0000 00:00:05,000 --> 00:00:10,000 YoubetCash.vip Agen Judi Online Aman & Terpercaya 000 00:00:11,000 --> 00:00:15,000 Bonus Cashback Bola 6% Bonus Rollingan 0,80% 00 00:00:16,000 --> 00:00:20,000 Welcome Bonus Rp 25.000 Extra Bonus Tambahan Withdraw Rp 2.000.000 0 00:00:21,000 --> 00:00:25,000 CashBack Mix Parlay 100% Bonus Ajak teman 45,2% 1 00:00:25,300 --> 00:00:28,265 That's not how we do this in the hood, you know. 2 00:00:28,390 --> 00:00:29,518 [man #1] All right, now, come up here. 3 00:00:30,102 --> 00:00:33,024 Always ignoring the no trespassing signs. 4 00:00:33,191 --> 00:00:34,151 [laughing] 5 00:00:34,235 --> 00:00:36,072 What are you talking about? We didn't even see it. 6 00:00:37,491 --> 00:00:38,828 [Zack] It's scary, man. 7 00:00:43,128 --> 00:00:45,508 Uh, I think... I think I'm gonna die. 8 00:00:45,967 --> 00:00:48,430 -You got like six more. -[Zack] Are you fucking serious? 9 00:00:48,514 --> 00:00:50,852 We have a long way to go. We're not even halfway. 10 00:00:51,144 --> 00:00:53,524 OK, let's do it. Let's go up. We're already going up. Come on, Keire. 11 00:00:53,607 --> 00:00:55,653 [Zack] No, I'm not going up. We're going down. 12 00:00:55,737 --> 00:00:57,031 [man #2] Do you want me to come and push you? 13 00:00:57,114 --> 00:00:58,868 We're going right back down. 14 00:00:59,327 --> 00:01:02,207 Come on, I... I just got the courage to do this. 15 00:01:02,291 --> 00:01:03,293 We're going down. 16 00:01:03,376 --> 00:01:05,172 -I already told him. I'm bailing out. -OK. 17 00:01:05,422 --> 00:01:06,466 -Good, I'm... -I wanna go, 18 00:01:06,550 --> 00:01:08,219 -but he's so scared. -I'm with you. I don't wanna die. 19 00:01:09,013 --> 00:01:11,309 [Zack] Your whole life society tell you, like, 20 00:01:11,392 --> 00:01:13,522 "Oh, be a man, and you're strong, 21 00:01:13,606 --> 00:01:16,904 and you're tough, and margaritas are gay," you know, like... 22 00:01:17,196 --> 00:01:19,450 You know, you don't grow up thinking that's the way you are. 23 00:01:20,745 --> 00:01:23,542 When you are a kid, you just do, you just act 24 00:01:23,626 --> 00:01:26,799 and then somewhere along the line, everyone loses that. 25 00:01:36,860 --> 00:01:39,365 [instrumental music playing] 26 00:03:28,124 --> 00:03:30,546 It's... I really wanted to clean up. I'm freaking hungry. 27 00:03:32,382 --> 00:03:36,474 [Keire] I spend, like, the majority of my time here alone. 28 00:03:38,478 --> 00:03:39,564 [Bing] Why do you think that is? 29 00:03:40,398 --> 00:03:41,943 [Keire] It's-- It's me, because I... 30 00:03:42,110 --> 00:03:45,033 I always felt like I didn't fit in with my family. 31 00:03:45,993 --> 00:03:49,375 It seems like they don't understand why I escaped already in the first place. 32 00:03:49,668 --> 00:03:50,670 [sighs] 33 00:03:53,884 --> 00:03:56,682 -[gunshot] -[Zack] Oh, do not shoot that in my house. 34 00:03:57,474 --> 00:04:00,271 See this is why we are not allowed to go anywhere. 35 00:04:00,438 --> 00:04:01,608 Is this, right here. 36 00:04:02,317 --> 00:04:03,987 [man] Oh, fuck off! 37 00:04:04,488 --> 00:04:08,622 If you go... If you go behind a tree, you're-- you're OK. You got cover. 38 00:04:09,958 --> 00:04:11,210 [laughing] 39 00:04:12,462 --> 00:04:14,551 Are you gonna put me smoking weed, in that thing? 40 00:04:14,759 --> 00:04:17,221 [Bing] Maybe. I don't think just to do it. 41 00:04:17,557 --> 00:04:19,560 I've given you free range, I mean, I... 42 00:04:20,563 --> 00:04:22,065 I've no stipulation. 43 00:04:26,323 --> 00:04:29,581 [Zack] I've always needed more out of life, more out of where I was. 44 00:04:30,206 --> 00:04:32,920 You know, my parents ran this very controlling house 45 00:04:33,004 --> 00:04:34,799 and so, I ran away a lot. 46 00:04:34,883 --> 00:04:38,766 When I was like 16, I was no longer living with my parents, like, at all. 47 00:04:39,517 --> 00:04:41,563 I just wanted to fucking escape. 48 00:04:41,563 --> 00:04:43,984 ["Video Life" by Chris Spedding plays] 49 00:04:43,984 --> 00:04:44,903 [man] Yeah! 50 00:04:48,869 --> 00:04:51,457 Ready for some fucking intense action. Take one. 51 00:04:54,213 --> 00:04:55,966 No! 52 00:05:06,780 --> 00:05:09,409 I can see that thing there moving around, Bing, I know you're playing 53 00:05:09,786 --> 00:05:11,038 with my face or something. 54 00:05:11,330 --> 00:05:13,084 [Bing] Zack over here, he's going to crash. 55 00:05:18,177 --> 00:05:20,056 [Bing] Come, buddy, come... 56 00:05:20,516 --> 00:05:22,394 [man laughing] Oh, my... 57 00:05:22,645 --> 00:05:24,439 [Zack] Oh, shit, there's a cop. 58 00:05:26,152 --> 00:05:27,445 -[screaming] -Hey, no, don't. 59 00:05:27,530 --> 00:05:28,447 No, it' fine. 60 00:05:28,532 --> 00:05:32,080 -[laughing] Oh, my God! -Oh, my God! Oh! 61 00:05:32,289 --> 00:05:34,794 -[screaming] -What the fuck? 62 00:05:40,931 --> 00:05:43,102 Dude, I'm like bleeding. It's like in it. 63 00:05:44,731 --> 00:05:46,233 [Bing] How long have you known Keire? 64 00:05:46,568 --> 00:05:49,114 [Zack] Man, I want to say, when I met Keire, he was like 11. 65 00:05:49,448 --> 00:05:51,578 He'd-- He'd ride the bus to the park. 66 00:05:52,663 --> 00:05:54,751 And then, he'd pretty much be stuck at the park. 67 00:05:54,834 --> 00:05:58,675 He'd have to ask everyone for money so he could get enough for the bus home. 68 00:06:00,220 --> 00:06:02,265 [Keire] Well, I remember the first time I met him, 69 00:06:02,432 --> 00:06:05,104 I was standing where the bikers transfer. 