18,442 --> 01:08:22,228 It is a disease you did not choose to have. 936 01:08:23,664 --> 01:08:27,015 Because why would anybody in their right mind... 937 01:08:27,059 --> 01:08:29,235 choose all that destruction? 938 01:08:31,672 --> 01:08:33,500 [thunder rumbling] 939 01:08:33,544 --> 01:08:35,285 [rainfall] 940 01:08:35,328 --> 01:08:38,375 - If we are free from desire, we can realize mystery. 941 01:08:40,072 --> 01:08:42,335 Darkness within darkness 942 01:08:42,379 --> 01:08:44,685 is the key to all understanding. 943 01:08:47,471 --> 01:08:48,646 - James! 944 01:08:49,690 --> 01:08:51,736 James!! - What? 945 01:08:51,779 --> 01:08:53,172 - There's a young lady at the window. 946 01:08:53,216 --> 01:08:55,392 - Jesus Christ. 947 01:08:57,829 --> 01:08:59,265 What are you doing? 948 01:08:59,309 --> 01:09:00,658 What's going on? 949 01:09:00,701 --> 01:09:03,226 - What the fuck?! - You're soaking wet. 950 01:09:03,269 --> 01:09:04,705 - Of course I'm soaking wet. 951 01:09:04,749 --> 01:09:06,925 I was out in the rain for fucking hours. 952 01:09:06,968 --> 01:09:09,014 - Hey, hey, hey, hey. Are you fucking crazy? 953 01:09:09,057 --> 01:09:10,624 - I'm not fuckin' crazy! 954 01:09:10,668 --> 01:09:13,888 I was the one waiting out in the fucking rain for you! 955 01:09:13,932 --> 01:09:15,760 - Why? What the fuck for? 956 01:09:15,803 --> 01:09:18,589 - Because you had five plates on your tray at lunch, asshole. 957 01:09:18,632 --> 01:09:20,156 Five plates is five o'clock, remember? 958 01:09:20,199 --> 01:09:22,245 - I didn't realize we were playing that game. 959 01:09:22,288 --> 01:09:23,768 - Bullshit. - Why would I lie to you? 960 01:09:23,811 --> 01:09:25,248 - Why have five plates on your tray? 961 01:09:25,291 --> 01:09:27,424 - Because I was fucking hungry. 962 01:09:28,425 --> 01:09:31,732 Why would you stand outside in the rain when you can sit in the cabin? 963 01:09:33,952 --> 01:09:36,563 - So you're just a greedy, fat fucker, then? 964 01:09:36,607 --> 01:09:39,523 [Lilly laughing] I'm a little indecisive, y'know? They got cake. 965 01:09:39,566 --> 01:09:42,308 - She better get outta here before we all get in some shit. 966 01:09:42,352 --> 01:09:44,136 - He's the fucking judge. 967 01:09:46,094 --> 01:09:49,185 - Sorry about your table. - Jesus Christ. Don't fuckin' worry about it. 968 01:09:50,273 --> 01:09:52,710 Alright, take it easy. [Lilly laughing] 969 01:09:52,753 --> 01:09:55,452 - I'm sorry. I'll see you later. 970 01:09:56,757 --> 01:09:58,150 - Watch yourself. 971 01:10:00,326 --> 01:10:02,676 - You're bringing more trouble in here, James. 972 01:10:02,720 --> 01:10:06,419 Lincoln told you about that. - Oh, stop judging. Play me a tune, Miles Davis. 973 01:10:06,463 --> 01:10:08,116 [sighing] - Let me tell you something. 974 01:10:08,160 --> 01:10:10,293 It's my second time in this place. 975 01:10:10,336 --> 01:10:14,384 I fucked up my marriage, almost ruined my career, so I know about fucking up. 976 01:10:17,256 --> 01:10:18,605 - Okay. 977 01:10:19,867 --> 01:10:22,609 - Get it right the first time, James. 978 01:10:27,179 --> 01:10:29,834 James was born when I was three-and-a-half. 979 01:10:29,877 --> 01:10:33,141 I remember the day you came home from the hospital. 980 01:10:33,185 --> 01:10:35,143 [chuckling] 981 01:10:35,187 --> 01:10:38,321 All he did was just scream and scream and scream-- 982 01:10:38,364 --> 01:10:40,888 - Wait, I'm sorry. Why you telling her this shit? 983 01:10:40,932 --> 01:10:43,413 - Because she asked. 'Cause I thought it would help. 984 01:10:43,456 --> 01:10:47,721 - James, the first two years are the most important in the development of a child. 985 01:10:47,765 --> 01:10:50,637 - I have no memory of that. - Well, I do. 986 01:10:50,681 --> 01:10:52,683 You had this rage in you forever. 987 01:10:52,726 --> 01:10:55,468 - No, I had fucking ear infections and it was fucking painful. 988 01:10:55,512 --> 01:10:57,557 And they clearly did fuck all about it. 989 01:10:57,601 --> 01:10:59,603 - Who? Mom and Dad? - Yeah, Mom and Dad. 990 01:10:59,646 --> 01:11:01,300 - They did everything they could. 991 01:11:01,344 --> 01:11:05,173 - Bob, I'm 30% deaf in both my fucking ears, okay? 992 01:11:05,217 --> 01:11:07,132 I think I know. 993 01:11:07,175 --> 01:11:09,395 Which is fine, because sometimes I like to drown out this shit. 994 01:11:09,439 --> 01:11:11,963 - Do you hear what you're saying? 