70 00:06:05,188 --> 00:06:08,528 And this dude hit me, like, right in the rib with his pegs. 71 00:06:08,737 --> 00:06:12,285 And I remember Zack, and he just started screaming at this kid, 72 00:06:12,369 --> 00:06:14,874 "I'm gonna fucking beat your ass, like, blah, blah, blah..." 73 00:06:14,958 --> 00:06:17,003 So, I was like, I wanna be like that guy. 74 00:06:17,337 --> 00:06:18,464 Oh, ho, ho! 75 00:06:24,351 --> 00:06:26,397 [Bing] What did you think of me, we were growing up 76 00:06:26,480 --> 00:06:27,566 and I was filming all of us? 77 00:06:27,650 --> 00:06:31,658 [Zack] I thought, it was cool, how you can put all these different moments 78 00:06:31,741 --> 00:06:35,541 into, like, one long video and just make it seem, like, the best time ever. 79 00:06:36,458 --> 00:06:38,603 Oh, God, no! You've been filming the whole time? 80 00:06:38,645 --> 00:06:40,425 I thought you were like, taking a picture. 81 00:06:49,944 --> 00:06:53,117 She... She just drove by and didn't even care! 82 00:06:56,206 --> 00:06:59,212 -[Keire] Oh, God! Yes! -[Zack] Fuck, yeah! 83 00:06:59,672 --> 00:07:00,799 Whoo! 84 00:07:00,883 --> 00:07:03,847 [Zack] Skateboarding is more of a family than my family. 85 00:07:04,181 --> 00:07:07,730 We formed a family together, like to look out for each other 86 00:07:07,813 --> 00:07:10,861 because no one else was looking out for us. 87 00:07:32,988 --> 00:07:33,865 [chuckles] 88 00:07:35,409 --> 00:07:37,372 No, I'm not jumping in. 89 00:07:39,710 --> 00:07:43,134 It could be three feet only, but, "Oh, shit! I'm drowning." 90 00:07:45,973 --> 00:07:47,518 No more smoking weed in the house. 91 00:07:47,601 --> 00:07:49,020 -[Keire] Good. -There's no more smoking cigarettes 92 00:07:49,104 --> 00:07:50,398 -in the house, either. -[Keire] Good. 93 00:07:50,481 --> 00:07:53,070 Which I tried to break myself up a while ago but... 94 00:07:53,697 --> 00:07:55,116 There's so much trash on my porch, 95 00:07:55,199 --> 00:07:57,078 I'm like, I just can't go back out there and smoke. 96 00:07:58,455 --> 00:08:01,086 -I don't know. I guess, like... -There's just a bunch of boxes... 97 00:08:01,170 --> 00:08:03,090 -and baby stuff. -It's boxes. It's baby shit. 98 00:08:03,299 --> 00:08:05,219 You know how hard baby shit is put together? 99 00:08:05,386 --> 00:08:06,806 Do you know how ridiculous this shit is? 100 00:08:07,098 --> 00:08:08,810 And there's like, they are five different language 101 00:08:08,894 --> 00:08:10,814 on the instructions, but not English. 102 00:08:10,981 --> 00:08:14,362 And I'm like, "Why couldn't I have just bought this, I don't understand. 103 00:08:14,446 --> 00:08:16,743 Why I had to buy a box and put it together." 104 00:08:16,826 --> 00:08:18,370 It doesn't make any fucking sense. 105 00:08:19,331 --> 00:08:20,374 [Zack] I can't believe that. 106 00:08:20,667 --> 00:08:22,003 She's just gonna have the baby. 107 00:08:22,128 --> 00:08:24,592 And I'm there, just gonna be like, "OK, here's the baby, go home." 108 00:08:25,051 --> 00:08:26,596 I feel like, somewhere along the line, 109 00:08:26,804 --> 00:08:29,017 there should be like a class for this or something, 110 00:08:29,184 --> 00:08:31,271 that I should have taken, that I'm fucked up. 111 00:08:32,650 --> 00:08:36,198 [Keire] I feel like life might be moving too fast. 112 00:08:37,534 --> 00:08:41,332 We have to fully grow up and it's gonna fucking suck. 113 00:08:43,212 --> 00:08:45,968 -How'd you do it? Oh, my God! -[screaming] 114 00:08:47,303 --> 00:08:48,974 Oh, my beer! Oh, God! 115 00:08:49,391 --> 00:08:50,602 It's all over you. 116 00:08:51,311 --> 00:08:52,773 -Yeah! -Oh, shit! 117 00:08:53,650 --> 00:08:55,862 [dog barking] 118 00:08:58,367 --> 00:08:59,704 [Zack talking indistinctly] 119 00:09:00,121 --> 00:09:02,835 If somebody poked Keire in the eye, 120 00:09:03,043 --> 00:09:05,882 -I would freak the fuck out! -Poke me in the eye? 121 00:09:06,216 --> 00:09:07,595 [man] Oh, you don't poke nigga's in the eye? 122 00:09:08,345 --> 00:09:10,349 That guy would be mad at you for saying "nigga". 123 00:09:11,143 --> 00:09:13,565 Fuck him. He poked you in the eye. He had it coming. 124 00:09:13,648 --> 00:09:16,028 Yeah, he did have it coming. He poked me in the eye. 125 00:09:16,111 --> 00:09:17,823 -Yeah, fuck that guy. -[man laughing] 126 00:09:18,157 --> 00:09:20,537 [Zack] Hey, Kyle, how are you gonna get down on the roof? 127 00:09:20,829 --> 00:09:24,294 Yeah, I'm fine. I'm gonna watch the fucking fire works today. 128 00:09:24,377 --> 00:09:26,966 -How we're gonna get you down, man? -A ladder. 129 00:09:27,551 --> 00:09:29,930 We don't have a ladder, Kyle! 130 00:09:30,264 --> 00:09:34,022 I'm having a good time, 'cause I'm on the top level of my fucking roof. 131 00:09:34,230 --> 00:09:36,485 -You want to know why? Guess what, Liu? -Keire, this isn't a joke, yo. 132 00:09:36,569 --> 00:09:38,907 -It's not a joke. It's America's... -You're all the way on my fucking roof. 133 00:09:38,990 --> 00:09:40,702 ...fucking birthday, dude. 134 00:09:40,869 --> 00:09:41,954 -[man laughing] -[Kyle] Guess what? 135 00:09:42,038 --> 00:09:43,833 In the land of the fucking free... 136 00:09:43,917 --> 00:09:45,044 [Zack] Dude, I'm telling you... 137 00:09:45,127 --> 00:09:46,881 [Kyle] ...I'm on this son-of-a-bitching roof, dude. 138 00:09:47,465 --> 00:09:51,557 Land of the fucking free, on this son bitching roof... 139 00:09:51,766 --> 00:09:54,689 Fucking fire works, dude! Yes! 140 00:09:54,772 --> 00:09:57,402 -[man] Oh, my God. -[Kyle screaming] 141 00:09:58,070 --> 00:10:01,577 Happy fucking birthday, dude! 142 00:10:01,869 --> 00:10:03,832 [screaming] 143 00:10:04,667 --> 00:10:06,546 Oh, my God, Keire. 144 00:10:07,004 --> 00:10:10,846 Fuck! Bless America! 