995 01:11:12,006 --> 01:11:15,009 Perhaps that's the core to this fury, 996 01:11:15,053 --> 01:11:17,098 and to your addiction. 997 01:11:17,142 --> 01:11:19,753 - Are you shitting me? I snort coke and steal cars and smash up shit 998 01:11:19,797 --> 01:11:21,973 because I had issues with my ears as a baby? 999 01:11:22,016 --> 01:11:23,540 - It's-- - James, she's trying to help you. 1000 01:11:23,583 --> 01:11:25,498 - Yeah, I know what she's trying to do. 1001 01:11:25,542 --> 01:11:28,284 What are you doing here, with all your fucking theories and shit? 1002 01:11:28,327 --> 01:11:31,330 Like there's gotta be a reason to why I'm such a fuck-up? 1003 01:11:31,374 --> 01:11:35,073 Why don't you just go back to Karen and make babies or some shit? I dunno. 1004 01:11:37,554 --> 01:11:39,251 - Karen and I are divorced. 1005 01:11:40,992 --> 01:11:42,950 For over two years. 1006 01:11:42,994 --> 01:11:44,691 - What? - We're divorced! 1007 01:11:44,735 --> 01:11:47,825 I called you... and called you and called you, 1008 01:11:47,868 --> 01:11:51,307 because for once in my life, I needed a brother. 1009 01:11:54,440 --> 01:11:56,877 James, you're so fucking self-involved. 1010 01:12:00,446 --> 01:12:03,754 - I say this with love, but I need to do this on my own, Bob. 1011 01:12:05,669 --> 01:12:07,279 - James. James. 1012 01:12:09,455 --> 01:12:11,065 I know you're scared, 1013 01:12:11,109 --> 01:12:13,894 but you gotta deal with this shit at some point. 1014 01:12:17,202 --> 01:12:18,769 - Well, I'm trying. 1015 01:12:25,906 --> 01:12:27,734 There is no good or evil. 1016 01:12:27,778 --> 01:12:30,041 No sinner or saint. 1017 01:12:30,084 --> 01:12:32,696 There simply is what is, and that is it. 1018 01:12:33,305 --> 01:12:35,002 Just let it be. 1019 01:12:35,046 --> 01:12:36,526 Just be. 1020 01:12:36,569 --> 01:12:38,702 - What... is that? 1021 01:12:39,485 --> 01:12:41,879 - Nothing. - I doubt that. 1022 01:12:41,922 --> 01:12:44,534 I see you carrying it around with you everywhere. You're reading it all the time. 1023 01:12:44,577 --> 01:12:47,188 - Oh, it's just a lot of nonsense. You know, fortune-cookie shit. 1024 01:12:47,232 --> 01:12:49,147 - My man, we're all the same in here. 1025 01:12:49,190 --> 01:12:52,498 Judge, criminal, bourbon-drinker, crackhead, doesn't matter. 1026 01:12:53,499 --> 01:12:57,024 We're all we've got and we've got to look out for one another. 1027 01:12:57,068 --> 01:12:59,287 I learned that the hard way and now... 1028 01:13:00,724 --> 01:13:02,421 ...I'm struggling. 1029 01:13:06,338 --> 01:13:08,732 - Well, look, um... you can read it if you want. 1030 01:13:08,775 --> 01:13:11,212 Uh, take it with a pinch of salt and, uh... 1031 01:13:11,256 --> 01:13:14,477 I'd take that over the Big Book any fucking day of the week. 1032 01:13:14,520 --> 01:13:17,567 - Why is that? You never even read the Big Book. 1033 01:13:17,610 --> 01:13:20,657 - That don't weigh 400 pounds and there's not a chapter 1034 01:13:20,700 --> 01:13:24,095 that says "Indian physician, heal thyself," or some shit, so... 1035 01:13:24,138 --> 01:13:27,185 But, like, if you want some real advice, I'd take a walk with Leonard. 1036 01:13:28,578 --> 01:13:30,275 - I'll do that. 1037 01:13:30,318 --> 01:13:31,972 Thanks. Oh. 1038 01:13:32,973 --> 01:13:34,497 - What, you gonna pay me? 1039 01:13:34,540 --> 01:13:37,064 - No. A note for you, though. 1040 01:13:46,117 --> 01:13:47,684 - How are we today, huh? 1041 01:13:51,992 --> 01:13:53,994 Where you headed? 1042 01:13:54,038 --> 01:13:56,910 - Uh, outside for a walk. - James, it's group. You can't just skip it-- 1043 01:13:56,954 --> 01:14:01,088 - Yeah, I know it's group. I just, y'know, I, uh, don't feel like sharing today. 1044 01:14:01,132 --> 01:14:04,352 - Why is that? - Why? Why is it... your fucking business, man? 1045 01:14:04,396 --> 01:14:06,311 - Because I'm the supervisor of this unit. 1046 01:14:06,354 --> 01:14:08,008 - Then fucking supervise it! Jesus! 1047 01:14:12,404 --> 01:14:14,885 - Hey, Miles, would you start with a share, please? 1048 01:14:14,928 --> 01:14:19,106 [Lilly crying] - Lilly? Hey, hey. C'mere. 1049 01:14:22,022 --> 01:14:23,850 What's wrong? What's happened? 1050 01:14:23,894 --> 01:14:26,374 Hey, hey, hey, hey. What's happened? 1051 01:14:26,418 --> 01:14:28,028 - My grandma's sick. 1052 01:14:29,334 --> 01:14:31,858 - Oh, Lilly, I'm so sorry. 