145 00:10:13,977 --> 00:10:15,479 [baby crying] 146 00:10:26,376 --> 00:10:28,798 [Nina] I never thought I'd be OK with changing the diaper. 147 00:10:29,424 --> 00:10:30,927 But I'm pretty OK with it. 148 00:10:31,011 --> 00:10:32,263 [Zack] We've been tag team in it, though. 149 00:10:32,598 --> 00:10:33,641 So, it's easier. 150 00:10:34,142 --> 00:10:38,275 Yeah, it was so funny, because, um, I had Zack give the baby a bottle 151 00:10:38,651 --> 00:10:40,655 and Keire was like, "Oh, my God, 152 00:10:40,739 --> 00:10:43,243 -they're freaking out." -Yeah, it weirded him out the whole time. 153 00:10:43,327 --> 00:10:45,540 He's like, "I can't believe you're actually a dad." 154 00:10:47,503 --> 00:10:48,505 [Zack] He is dashing. 155 00:10:49,799 --> 00:10:52,888 -[baby crying] -Oh, don't be grumpy. 156 00:10:54,390 --> 00:10:56,102 [Zack] I would do anything for that kid. 157 00:10:56,896 --> 00:11:00,862 I wanna give him every opportunity I possibly can, to help him succeed, 158 00:11:00,946 --> 00:11:02,950 help him be happy, to be a good person. 159 00:11:27,749 --> 00:11:31,841 It's interesting how much having a kid would force you to, like, grow up. 160 00:11:32,551 --> 00:11:34,012 Like, I can't get home from work, 161 00:11:34,178 --> 00:11:36,474 and fucking drink 12 pack, like I normally do 162 00:11:36,559 --> 00:11:38,646 'cause, like, what if I have to get up and feed the kid, or you know 163 00:11:38,730 --> 00:11:40,859 what if something happens, I have to take him to the hospital, like... 164 00:11:41,401 --> 00:11:42,361 I don't know. 165 00:11:43,405 --> 00:11:45,660 Lately I've been having a lot of anxiety about... 166 00:11:46,537 --> 00:11:49,250 not feeling like a grownup, and not feeling like I've... 167 00:11:49,835 --> 00:11:52,298 done enough things to set my life up properly and... 168 00:11:53,300 --> 00:11:55,095 it's time I do something, you know. 169 00:11:56,389 --> 00:12:00,189 OK, so, I need you to read over all of these, these are the rules 170 00:12:00,272 --> 00:12:01,817 of the testing center. -OK. OK. 171 00:12:01,943 --> 00:12:03,487 "No cellphone, no computer..." 172 00:12:03,571 --> 00:12:04,447 OK. 173 00:12:05,157 --> 00:12:07,244 -Where do you work at? -Um, I'm a roofer. 174 00:12:08,080 --> 00:12:09,165 That's hard work. 175 00:12:09,583 --> 00:12:11,461 It is. That's why I'm taking this. 176 00:12:11,545 --> 00:12:12,589 [nurse chuckles] 177 00:12:18,475 --> 00:12:20,187 I couldn't understand what they wanted me to do. 178 00:12:20,647 --> 00:12:23,026 You know, like, the way it was written, I just... 179 00:12:23,611 --> 00:12:25,364 I was having trouble, I just didn't understand. 180 00:12:26,617 --> 00:12:27,703 [sighs] That was rough. 181 00:12:35,300 --> 00:12:37,054 How are you today? What time is it? 182 00:12:40,647 --> 00:12:41,855 Oh... 183 00:12:41,939 --> 00:12:43,150 Fuck. [laughing] 184 00:12:44,778 --> 00:12:45,864 Oh, man. 185 00:12:46,949 --> 00:12:49,412 I'm at home. Bring me some cigarettes and a beer pump, dude. 186 00:12:49,495 --> 00:12:50,665 I'll pay you when you get here. 187 00:12:50,915 --> 00:12:52,753 Talking about Keire and his skateboard, yo, 188 00:12:52,836 --> 00:12:54,590 -Keire and his skateboard. -Oh! Yeah. 189 00:12:54,673 --> 00:12:57,011 -He'll be doing his little thing. -All good, cousin. 190 00:12:57,470 --> 00:12:58,848 Like, talking shit to him, you know. 191 00:12:58,931 --> 00:13:01,269 Being a little, brother, you know, being the youngest brother. 192 00:13:01,729 --> 00:13:03,900 You know, you got to think-- but if he wasn't the youngest, 193 00:13:03,983 --> 00:13:06,196 he'd probably be running the streets with us. You know what I'm saying? 194 00:13:07,031 --> 00:13:09,452 All I could say is, I'm glad he ain't in the--, uh... 195 00:13:09,745 --> 00:13:13,210 where I'm at, right now, I got to go do, uh, a few days, you know. 196 00:13:13,293 --> 00:13:15,715 One thing about that, at least, uh, I got an out-date. 197 00:13:16,049 --> 00:13:17,093 [chuckles] 198 00:13:17,594 --> 00:13:18,638 All right, bro. 199 00:13:24,273 --> 00:13:26,904 [Keire humming] 200 00:13:28,406 --> 00:13:29,743 Sucks. 201 00:13:30,077 --> 00:13:33,250 [Roberta] Keire is quite different from the others. 202 00:13:34,628 --> 00:13:36,214 I think about it a lot. 203 00:13:37,091 --> 00:13:38,468 'Cause I want him to start... 204 00:13:39,387 --> 00:13:42,519 getting real serious about what he's gonna be doing. 205 00:13:43,228 --> 00:13:46,861 [Keire sighs] I turned 18 in November. 206 00:13:47,654 --> 00:13:50,075 Ever since then I just feel like, I should get a good job 207 00:13:50,158 --> 00:13:53,206 or get like, "a" job, this "a" job in general. 208 00:13:53,415 --> 00:13:55,252 [door creaking] 209 00:13:55,377 --> 00:13:56,547 [Keire] But I don't know. 210 00:13:57,172 --> 00:14:00,137 I'm becoming a man, and like, I feel like, there's something I got fucked over on 211 00:14:00,555 --> 00:14:04,103 because, like, my childhood was really scary time. 212 00:14:12,579 --> 00:14:14,666 Fucking wrong with you? Throwing your fucking board at me? 213 00:14:15,960 --> 00:14:16,962 [man] Hey, kid, what happened? 214 00:14:18,966 --> 00:14:20,010 What did he do? 215 00:14:22,306 --> 00:14:23,517 Still wanna fight me now? 216 00:14:27,316 --> 00:14:28,694 -What happened? -You know what? 217 00:14:29,571 --> 00:14:30,489 Hey. 218 00:14:32,076 --> 00:14:32,994 Yeah. 219 00:14:33,704 --> 00:14:34,748 Yeah. 220 00:14:39,675 --> 00:14:41,845 [Roberta] Keire, he held in a lot, 221 00:14:42,597 --> 00:14:44,726 and his dad, you know, 222 00:14:45,520 --> 00:14:47,565 he was really kind of strict on him. 223 00:14:49,778 --> 00:14:52,491 You know, his father was, he was a carpenter, 224 00:14:52,993 --> 00:14:55,038 and he wanted Keire to do that, 225 00:14:55,372 --> 00:14:58,796 because he couldn't get the other boys to, you know, follow his foot steps. 