1053 01:14:31,902 --> 01:14:33,817 - She's all I've got, James. 1054 01:14:35,906 --> 01:14:37,429 - What do you wanna do? 1055 01:14:38,822 --> 01:14:42,390 - I wanna go to her. I wanna go to her right now, 1056 01:14:42,434 --> 01:14:44,784 but I can't, because I don't trust myself. 1057 01:14:44,828 --> 01:14:49,006 - Hey, hey, hey. Hey, I'll go with you. Let's go. 1058 01:14:49,049 --> 01:14:51,487 You wanna go, I'll go. - We can't. We can't. 1059 01:14:51,530 --> 01:14:54,490 I can't. We... I have to stay. 1060 01:14:56,622 --> 01:14:58,581 I have to stay. She wants me to stay. 1061 01:14:58,624 --> 01:15:02,019 And I'm gonna beat it, James. I'm gonna fucking beat it for her. 1062 01:15:02,062 --> 01:15:03,934 - I know. I know. 1063 01:15:07,633 --> 01:15:11,071 I'll stay here, okay? I wanna be here with you. Okay? 1064 01:15:12,464 --> 01:15:14,161 - Okay. - Fuck. - Fuck! 1065 01:15:14,205 --> 01:15:16,120 - You've officially been caught breaking the rules. 1066 01:15:16,163 --> 01:15:17,817 You know there's consequences. Let's go. 1067 01:15:17,861 --> 01:15:20,603 - Fuck your rules, man. - Separate and come with me. 1068 01:15:20,646 --> 01:15:22,300 - Hey-- - Don't fucking touch me! 1069 01:15:22,866 --> 01:15:26,391 - We can do this one of two ways. James? 1070 01:15:26,434 --> 01:15:27,958 Follow me, please. 1071 01:15:28,393 --> 01:15:29,481 Come on. 1072 01:15:29,525 --> 01:15:31,744 - I'm not gonna fucking let go. 1073 01:15:31,788 --> 01:15:33,267 - Fine. 1074 01:15:34,878 --> 01:15:36,444 Please wait inside. 1075 01:15:36,488 --> 01:15:38,751 - Mm-mm. - I'll give you one moment. 1076 01:15:38,795 --> 01:15:40,405 - Mm-mm. 1077 01:15:46,672 --> 01:15:48,631 - Hold on. 1078 01:15:48,674 --> 01:15:50,328 Just hold on. 1079 01:15:56,813 --> 01:15:58,118 - Let's go. 1080 01:16:02,340 --> 01:16:03,559 - Fuck. 1081 01:16:04,734 --> 01:16:06,300 Fuck!!! 1082 01:16:06,344 --> 01:16:07,998 [Lincoln]: You violated the rules. 1083 01:16:09,347 --> 01:16:12,916 You sacrificed the integrity of this facility, and in doing so, 1084 01:16:12,959 --> 01:16:15,266 you put your fellow patients at risk. 1085 01:16:18,530 --> 01:16:20,706 And we're gonna give you one more chance. 1086 01:16:23,535 --> 01:16:25,798 But hear me. 1087 01:16:25,842 --> 01:16:28,888 One more misstep, any misstep, 1088 01:16:28,932 --> 01:16:31,804 and you'll be sent home... permanently. 1089 01:16:31,848 --> 01:16:33,545 Understand? 1090 01:16:36,287 --> 01:16:37,636 - You decided this? 1091 01:16:40,378 --> 01:16:42,032 - It doesn't matter who decided. 1092 01:16:44,730 --> 01:16:46,384 Go get some sleep. 1093 01:16:50,170 --> 01:16:51,563 - Hey, uh... 1094 01:16:52,869 --> 01:16:54,871 What about Lilly? Is she, uh... 1095 01:16:55,741 --> 01:16:57,134 Is she alright? 1096 01:17:01,181 --> 01:17:04,358 - We told Lilly she wasn't... allowed to see you anymore. 1097 01:17:05,185 --> 01:17:07,144 So she left. 1098 01:17:07,187 --> 01:17:09,189 - She left? What do you mean, she left? Why didn't you stop her? 1099 01:17:09,233 --> 01:17:11,844 - Patients are free to go when they want. You know that. 1100 01:17:11,888 --> 01:17:13,672 - Yeah, but... Fuck, I know where she is. 1101 01:17:13,716 --> 01:17:15,892 I know where she's going. You can go get her. 1102 01:17:15,935 --> 01:17:17,676 Lincoln, you can go get her right now. 1103 01:17:17,720 --> 01:17:20,200 - James, we have the structure we have here for a reason. 1104 01:17:21,201 --> 01:17:23,247 Try to put it behind you and... 1105 01:17:23,900 --> 01:17:26,119 ...look at it as a lesson learned. 1106 01:17:28,078 --> 01:17:31,951 - She's a person... not a lesson, you asshole. 1107 01:17:33,213 --> 01:17:36,652 And if that's how it is here, I don't even wanna be in this fucking place. 1108 01:17:59,370 --> 01:18:00,806 [honking] 1109 01:18:06,638 --> 01:18:08,422 [revellers screaming] 1110 01:18:18,955 --> 01:18:22,436 - What the hell are you doing? - You forgot your jacket. 1111 01:18:22,480 --> 01:18:24,830 - Get in the car, James. - No. I'm not going back. 1112 01:18:24,874 --> 01:18:28,225 - Do you wanna find her or not? Get in the goddamn van. Come on. 1113 01:18:34,100 --> 01:18:35,798 - Let's bring her home, kid. 1114 01:18:45,068 --> 01:18:46,417 - Fuck. 1115 01:18:56,079 --> 01:18:58,211 Hey! When's the bus leave for Chicago? 1116 01:18:58,255 --> 01:19:00,431 - It doesn't leave for another two hours. 