226 00:14:59,881 --> 00:15:02,595 -But Keire didn't like it. -[Keire] Damn it! 227 00:15:07,438 --> 00:15:09,066 -Yeah! -Do it! 228 00:15:11,112 --> 00:15:13,868 [Zack] And like, sometimes I'd know that I have to work with him. 229 00:15:13,993 --> 00:15:17,542 So, I'll sneak out my window, like, throw my board out first 230 00:15:17,625 --> 00:15:18,878 and just climb out. 231 00:15:19,921 --> 00:15:21,132 Then when I got home, 232 00:15:21,842 --> 00:15:22,969 I got disciplined. 233 00:15:24,346 --> 00:15:26,392 And then I would go skate for a while. 234 00:15:28,689 --> 00:15:30,067 [Bing] How did you get disciplined? 235 00:15:31,319 --> 00:15:32,321 Uh... 236 00:15:34,075 --> 00:15:40,003 I mean, well, they call it child abuse now, but it's, um... 237 00:15:42,216 --> 00:15:44,011 [breathing heavily] 238 00:15:44,095 --> 00:15:45,723 Bitch! Uh! 239 00:15:46,767 --> 00:15:49,731 [Keire] That shit makes you angry, like, oh, God... 240 00:15:50,273 --> 00:15:55,325 It, like, it like boils my-- my blood, dude, like, uh... fuck. 241 00:16:03,717 --> 00:16:04,636 Fuck! 242 00:16:07,474 --> 00:16:08,561 [Bing] How bad did it get? 243 00:16:10,105 --> 00:16:11,232 Like, did you ever cry? 244 00:16:12,025 --> 00:16:15,490 Oh, at first. At first. Like... 245 00:16:17,369 --> 00:16:18,329 I mean... 246 00:16:22,087 --> 00:16:23,089 Weren't you? 247 00:16:24,300 --> 00:16:25,302 [Bing] I did cry. 248 00:16:27,557 --> 00:16:28,893 I feel like everybody cries. 249 00:16:51,020 --> 00:16:52,189 Is this the board you bought here? 250 00:16:53,441 --> 00:16:55,362 -[Bing] Uh... -I think you did. 251 00:16:56,113 --> 00:16:57,324 A while ago. 252 00:16:57,742 --> 00:16:59,453 Remember, we had this board in the shop. 253 00:17:00,539 --> 00:17:03,879 I don't buy boards that much anymore, 'cause I don't skate that much anymore. 254 00:17:04,003 --> 00:17:07,051 Dude, tell me about it. I don't skate nearly enough. 255 00:17:07,929 --> 00:17:10,141 I don't really remember when I first met you. 256 00:17:11,227 --> 00:17:15,234 I-- I just, he was just, that kid that always there, you know, like... 257 00:17:17,364 --> 00:17:18,909 You come into the skate shop... 258 00:17:19,661 --> 00:17:21,999 I don't know, we talk about random stuff. 259 00:17:22,290 --> 00:17:24,211 And that happened with a lot of kids. 260 00:17:24,671 --> 00:17:26,717 And they could come in and be like, yeah, dude... 261 00:17:26,800 --> 00:17:28,428 my parents suck or this is going on. 262 00:17:28,512 --> 00:17:30,265 and they'd come in unload, you know... 263 00:17:31,893 --> 00:17:33,897 But, like, you were introverted. 264 00:17:34,858 --> 00:17:38,072 And I didn't know, and I remember, think I asked you if you were gay. 265 00:17:38,406 --> 00:17:39,909 Do you remember that at all? 266 00:17:40,452 --> 00:17:41,955 -[Bing] No. -Like, I-- I asked you, like, 267 00:17:42,039 --> 00:17:44,168 dude, are you gay, like, what's... What do you... You know, like, 268 00:17:44,251 --> 00:17:47,174 I knew-- I knew you had some huge weight on you. 269 00:17:48,009 --> 00:17:51,432 And, you were like, "No, dude," you know. 270 00:17:52,267 --> 00:17:56,233 But I can't remember when you opened up to me about your mom and stuff. 271 00:17:56,985 --> 00:18:00,367 But I-- You never really told me about anything about what was going on with you 272 00:18:00,534 --> 00:18:04,542 and, I guess, in retrospect now, I look at him like, 273 00:18:05,878 --> 00:18:07,464 I should've totally figured that out. 274 00:18:09,009 --> 00:18:11,556 Like, I could tell, with you from the very beginning, like, 275 00:18:11,640 --> 00:18:16,273 skateboarding meant more to you than just being cool and having friends, like... 276 00:18:18,779 --> 00:18:20,490 It was your thing to like... 277 00:18:21,993 --> 00:18:22,912 get away. 278 00:18:25,291 --> 00:18:27,505 It was kind of a life or death thing. 279 00:18:40,488 --> 00:18:42,827 [Zack] To other people it's funny, ha-ha-ha, you know, 280 00:18:42,910 --> 00:18:44,329 oh, these guys are crazy, 281 00:18:44,831 --> 00:18:46,543 but in reality I think it's a control thing. 282 00:18:47,879 --> 00:18:51,636 You fucking have to control the most minute, small details 283 00:18:51,720 --> 00:18:55,018 to make you feel normal in a world that's not normal. 284 00:18:59,778 --> 00:19:01,698 [Keire] It was kind of be like a drug in a way. 285 00:19:01,948 --> 00:19:06,040 Like, I can seriously be on a verge of having a fucking mental breakdown, 286 00:19:06,123 --> 00:19:10,256 but as long as I am able to go skate then I am completely fine. 287 00:19:34,597 --> 00:19:35,641 Yeah! 288 00:19:58,562 --> 00:19:59,438 Bravo! 289 00:20:19,186 --> 00:20:20,104 Here goes nothing. 290 00:20:38,558 --> 00:20:40,436 [Keire] As soon as the effect of the drug wears off, 291 00:20:40,813 --> 00:20:42,190 this thing just comes back to you. 292 00:20:49,622 --> 00:20:51,668 So, what happened? Did we get paid yesterday, or... 293 00:20:51,751 --> 00:20:52,878 I don't know. 294 00:20:54,799 --> 00:20:55,801 I don't know, either. 295 00:20:56,051 --> 00:20:59,767 I need my hours, man. I got kids to feed. 296 00:21:02,982 --> 00:21:05,779 Dude, my boss is, seriously, such an asshole, 297 00:21:05,863 --> 00:21:08,994 it is crazy, like... Fucking, they're understaffed now, 298 00:21:09,077 --> 00:21:10,539 and he just told me to clock out. 299 00:21:13,962 --> 00:21:16,300 [Zack] My budget is already spent out for a week, 300 00:21:16,383 --> 00:21:18,179 so, I'm a week behind every time. 301 00:21:18,471 --> 00:21:21,477 So, now, I have to figure out how to come up with three extra hours 302 00:21:21,770 --> 00:21:24,066 on a schedule that I'm barely fucking on. 303 00:21:30,954 --> 00:21:33,000 [man] According to research from the University of Illinois, 304 00:21:33,084 --> 00:21:37,258 about 47 percent of all Rockford workers, 60,000 total 305 00:21:37,635 --> 00:21:39,847 earn less than $15 per hour. 306 00:21:39,931 --> 00:21:42,561 [man #2] Rockford has struggled with unemployment for years. 307 00:21:42,645 --> 00:21:44,189 Companies have left, so, have the jobs. 308 00:21:44,272 --> 00:21:45,567 [woman] Out of all of Illinois, 309 00:21:45,651 --> 00:21:49,575 Rockford has seen the largest number of people move away since 2010. 310 00:21:56,421 --> 00:21:58,134 How many people are gonna be at that table? 311 00:21:58,844 --> 00:22:00,764 Uh, could be anywhere from 12 to 15. 312 00:22:01,306 --> 00:22:02,267 Great. 313 00:22:03,562 --> 00:22:05,148 Yeah, you took the hardest one. Good job. 314 00:22:18,842 --> 00:22:19,802 There you go. 315 00:22:20,762 --> 00:22:22,975 There you go. I got you all lined up there. 316 00:22:24,102 --> 00:22:25,229 Come on, bud. 317 00:22:26,231 --> 00:22:27,442 I feel weird, 'cause like... 318 00:22:28,402 --> 00:22:29,404 I don't know. 319 00:22:29,572 --> 00:22:32,118 'Cause I, like, talk to my baby, like, baby-voicin'. 320 00:22:32,202 --> 00:22:33,788 But, I mean, it's a fucking baby, that's how you talk to 'em, 321 00:22:33,872 --> 00:22:35,291 you know what I mean? I'm not gonna be, like, 322 00:22:35,374 --> 00:22:38,255 "All right, Elliot, we're gonna put your clothes on, lil' buddy. 323 00:22:40,092 --> 00:22:41,888 -[woman] Yes. -[Zack] Oh, no. 324 00:22:42,305 --> 00:22:44,977 [Zack] It's like, she works and I watch him 325 00:22:45,353 --> 00:22:48,568 or I work and she watches him. I-- I don't know. And other than that, 326 00:22:48,652 --> 00:22:50,154 we're both pretty much around. 327 00:22:50,238 --> 00:22:51,406 All right. 328 00:22:54,246 --> 00:22:55,248 Here you go. 329 00:22:55,749 --> 00:22:58,546 Is that the action you want? Is that the action you want? 330 00:22:59,172 --> 00:23:01,426 [Zack] It's a hard enough life, being a baby. 331 00:23:02,345 --> 00:23:03,723 It's-- It's got to be stressful. 332 00:23:04,684 --> 00:23:06,854 I mean, you save a bunch of time by not having to walk 333 00:23:06,938 --> 00:23:08,399 and go to the bathroom but... 334 00:23:09,109 --> 00:23:12,825 And then someone just cleans it for you, someone feeds you every three hours. 335 00:23:14,704 --> 00:23:18,294 See, I've been off work all week which normally never happens, 336 00:23:18,670 --> 00:23:22,302 I haven't left this house in five days 'cause I haven't had time to do anything. 337 00:23:22,761 --> 00:23:25,308 And I get cooked up, super, super easily, 338 00:23:25,433 --> 00:23:27,563 so that, you know, it's been driving me nuts. 339 00:23:28,606 --> 00:23:30,026 Have you met your uncle, have you? 340 00:23:30,944 --> 00:23:31,821 [baby cooing] 341 00:23:32,948 --> 00:23:34,952 Hey, mama's here. 342 00:23:35,746 --> 00:23:36,789 How was work? 343 00:23:37,081 --> 00:23:39,587 -Eh. -How was after-work drinks? 344 00:23:43,636 --> 00:23:45,473 Jeez, girl. No wonder you're always broke. 345 00:23:45,557 --> 00:23:47,686 -Those things are probably like $7. -They're $4. 346 00:23:52,195 --> 00:23:53,364 All right, are you gonna feed him? 347 00:23:53,865 --> 00:23:57,163 No, I told you to. I have to, like, get ready and meet Jess. 348 00:23:57,246 --> 00:23:58,666 What? You did not tell me that. 349 00:23:58,750 --> 00:24:00,461 -Yeah, I did... -You said, "I'm gonna feed him." 350 00:24:00,712 --> 00:24:02,549 You can't just feed him, like, 11 hours and now you're going out... 351 00:24:02,633 --> 00:24:03,676 You did that to me for five months. 352 00:24:03,760 --> 00:24:04,845 -to the bar. You can't feed... -Five months... 353 00:24:04,929 --> 00:24:06,682 -...your fucking kid. -...you can't do it one day. 354 00:24:07,016 --> 00:24:08,603 You can't feed him, like, what the fuck? 355 00:24:08,978 --> 00:24:11,526 I'll feed him the bottle, just feed him the solid food. 356 00:24:11,609 --> 00:24:13,445 -It's all I want you to do. -That bottle's only three ounces 357 00:24:13,530 --> 00:24:15,282 they'll drink that in, like five minutes. 358 00:24:15,366 --> 00:24:17,203 Then I got to take care of him all fucking nights still, 359 00:24:17,286 --> 00:24:18,790 -so, why can't you just... -I haven't even gotten my fucking 360 00:24:18,873 --> 00:24:20,376 -jacket off. -Why can't you just feed him? 361 00:24:20,544 --> 00:24:22,004 Dude, that's what I don't fucking understand. 362 00:24:22,088 --> 00:24:23,340 I was stay-at-home mom 363 00:24:23,424 --> 00:24:26,012 and you said, I work, you take care of Elliot, 364 00:24:26,263 --> 00:24:27,933 I did, and now, I'm working... 365 00:24:28,183 --> 00:24:30,522 Right, and you show up somewhere between eight and nine, 366 00:24:30,647 --> 00:24:34,655 -just in-- just in time to put him to bed. -That happened twice. 367 00:24:34,738 --> 00:24:35,866 -Last night was the only night... -I told you... 368 00:24:35,949 --> 00:24:39,289 -...you stayed home all fucking week. -That's a fucking lie and you know it. 369 00:24:39,456 --> 00:24:42,546 -Whatever. You're an idiot. Just go away. -No, you're a fucking idiot. 