1117 01:19:21,539 --> 01:19:22,888 - What's up? 1118 01:19:28,720 --> 01:19:30,330 - I'm looking for someone. 1119 01:19:34,900 --> 01:19:36,423 Fuck! 1120 01:19:37,903 --> 01:19:40,776 - What the hell is he doing? Go, go, go, go, go! 1121 01:19:53,571 --> 01:19:55,573 [exclaiming] [brakes screeching] Goddammit. 1122 01:20:17,421 --> 01:20:19,379 [music blaring] 1123 01:20:40,487 --> 01:20:43,534 - Hurry up, you little whore. Just do it, bitch! Come on. 1124 01:20:43,577 --> 01:20:45,971 - Lilly? - What the fuck? 1125 01:20:46,015 --> 01:20:50,497 - Hey, you motherfucker! Don't you fucking touch her, you piece of shit! Fat fucker! 1126 01:20:51,890 --> 01:20:53,761 - No, no, no, no! - Drop that shit! 1127 01:20:53,805 --> 01:20:56,852 - Let go of me! - Drop that shit! - Let go of me! 1128 01:20:56,895 --> 01:20:59,724 Get the fuck off me! Get the fuck away from me! 1129 01:20:59,767 --> 01:21:02,248 Get the fuck away from me! 1130 01:21:02,292 --> 01:21:06,296 - Lilly, leave that shit behind. - Leave me the fuck alone. I wasn't gonna fucking do it. 1131 01:21:06,339 --> 01:21:08,515 - We're going home, Lilly. - Don't fucking look at me! 1132 01:21:08,559 --> 01:21:10,822 - Drop that fucking shit now and let's go! 1133 01:21:10,866 --> 01:21:13,781 - Leave me the fuck alone. - Leave that shit! [Lilly shouting and crying] 1134 01:21:13,825 --> 01:21:17,437 - Come on. Come on. It's okay. We're gonna quit that shit. 1135 01:21:17,481 --> 01:21:20,788 - I wasn't gonna do it. I wasn't gonna do it. 1136 01:21:20,832 --> 01:21:23,835 I wasn't gonna do it. Don't do this. No... 1137 01:21:25,576 --> 01:21:28,057 Don't make me do this. [groaning] 1138 01:21:28,100 --> 01:21:29,885 [crying] No. 1139 01:22:07,966 --> 01:22:09,185 - Here. 1140 01:22:10,969 --> 01:22:13,058 It's better you stay here. I'll take her. 1141 01:22:22,067 --> 01:22:24,330 - I want James. - It's okay. 1142 01:22:24,896 --> 01:22:26,289 It's okay. 1143 01:23:21,909 --> 01:23:23,955 [soft, haunting music] 1144 01:24:22,622 --> 01:24:24,146 [knocking] [door creaking open] 1145 01:24:24,189 --> 01:24:25,756 - I'm awake. 1146 01:24:29,499 --> 01:24:31,544 - I just wanna say thank you. 1147 01:24:31,588 --> 01:24:33,807 - Yeah? 1148 01:24:33,851 --> 01:24:35,940 For what? 1149 01:24:35,983 --> 01:24:39,117 - For last night, you dumbass. What would you think? [Lenny chuckling] 1150 01:24:40,858 --> 01:24:43,861 - A lot of people talk shit in here. 1151 01:24:43,904 --> 01:24:46,472 I wouldn't have done what you did, you fucking madman. 1152 01:24:46,516 --> 01:24:48,213 [both chuckling] 1153 01:24:48,822 --> 01:24:50,085 [sighing] 1154 01:24:54,350 --> 01:24:56,047 Tell me the truth. 1155 01:24:56,439 --> 01:24:58,441 Were you tempted by the dope? 1156 01:25:09,365 --> 01:25:12,107 - Yeah, but then I looked at Lilly and I knew. 1157 01:25:14,674 --> 01:25:17,242 I knew she meant more to me than crack. 1158 01:25:18,896 --> 01:25:20,463 - You see there? 1159 01:25:20,506 --> 01:25:22,987 But what about when she's not around? 1160 01:25:23,030 --> 01:25:25,903 'Cause she's not always gonna be around, y'know. 1161 01:25:26,556 --> 01:25:28,079 - Yeah, I know. 1162 01:25:30,690 --> 01:25:34,085 - Well... you worked your primary purpose. 1163 01:25:34,564 --> 01:25:36,261 - Oh, yeah? How's that? 1164 01:25:37,915 --> 01:25:40,091 - To stay clean and help another addict. 1165 01:25:41,832 --> 01:25:44,095 You did it. Congratulations. 1166 01:25:46,271 --> 01:25:48,055 That's the twelfth step. 1167 01:25:48,099 --> 01:25:49,796 - Yeah, well... 1168 01:25:49,840 --> 01:25:52,930 the twelfth step can... fuck its asshole. 1169 01:25:55,498 --> 01:25:57,369 - You did it anyway. [James chuckling] 1170 01:26:01,591 --> 01:26:04,333 [James]: I read that the path forward is backwards. 1171 01:26:04,376 --> 01:26:06,857 That the path in the light is dark. 1172 01:26:06,900 --> 01:26:09,686 And, hell, does it get dark in here sometimes. 1173 01:26:09,729 --> 01:26:12,515 [Heaven Must Be Missing an Angel playing] 1174 01:26:12,558 --> 01:26:14,256 [cheering and laughter] 1175 01:26:14,299 --> 01:26:16,214 But then I only gotta look at Leonard 1176 01:26:16,258 --> 01:26:19,304 and he makes it seem so simple somehow. 1177 01:26:20,610 --> 01:26:23,787 The old man can get a little theatrical now and again, but... 1178 01:26:23,830 --> 01:26:25,963 he cares about the right stuff. 