370 00:24:44,090 --> 00:24:45,092 [sighs] 371 00:24:52,608 --> 00:24:53,568 [door locking] 372 00:24:54,612 --> 00:24:59,287 [Zack] I mean, she's like, going through something now, she's like newly 21 373 00:24:59,370 --> 00:25:01,249 and wants to go out every night. 374 00:25:01,667 --> 00:25:04,507 And I told her, I'm like, "You had a kid, like, too late." 375 00:25:04,882 --> 00:25:05,926 [baby crying] 376 00:25:06,636 --> 00:25:08,973 [Zack] I love that girl, I-- You know, I do want to be with her. 377 00:25:09,057 --> 00:25:11,521 I just want her to chill the fuck out. 378 00:25:13,566 --> 00:25:16,154 And feel like, it's just been me, like a lot. 379 00:25:17,114 --> 00:25:19,870 Well, she gets to go out every night and do whatever fuck she wants. 380 00:25:19,954 --> 00:25:21,707 It drives me fricking insane. 381 00:25:23,503 --> 00:25:24,462 [Zack sighs] 382 00:25:25,715 --> 00:25:26,842 [baby cooing] 383 00:25:50,932 --> 00:25:53,395 [Keire] My-- My friend, like, messaged me, he was like, "Hey, 384 00:25:53,688 --> 00:25:57,028 I can get you a job tomorrow, like, if you wanted." And I was like, 385 00:25:57,194 --> 00:26:01,453 "Yeah." And-- but he's like, "But just to warn you, it's really hard work." 386 00:26:06,463 --> 00:26:08,425 I don't like telling people that I'm a dishwasher, 387 00:26:08,885 --> 00:26:13,435 but then again I don't really care, 'cause it's like, how I make money. [laughing] 388 00:26:15,022 --> 00:26:17,193 It's like definitely my first real job. 389 00:26:19,238 --> 00:26:21,619 'Cause I just don't want to, like, work 390 00:26:21,869 --> 00:26:25,292 some, like job I hate for the rest of my life. 391 00:26:27,380 --> 00:26:28,841 [machinery whirring] 392 00:26:33,559 --> 00:26:37,274 The Main Street Skatepark, aka the park set. 393 00:26:38,360 --> 00:26:40,406 [man] Main Street Skatepark was a skatepark 394 00:26:40,489 --> 00:26:43,161 I had started with a guy that'd run a gym 395 00:26:43,245 --> 00:26:46,292 for a long time and he was looking for an extra source of income 396 00:26:46,544 --> 00:26:48,004 -during the winter months. -[men laughing] 397 00:26:48,923 --> 00:26:52,973 [man] You know, I had told him, I have all this wood, we could build a skatepark. 398 00:26:54,350 --> 00:26:57,314 I'm calling it the Keire box right now 'cause it's really weird-shaped and long. 399 00:26:57,398 --> 00:26:58,358 Crazy. 400 00:26:58,776 --> 00:27:00,947 Dude, what the fuck? 401 00:27:01,364 --> 00:27:03,076 That's how Keire just walks around, like... 402 00:27:03,953 --> 00:27:07,293 Just lanking, like, your arms are six feet and funny all the time. 403 00:27:08,713 --> 00:27:10,215 We have two-by-fours... 404 00:27:11,635 --> 00:27:12,971 OK. 405 00:27:19,902 --> 00:27:20,779 Boom. 406 00:27:23,993 --> 00:27:25,454 One and two... 407 00:27:26,749 --> 00:27:28,376 [Zack] My father was a carpenter. 408 00:27:28,460 --> 00:27:31,800 I learned a lot from him and a lot from my family. 409 00:27:33,721 --> 00:27:39,315 In the 80's, my father started a skatepark in my grandmother's roller rink. 410 00:27:40,400 --> 00:27:43,866 And, uh, they managed the only indoor skatepark in the area 411 00:27:43,950 --> 00:27:46,079 for eight years or something like that. 412 00:27:51,172 --> 00:27:54,345 I was, kind of raised to, you know, like, "Do what you wanna do." 413 00:27:54,846 --> 00:27:58,270 And then, somewhere along the line, he just, like, flipped the switch, 414 00:27:58,353 --> 00:28:00,858 like, wanted to become, like, conservative American. 415 00:28:01,442 --> 00:28:04,323 All of a sudden, there were all these rules and expectations. 416 00:28:05,577 --> 00:28:11,379 They were, like, pushing me into this mold of someone they thought was a good person. 417 00:28:13,133 --> 00:28:15,429 And I'm like, "Fuck that." Like, I remember one of... you know, 418 00:28:15,513 --> 00:28:17,726 when I was a kid, like, we've fucking sung punk music 419 00:28:17,809 --> 00:28:20,523 and fucking smoking joints and, like, you know, like, fuck that. 420 00:28:36,054 --> 00:28:39,226 [Zack] All right, fine. I'll man-- I'll find a babysitter then and then fuck you. 421 00:28:39,310 --> 00:28:40,563 I guess I'll talk to you later. 422 00:28:40,647 --> 00:28:43,276 First of all, you're supposed to have until six p. m., so, I get my Saturday-- 423 00:28:43,360 --> 00:28:44,696 You knew since Monday 424 00:28:44,780 --> 00:28:46,575 -that I had plans for that. -Yo, it's that you shouldn't have 425 00:28:46,659 --> 00:28:49,706 fucking made plans for a Saturday because this is supposed to be my day. 426 00:28:50,248 --> 00:28:52,712 -So, you... you get days off... -I never get a day to myself. 427 00:28:52,796 --> 00:28:54,131 -...all the time... -No, I don't. 428 00:28:54,215 --> 00:28:55,968 -I only get two days off a week. -When do I ever get a day to myself? 429 00:28:56,052 --> 00:28:59,726 -This is supposed to be my day, today. -OK, bye, Nina. 430 00:29:01,354 --> 00:29:02,439 [Zack sighs] 431 00:29:05,278 --> 00:29:06,615 Ain't that just the way. 432 00:29:08,326 --> 00:29:10,998 [Bing] Do you and Nina ever, like, just tried talking it out? 433 00:29:15,006 --> 00:29:16,092 Successfully? 434 00:29:17,136 --> 00:29:18,012 Nope. 435 00:29:25,570 --> 00:29:27,574 -She's just so excited. -I know. 436 00:29:28,576 --> 00:29:32,124 He's had a good day, we're just playing outside and doing fun stuff, huh? 437 00:29:32,207 --> 00:29:33,501 We have a fire going. 438 00:29:33,669 --> 00:29:35,255 Oh, yeah. You wanna put some boards on it? 439 00:29:35,338 --> 00:29:36,800 -Yeah. -OK. I'll hold the baby, 440 00:29:36,884 --> 00:29:38,011 you put some boards on there. 441 00:29:40,933 --> 00:29:42,937 [Nina] Me and Zack just fought a lot. 442 00:29:43,021 --> 00:29:47,029 Eventually, I just had to leave, I'm like, "I can't do this anymore." 443 00:29:48,364 --> 00:29:49,325 Look at Mama. 444 00:29:49,618 --> 00:29:51,329 [Nina] Especially being a mom, 445 00:29:51,412 --> 00:29:54,084 you don't want to see your kid in an environment like that. 446 00:29:55,420 --> 00:29:57,216 -That should be good, right. -Yup. 447 00:29:57,759 --> 00:29:59,513 [Nina] I don't really have anywhere to go. 448 00:29:59,596 --> 00:30:02,142 And my aunt and uncle just wound up being, like, 449 00:30:02,226 --> 00:30:03,854 "Hey, we want to help you." 450 00:30:05,315 --> 00:30:06,527 -Down there? -Yeah. 451 00:30:07,194 --> 00:30:10,325 [Nina] In a perfect world, it means, I could still be together. 452 00:30:11,912 --> 00:30:14,668 But I don't know. Like I wanted to work out with him. 453 00:30:15,210 --> 00:30:16,588 He just doesn't get it. 454 00:30:23,686 --> 00:30:26,107 [Bing] I feel, like, a lot of our parents are not together. 455 00:30:26,567 --> 00:30:27,694 Were your parents divorced? 456 00:30:32,202 --> 00:30:34,498 [Roberta] Well, he stayed with his dad, 457 00:30:34,666 --> 00:30:37,379 because, he told me, he could raise him better 458 00:30:37,881 --> 00:30:40,636 because he could teach him things that I couldn't. 459 00:30:41,429 --> 00:30:42,472 [straining] 460 00:30:43,726 --> 00:30:45,897 I really hope that I don't get back in there 461 00:30:45,980 --> 00:30:48,276 and there'd be, like, the same amount of boxes. 462 00:30:49,320 --> 00:30:50,196 [gasping] 463 00:30:51,658 --> 00:30:53,537 [Keire] You know, like, I live with my dad, 464 00:30:54,163 --> 00:30:57,461 but he kept trying to make me work like every single weekend. 465 00:30:58,463 --> 00:31:01,511 You know, I was like, "Come on, like, I got to skate. I got to skate." 466 00:31:01,595 --> 00:31:04,141 Fuck, then we got into, like a fight. 467 00:31:05,393 --> 00:31:07,481 He was, like, I'm your dad, like you're going to work, 468 00:31:07,607 --> 00:31:09,276 and I was just, like, "No." 469 00:31:09,903 --> 00:31:11,322 Then I tried to punch him. 470 00:31:14,495 --> 00:31:17,209 And then I moved out, like, the next day. 471 00:31:21,677 --> 00:31:25,643 Actually, one of the last things I said to my dad was that, "I hate you." 472 00:31:28,774 --> 00:31:31,487 I was just so fucking angry, 'cause he just kicked my ass. 473 00:31:36,790 --> 00:31:37,917 [Bing] Did you see any violence in your household 474 00:31:38,001 --> 00:31:39,128 when you were growing up? 475 00:31:40,506 --> 00:31:41,633 I don't know, man. It's... 476 00:31:41,717 --> 00:31:43,136 That's a tough question, it's hard-- 477 00:31:43,219 --> 00:31:45,641 It depends on what you determine as violent. 478 00:31:48,104 --> 00:31:50,025 Like, when I was a kid, if I was fucking up... 479 00:31:50,400 --> 00:31:51,987 [baby cooing] 480 00:31:52,070 --> 00:31:56,454 ...I got my ass whooped. I feel like everyone does. I mean... 481 00:31:59,878 --> 00:32:01,757 Some people got it worse than other people. 482 00:32:39,331 --> 00:32:40,291 [sighs] 483 00:32:50,228 --> 00:32:51,105 Yeah. 484 00:32:54,403 --> 00:32:56,867 This is my dad's closet, specifically, 485 00:32:57,284 --> 00:33:00,123 and he'd hide everything right here. 486 00:33:00,916 --> 00:33:06,553 Like, my PlayStation controllers, entire computers, toys, 487 00:33:07,053 --> 00:33:11,771 and then his vintage porn was, like, in the corner right there in-- in a stack. 488 00:33:14,026 --> 00:33:15,403 Along with, like... 489 00:33:16,155 --> 00:33:19,537 several firearms that were on the floor. 490 00:33:23,252 --> 00:33:26,509 I used to judge my relationship with my father based on, like, 491 00:33:26,968 --> 00:33:28,680 a day-to-day basis on... 492 00:33:28,931 --> 00:33:32,187 how many things I've done to piss him off in that given day. 493 00:33:32,688 --> 00:33:36,237 And this day that I was here playing on the computer, 494 00:33:36,613 --> 00:33:39,744 felt like a good day, that I hadn't done anything wrong, 495 00:33:40,161 --> 00:33:42,792 it all went without a hitch, we hadn't talked very much, 496 00:33:42,875 --> 00:33:45,088 there wasn't much opportunity for me to do anything bad, 497 00:33:46,131 --> 00:33:47,425 but then he just comes in... 498 00:33:48,261 --> 00:33:50,599 looks at me, I turn up and look at him... 499 00:33:52,102 --> 00:33:54,941 and he just says that, I "look fucking stupid." 500 00:33:55,901 --> 00:33:58,030 And he walks out, and I thought that was the end of it 501 00:33:58,114 --> 00:34:00,118 I was like, "Oh, well, OK, that's not too bad" 502 00:34:00,368 --> 00:34:03,709 but then he comes back in with a pair of, like meat scissors 503 00:34:04,084 --> 00:34:07,257 and he just starts, he just like grabs my head 504 00:34:07,424 --> 00:34:09,136 and starts hacking my hair off. 505 00:34:20,993 --> 00:34:23,039 Always shut the doors because... 506 00:34:24,041 --> 00:34:27,339 you know, it keeps the-- [clears throat] keeps the heat in... 507 00:34:29,635 --> 00:34:32,306 That was another thing worth punishing. 508 00:34:37,610 --> 00:34:38,485 [Bing] Where's your room? 509 00:34:39,029 --> 00:34:41,743 Oh, my room? That's right. This used to be my brother's room. 510 00:34:46,208 --> 00:34:47,210 Uh, that's true. 511 00:34:47,291 --> 00:34:49,299 Um, yeah. 512 00:34:50,552 --> 00:34:51,428 [sighs] 513 00:34:52,097 --> 00:34:54,309 I remember hearing beating... 