1179 01:26:26,659 --> 01:26:28,922 He makes it look easy. 1180 01:26:28,966 --> 01:26:30,924 - I just want you to know that... 1181 01:26:31,621 --> 01:26:33,927 ...this graduation means something to me. 1182 01:26:33,971 --> 01:26:37,496 And I know it does to you guys too. 1183 01:26:37,540 --> 01:26:39,672 My crazy fucking family. 1184 01:26:39,716 --> 01:26:41,979 [laughter] 1185 01:26:42,022 --> 01:26:45,461 - Leo and I threw this big part where we snuck in the Heavyweight Title fight. 1186 01:26:47,289 --> 01:26:49,378 Of course the underdog gets his ass whipped, 1187 01:26:49,421 --> 01:26:52,337 but... there was a moment where, 1188 01:26:52,381 --> 01:26:54,121 for a second, it was like... 1189 01:26:54,165 --> 01:26:56,515 we forgot how fucked up we all are. 1190 01:26:56,559 --> 01:26:59,170 - Guys? Let's eat! [cheering] 1191 01:27:03,174 --> 01:27:05,307 - It made me think. 1192 01:27:05,350 --> 01:27:08,527 Heck, I don't know what I'm gonna do when I leave here, 1193 01:27:08,571 --> 01:27:10,094 but... 1194 01:27:11,443 --> 01:27:14,272 ...maybe there can be more days like that. 1195 01:27:16,187 --> 01:27:18,842 [Joanne]: Do you think you need help to do that? 1196 01:27:25,109 --> 01:27:27,677 Then do your personal inventory, James. 1197 01:27:27,720 --> 01:27:30,332 That's... that's what it's there for. 1198 01:27:30,375 --> 01:27:33,726 You get to discover the truth. You get to own it. 1199 01:27:33,770 --> 01:27:37,774 You write it down, you acknowledge it, and then you let it go. 1200 01:27:37,817 --> 01:27:40,211 Uncover, discover, discard.. 1201 01:27:40,255 --> 01:27:41,865 - Discard. - Yes. 1202 01:27:42,692 --> 01:27:44,955 You get to... get rid of it. 1203 01:27:45,390 --> 01:27:47,784 You know, you acknowledge it. 1204 01:27:47,827 --> 01:27:51,266 Aren't you sick of carrying all this shit around? The shame? 1205 01:27:51,309 --> 01:27:52,963 You don't need it. 1206 01:27:54,965 --> 01:27:56,575 - No, I don't. 1207 01:27:56,619 --> 01:27:59,056 - It's not easy. 1208 01:27:59,099 --> 01:28:01,885 But you do your step four, you move into step five, 1209 01:28:01,928 --> 01:28:03,974 you work it with Father David, and then-- 1210 01:28:04,017 --> 01:28:05,671 - With Father David? 1211 01:28:05,715 --> 01:28:08,283 Why's it gotta be a fucking priest? 1212 01:28:08,326 --> 01:28:10,807 - Priests founded this facility. - Of course they did. 1213 01:28:10,850 --> 01:28:13,679 When does Lilly get out of the medical unit? 1214 01:28:13,723 --> 01:28:15,551 - I'm not discussing patients. - Joanne. 1215 01:28:15,594 --> 01:28:17,248 Come on. 1216 01:28:19,642 --> 01:28:21,078 Please? 1217 01:28:45,929 --> 01:28:47,409 [Lilly]: Can I go? 1218 01:28:47,452 --> 01:28:49,062 Just a minute? 1219 01:29:00,900 --> 01:29:02,206 Hi. 1220 01:29:05,601 --> 01:29:08,081 I gotta start again. 1221 01:29:08,125 --> 01:29:09,387 - I know. 1222 01:29:10,780 --> 01:29:13,348 - How do you do it? How do you kick this shit? 1223 01:29:15,480 --> 01:29:18,353 - I dunno. You just do it, I guess. 1224 01:29:20,137 --> 01:29:22,487 One day at a time. [both chuckling] 1225 01:29:26,926 --> 01:29:29,494 - I like this jacket. [James chuckling] 1226 01:29:31,322 --> 01:29:33,193 It smells... 1227 01:29:33,237 --> 01:29:35,326 - Pretty bad. - Yeah. [laughing] 1228 01:29:36,327 --> 01:29:38,329 Yeah, but I like it. 1229 01:29:46,729 --> 01:29:48,644 Why'd you come get me? 1230 01:29:53,344 --> 01:29:55,041 - Had to. 1231 01:29:55,085 --> 01:29:56,695 - No, you didn't. 1232 01:29:56,739 --> 01:29:58,349 - Yeah, I did. 1233 01:29:59,524 --> 01:30:01,961 - No. - I dunno, I guess, uh... 1234 01:30:03,963 --> 01:30:05,356 - Why? 1235 01:30:07,837 --> 01:30:09,273 - Because... 1236 01:30:12,102 --> 01:30:14,844 You know what? Let's get the bus together next time. 1237 01:30:17,020 --> 01:30:18,543 - You wanna go to Chicago? 1238 01:30:19,979 --> 01:30:21,851 - Yeah. Sure. Why not? 1239 01:30:22,852 --> 01:30:24,419 I mean, if you're going. 1240 01:30:28,466 --> 01:30:29,772 - Okay. 1241 01:30:32,470 --> 01:30:34,124 When do we go? 1242 01:30:38,389 --> 01:30:39,782 - Soon. 1243 01:30:45,222 --> 01:30:46,832 - Okay. 1244 01:30:49,879 --> 01:30:51,446 I love you. 1245 01:30:56,581 --> 01:30:58,235 - Then hold on. 1246 01:31:05,416 --> 01:31:06,722 - Okay. 1247 01:31:10,900 --> 01:31:12,249 Okay. 1248 01:31:15,252 --> 01:31:16,471 Okay. 1249 01:31:52,768 --> 01:31:55,640 - Ran over a nursery-school teacher with a Big Wheel. 1250 01:31:56,075 --> 01:31:58,034 I did it on purpose. 1251 01:31:58,077 --> 01:31:59,731 I was four. 1252 01:31:59,775 --> 01:32:02,908 Hit a boy with a bag full of books, broke his nose. 1253 01:32:02,952 --> 01:32:06,042 His name was Fred. I was six. 1254 01:32:06,085 --> 01:32:09,611 Stole a pack of menthol cigarettes from my friend Clay's mother. 1255 01:32:09,654 --> 01:32:13,049 Smoked them and threw up. Stole another pack, threw up. 1256 01:32:13,092 --> 01:32:16,095 Stole another pack. I was eight. 1257 01:32:16,574 --> 01:32:19,055 Started to lose control at 10. 1258 01:32:19,098 --> 01:32:22,537 Stole liquor from my parents more times than I can remember. 1259 01:32:22,580 --> 01:32:25,540 I used to steal sips of beer at football games, 1260 01:32:25,583 --> 01:32:28,543 drank leftover wine at dinner parties, that kind of thing. 1261 01:32:29,239 --> 01:32:31,502 I don't know why I did it, I just did. 1262 01:32:31,546 --> 01:32:34,679 At 12... my life was blurred. 1263 01:32:34,723 --> 01:32:37,552 I stole a bag of pot from my friend Evan's dad. 1264 01:32:37,595 --> 01:32:39,554 Stole a pipe from Evan's dad. 1265 01:32:39,597 --> 01:32:42,339 Stole a bottle of pills from Evan's dad. 1266 01:32:42,382 --> 01:32:45,211 I smoked the pot in the pipe and took all the pills. 1267 01:32:45,255 --> 01:32:47,344 It made me vomit. 1268 01:32:47,387 --> 01:32:49,912 And I did it again the next time I was at Evan's house. 1269 01:32:50,608 --> 01:32:52,871 At 14, I sold drugs to kids. 1270 01:32:52,915 --> 01:32:55,091 Most of the time, I ripped 'em off. 1271 01:32:55,134 --> 01:32:57,876 Took too much of their money, or sold them oregano. 1272 01:32:57,920 --> 01:33:01,227 They were my age, but they were still kids. 1273 01:33:01,271 --> 01:33:05,144 At 15, I started using harder stuff: coke, acid, crystal meth. 1274 01:33:05,710 --> 01:33:07,407 I liked all of them. 1275 01:33:07,451 --> 01:33:09,758 Sixteen, 17 were more of the same. 1276 01:33:09,801 --> 01:33:12,151 Eighteen, same thing, but more. 1277 01:33:12,195 --> 01:33:15,285 Nineteen, same thing, but probably worse. 1278 01:33:15,328 --> 01:33:17,592 At 20, I started to smoke coke. 1279 01:33:17,635 --> 01:33:19,985 Twenty-one, bad year. 1280 01:33:20,029 --> 01:33:23,119 I started to smoke crack, which I loved. 1281 01:33:23,162 --> 01:33:27,253 I smoked it as much as I could, which was basically every day. 1282 01:33:27,297 --> 01:33:30,126 I was throwing up blood, pissing blood, shitting blood. 1283 01:33:30,169 --> 01:33:32,128 I was sick all the time. 1284 01:33:32,171 --> 01:33:34,565 I don't really know how I managed it. 1285 01:33:35,871 --> 01:33:39,396 Twenty-two, I was so fucked up, I barely remember anything. 1286 01:33:43,574 --> 01:33:45,968 But there's still one thing I wish I could forget. 1287 01:34:12,081 --> 01:34:13,909 [knocking] - Come. 1288 01:34:16,563 --> 01:34:19,218 Hello, my son. My name's Father David. 1289 01:34:20,350 --> 01:34:22,787 - All due respect, sir, but I'm not your son. 1290 01:34:23,919 --> 01:34:25,747 - Okay. Fair enough. 1291 01:34:25,790 --> 01:34:27,792 Have a seat... James. 1292 01:34:30,577 --> 01:34:32,449 [sighing] So... 1293 01:34:33,450 --> 01:34:35,670 You're here for your fifth step. 1294 01:34:35,713 --> 01:34:39,804 - I don't believe in the steps, but I'm here to make a confession, so... 1295 01:34:39,848 --> 01:34:41,980 - Are you Catholic? 1296 01:34:42,024 --> 01:34:43,982 - No. No. 1297 01:34:44,809 --> 01:34:47,638 - Then would you be comfortable calling this a conversation? 1298 01:34:57,648 --> 01:35:00,607 - I'm sorry, this is... this is a waste of time. 1299 01:35:00,651 --> 01:35:02,697 I don't know why I'm doing this. 1300 01:35:06,048 --> 01:35:09,616 - So why are you choking to death there? That little inventory? 1301 01:35:09,660 --> 01:35:12,576 - It's a conversation... apparently. 1302 01:35:13,969 --> 01:35:15,666 Everything on my shit list. 1303 01:35:18,277 --> 01:35:19,670 Well, it's... 1304 01:35:21,280 --> 01:35:22,847 It's not everything, but... 1305 01:35:24,980 --> 01:35:26,938 - Well... 1306 01:35:26,982 --> 01:35:28,679 give it to me. 1307 01:35:32,161 --> 01:35:33,728 - There's just... 1308 01:35:38,080 --> 01:35:39,690 I had this girl. 1309 01:35:42,693 --> 01:35:44,869 And, uh... I screwed up. 1310 01:35:46,305 --> 01:35:49,221 Fucked it all up. I was a fucking mess. 1311 01:35:51,180 --> 01:35:53,182 So I, uh... 1312 01:35:54,792 --> 01:35:57,012 So I went to a fucking church. 1313 01:35:57,490 --> 01:35:59,144 Right? 1314 01:35:59,188 --> 01:36:02,191 And I sat there and I put my hands together, 1315 01:36:02,234 --> 01:36:04,715 and I fucking prayed for forgiveness and I... 1316 01:36:07,544 --> 01:36:09,328 ...prayed to just be normal. 1317 01:36:10,329 --> 01:36:14,116 And, uh... this guy comes and sits next to me. 1318 01:36:14,159 --> 01:36:16,727 He's a priest. And I think: This is it, 1319 01:36:16,771 --> 01:36:18,729 I'm gonna find some kind of salvation. 1320 01:36:18,773 --> 01:36:20,513 And... and I'm ready to talk. 1321 01:36:20,557 --> 01:36:22,820 I'm ready to just tell him everything. 1322 01:36:22,864 --> 01:36:26,171 And he puts his hand on my knee and I'm... 1323 01:36:27,042 --> 01:36:28,739 And his hand... 1324 01:36:30,741 --> 01:36:33,135 And I fucking switch, y'know? 1325 01:36:34,223 --> 01:36:35,790 And I fucking hit him... 1326 01:36:37,966 --> 01:36:42,013 And he... he falls to the ground and I just kick the fucking shit out of him, y'know? 1327 01:36:42,057 --> 01:36:45,321 Just kicking him and then kicking him and... 1328 01:36:45,364 --> 01:36:46,844 I can't stop. 1329 01:36:46,888 --> 01:36:48,977 And I just leave him there-- 1330 01:36:49,020 --> 01:36:52,328 - Gotta let it go. The person you were then is not the person you are now. 1331 01:36:52,371 --> 01:36:54,112 I've watched you. 1332 01:36:54,156 --> 01:36:56,854 But you can't let it eat you up. 1333 01:36:56,898 --> 01:36:59,204 - It just makes me feel so shit. 1334 01:36:59,248 --> 01:37:01,598 It makes me so ash... so ashamed. 1335 01:37:04,862 --> 01:37:07,299 - You're a worthwhile human being, James. 1336 01:37:07,343 --> 01:37:09,606 You got a lot to give people. 1337 01:37:10,955 --> 01:37:13,784 And don't you think it's about time you had a fucking life? 1338 01:37:14,785 --> 01:37:17,092 Nobody's gonna judge you but yourself. 1339 01:37:18,267 --> 01:37:22,097 If I were you, I'd burn that fucking bunch of papers, you know, 1340 01:37:22,140 --> 01:37:24,360 and scatter the fucking ashes over the ocean. 1341 01:37:24,403 --> 01:37:27,145 You know what I mean? Make peace with yourself. 1342 01:37:27,189 --> 01:37:28,930 Let it go. 1343 01:37:28,973 --> 01:37:30,627 You're on the way up. 1344 01:37:32,107 --> 01:37:33,848 Don't let it drag you back. 1345 01:37:38,896 --> 01:37:40,637 - Now why'd you give a shit? 1346 01:37:42,291 --> 01:37:45,555 - You came into my life the same way I came into Mike's. 1347 01:37:46,948 --> 01:37:49,298 And I know what it can do for somebody. 1348 01:37:51,126 --> 01:37:53,998 And, uh... if you don't mind... 1349 01:37:54,999 --> 01:37:58,394 ...I've decided that I want you to be my son. 1350 01:37:58,437 --> 01:38:00,962 [James guffawing] I'm not shittin' ya. 1351 01:38:01,005 --> 01:38:03,747 - You want... you want me to be your son? 1352 01:38:03,790 --> 01:38:06,532 - Yes, I want you to be my son. - No, you don't. 1353 01:38:06,576 --> 01:38:08,839 - Yes, I do. I know all your fucking problems, 1354 01:38:08,883 --> 01:38:11,146 and I'm willing to deal with 'em. 1355 01:38:11,842 --> 01:38:13,800 Okay? You willing to do that? 1356 01:38:13,844 --> 01:38:16,281 You willing to let me call you my son? 1357 01:38:16,325 --> 01:38:18,327 No disrespect to your family. 1358 01:38:20,938 --> 01:38:22,853 It'd mean the world to me. 1359 01:38:32,689 --> 01:38:35,910 The second you get outta here, give me a call, will you? 1360 01:38:36,606 --> 01:38:37,868 - Sure. 1361 01:39:50,245 --> 01:39:51,681 - James! 1362 01:39:52,682 --> 01:39:53,944 James!! 1363 01:40:02,561 --> 01:40:04,128 [soft music] 1364 01:42:14,911 --> 01:42:16,260 - What's up, buddy? 1365 01:42:27,706 --> 01:42:29,099 You made it. 1366 01:42:30,274 --> 01:42:31,928 How do you feel? 1367 01:42:34,713 --> 01:42:36,498 You've come a long way, man. 1368 01:42:37,934 --> 01:42:39,501 You wanna grab a bite to eat? 1369 01:42:42,112 --> 01:42:43,418 - Yeah. 1370 01:42:44,593 --> 01:42:46,595 Oh, I know a place we can go. 1371 01:42:57,127 --> 01:42:58,955 - James, this is a fucking bar. 1372 01:43:00,086 --> 01:43:01,479 - Yeah. 1373 01:43:01,523 --> 01:43:03,177 No, I know. 1374 01:43:08,138 --> 01:43:09,748 - We're not going in there. 1375 01:43:11,315 --> 01:43:12,969 - Yes, we are. 1376 01:43:15,363 --> 01:43:18,192 [Tom Waits's Lucky Day playing] 1377 01:43:22,892 --> 01:43:24,328 Go rack up. 1378 01:43:26,461 --> 01:43:28,332 Just give me a minute, okay? 1379 01:43:45,001 --> 01:43:46,350 - How you doin'? 1380 01:43:47,351 --> 01:43:50,963 - I've had quite a month... and I need a drink. 1381 01:43:51,007 --> 01:43:52,791 - Sure. What can I get ya? 1382 01:43:55,925 --> 01:43:57,622 - Can I take a glass of that? 1383 01:43:58,101 --> 01:43:59,537 - Sure thing. 1384 01:43:59,581 --> 01:44:01,626 - But not one of those cocktail glasses. 1385 01:44:01,670 --> 01:44:05,239 Give me a big fucking pint glass and fill it to the top. 1386 01:44:06,022 --> 01:44:07,893 - Sorry, man. I can't do that. 1387 01:44:07,937 --> 01:44:09,808 - Why? 1388 01:44:09,852 --> 01:44:12,376 - 'Cause there's no good in what comes in a pint of whiskey. 1389 01:44:13,029 --> 01:44:15,597 - That's what I want. Bring it. 1390 01:44:17,207 --> 01:44:19,731 - Look, man, it's my discretion, okay? It's my bar. 1391 01:44:19,775 --> 01:44:22,604 I can serve who I like and what I like. 1392 01:44:24,388 --> 01:44:26,042 - Fill it to the brim. 1393 01:44:33,484 --> 01:44:35,051 - Your funeral. 1394 01:45:11,261 --> 01:45:12,871 [music fading] 1395 01:45:29,410 --> 01:45:31,673 [soft piano music] 1396 01:46:02,704 --> 01:46:04,619 - You lying motherfucker. 1397 01:46:15,804 --> 01:46:17,501 Fuck you. 1398 01:46:17,545 --> 01:46:19,373 [music resumes] 1399 01:46:19,416 --> 01:46:21,766 ♪ And old Johnny O'Toole 1400 01:46:21,810 --> 01:46:26,205 ♪ I'll still beat you at pool 1401 01:46:26,249 --> 01:46:30,384 ♪ So don't cry for me 1402 01:46:31,428 --> 01:46:35,345 ♪ For I'm going away 1403 01:46:35,954 --> 01:46:37,913 ♪ And I'll be back 1404 01:46:37,956 --> 01:46:41,830 ♪ Some lucky day 1405 01:46:43,353 --> 01:46:47,357 ♪ So don't cry for me 1406 01:46:48,358 --> 01:46:52,188 ♪ For I'm going away 1407 01:46:52,536 --> 01:46:54,712 ♪ And I'll be back 1408 01:46:54,756 --> 01:46:59,848 ♪ Some lucky day... ♪ 1409 01:47:10,206 --> 01:47:11,990 [harmonization] 1410 01:47:21,696 --> 01:47:25,526 ♪ You've been waiting for your lover ♪ 1411 01:47:25,569 --> 01:47:28,050 ♪ When you'll discover 1412 01:47:28,093 --> 01:47:30,574 ♪ She's always there 1413 01:47:32,794 --> 01:47:36,537 ♪ Walk wild in her summer 1414 01:47:36,580 --> 01:47:39,191 ♪ She is the drummer 1415 01:47:39,235 --> 01:47:41,716 ♪ Of your beating heart 1416 01:47:43,413 --> 01:47:45,415 [harmonization] 1417 01:48:06,436 --> 01:48:10,832 ♪ Won't you tell her that you love her ♪ 1418 01:48:10,875 --> 01:48:14,749 ♪ And you'll hug her most every day ♪ 1419 01:48:17,621 --> 01:48:21,799 ♪ You won't ever push or shove her ♪ 1420 01:48:21,843 --> 01:48:24,019 ♪ Find another 1421 01:48:24,062 --> 01:48:26,195 ♪ She has to stay 1422 01:48:38,076 --> 01:48:41,079 ♪ She has to stay 1423 01:48:45,780 --> 01:48:48,652 ♪ She has to stay 1424 01:48:53,657 --> 01:48:56,791 ♪ She's a woman in a dream 1425 01:48:59,097 --> 01:49:02,884 ♪ One that makes you fall in love ♪ 1426 01:49:04,668 --> 01:49:07,889 ♪ Though her face is never seen ♪ 1427 01:49:10,239 --> 01:49:13,677 ♪ She is what this love is of 1428 01:49:40,704 --> 01:49:44,665 ♪ Wake you from your state of slumber ♪ 1429 01:49:44,708 --> 01:49:47,493 ♪ You tumble under 1430 01:49:47,537 --> 01:49:49,539 ♪ But now awake 1431 01:49:52,020 --> 01:49:55,676 ♪ Dream forever in your wonder ♪ 1432 01:49:55,719 --> 01:49:58,504 ♪ And never sunder 1433 01:49:58,548 --> 01:50:00,550 ♪ This is the day 1434 01:50:12,736 --> 01:50:15,565 ♪ This is the day 1435 01:50:18,046 --> 01:50:21,571 ♪ This is the day... 1436 01:50:28,404 --> 01:50:31,320 ♪ She's a woman in a dream 1437 01:50:33,409 --> 01:50:37,195 ♪ One that makes you fall in love ♪ 1438 01:50:39,328 --> 01:50:42,418 ♪ Though her face is never seen ♪ 1439 01:50:44,899 --> 01:50:48,337 ♪ She is what this love is of 1440 01:51:11,229 --> 01:51:13,362 ♪ Oh... 1441 01:51:23,459 --> 01:51:26,462 ♪ She's a woman in a dream 1442 01:51:28,943 --> 01:51:32,642 ♪ One that makes you feel in love ♪ 1443 01:51:34,470 --> 01:51:38,039 ♪ Though her face is never seen ♪ 1444 01:51:39,954 --> 01:51:43,653 ♪ She is what this love is of 1445 01:51:45,481 --> 01:51:48,658 ♪ Like a woman in a dream 1446 01:51:50,965 --> 01:51:54,490 ♪ One that makes you fall in love ♪ 1447 01:51:56,492 --> 01:51:59,669 ♪ Though her face is never seen ♪ 1448 01:52:02,063 --> 01:52:05,849 ♪ She is what this love is of ♪