514 00:34:54,976 --> 00:34:58,067 and, like screaming coming from your room, and it was like... 515 00:35:00,698 --> 00:35:06,417 unnerving screams of, like, anguish almost, and I... it was like... 516 00:35:10,801 --> 00:35:15,769 really, really unnerving. It was almost scaring. 517 00:35:22,323 --> 00:35:23,284 [sighs] 518 00:35:33,053 --> 00:35:33,930 Mom? 519 00:35:37,287 --> 00:35:39,316 Yeah, I have to wash my clothes and my blankets. 520 00:35:41,886 --> 00:35:44,366 And my-- my blanket. I just need two. 521 00:35:44,408 --> 00:35:45,411 [sniffles] 522 00:35:47,408 --> 00:35:48,918 OK. 523 00:35:48,960 --> 00:35:50,631 [sniffles] Thank you 524 00:35:50,714 --> 00:35:52,258 [man] Use it for one. I need two hours. 525 00:35:52,342 --> 00:35:54,346 -OK. Thank you. -[man] All right. 526 00:35:56,183 --> 00:36:00,734 [Keire] My mom has this new boyfriend, and I don't really like him. 527 00:36:05,828 --> 00:36:09,084 [Bing] So, do you have a new man in your life? 528 00:36:10,169 --> 00:36:11,965 -A new man in my life? -Yeah. 529 00:36:13,008 --> 00:36:15,806 Hey, ain't this sort of personal there? 530 00:36:25,408 --> 00:36:26,368 Oh... 531 00:36:29,165 --> 00:36:30,167 Yeah? 532 00:36:33,173 --> 00:36:34,635 I'll be back in a minute. 533 00:36:39,394 --> 00:36:43,820 ♪ Happy birthday, dear Elliot... ♪ 534 00:36:44,195 --> 00:36:49,039 ♪ Happy birthday to you... ♪ 535 00:36:49,205 --> 00:36:50,918 [crowd cheering] 536 00:36:51,586 --> 00:36:53,506 [woman] He said, "What the heck?" 537 00:36:55,761 --> 00:36:56,763 [woman] Zack, look up. 538 00:36:57,598 --> 00:36:59,602 [indistinct chatter] 539 00:37:01,063 --> 00:37:03,359 Oh, hell, yeah. It's all up in there, Zack. 540 00:37:04,987 --> 00:37:07,910 [Nina] My family, when I grew up, we were all were very distant. 541 00:37:09,622 --> 00:37:13,797 It was very chaotic and I'd just stay in my room the whole time. 542 00:37:15,842 --> 00:37:21,144 I think, 'cause of the way that I grew up, like I really desperately craved love. 543 00:37:28,952 --> 00:37:31,331 [Zack] I think my dad had me when he was 21 544 00:37:32,710 --> 00:37:35,882 and my mom left when I was, like two or something. 545 00:37:37,928 --> 00:37:42,228 And so, I think, I was always looking for something from my dad 546 00:37:42,311 --> 00:37:43,732 that I didn't get. 547 00:37:44,315 --> 00:37:46,571 Like, maybe something I was supposed to get from my mom. 548 00:37:47,113 --> 00:37:49,952 I know. It's OK, it's OK. Elliot, rip that off. 549 00:37:51,246 --> 00:37:53,960 [crowd cheering] 550 00:37:54,879 --> 00:37:55,964 [man whistling] 551 00:37:56,048 --> 00:37:57,216 [woman] All right! 552 00:38:01,349 --> 00:38:02,310 [Zack] Hi, baby. 553 00:38:04,272 --> 00:38:06,026 I love you. Give me a hug. 554 00:38:09,700 --> 00:38:12,038 -Love you, Nina. -I was telling Bing about how you went 555 00:38:12,121 --> 00:38:14,000 on a date with Katie and I almost killed her. 556 00:38:14,835 --> 00:38:16,171 -Yeah. -It was bad. 557 00:38:16,296 --> 00:38:18,425 You know, like, I'd usually don't get like that. 558 00:38:18,718 --> 00:38:23,310 She showed up at 11 o'clock at night with this other girl, ready to fight. 559 00:38:24,897 --> 00:38:27,945 See this, you see what I'm dealing with all the time. This little bitch. 560 00:38:30,324 --> 00:38:32,328 [Zack] Oh! Oh, yeah. Real slick there. 561 00:38:37,673 --> 00:38:39,844 -[man screaming] Fuck! -[crowd cheering] 562 00:38:41,973 --> 00:38:43,810 -God bless you. -All right, man. 563 00:38:45,187 --> 00:38:46,064 Do this. 564 00:38:49,154 --> 00:38:50,156 [man] Oh! 565 00:38:50,740 --> 00:38:52,160 -Fuck, yeah! -That trick made me wanna 566 00:38:52,243 --> 00:38:54,372 touch my body, Keire. I'm not gonna lie. 567 00:38:54,455 --> 00:38:56,544 Like, you wanna take a shower. [laughing] 568 00:38:57,796 --> 00:38:59,800 -Oh, my God. -Holy fuck. 569 00:39:00,342 --> 00:39:02,848 -That looks fucked up. -That was crazy. 570 00:39:03,182 --> 00:39:06,856 [Keire] Like, this is the result of, all those times I've ran away from home 571 00:39:06,939 --> 00:39:07,858 to the skate park. 572 00:39:08,860 --> 00:39:12,241 Like, I'd love for my dad to see how much progress I've made 573 00:39:12,325 --> 00:39:14,580 since I was a little shithead trying to escape it. 574 00:39:15,164 --> 00:39:16,667 Uh, it would bother me. 575 00:39:17,126 --> 00:39:18,880 [Keire] Maybe, he'd just be like, "Oh, damn, 576 00:39:18,963 --> 00:39:21,384 you weren't just wasting your-- your life. 577 00:39:24,558 --> 00:39:27,021 [Zack] I know their relationship's definitely strained, 578 00:39:27,898 --> 00:39:30,904 and I don't think Keire really realized how much his dad meant to him 579 00:39:30,987 --> 00:39:32,991 until his dad actually did pass away. 580 00:39:39,128 --> 00:39:40,715 [Keire] The day that my dad died, 581 00:39:41,383 --> 00:39:45,015 uh, I just got out of school, it was, like a Friday, 582 00:39:45,517 --> 00:39:49,023 and... I just got off the bus... 583 00:39:49,775 --> 00:39:51,529 My mom was just, like freaking out, 584 00:39:51,612 --> 00:39:53,616 as soon as I got home, she was, like, freaking out. 585 00:39:54,492 --> 00:39:57,833 And she was like, "He's gone, he's gone." And I didn't wanna, like, believe it 586 00:39:57,916 --> 00:40:00,337 so, I was all mad at her for, like, saying that. 587 00:40:00,421 --> 00:40:03,302 I was like, "Dad's strong, he's not dead, I was like, whatever." 588 00:40:04,345 --> 00:40:07,686 And... they, like brought him out on that stretcher... 589 00:40:07,769 --> 00:40:11,067 and I was just, like, "Holy fuck!" Like... 590 00:40:11,652 --> 00:40:13,614 He actually looks kind of dead right there. 591 00:40:14,324 --> 00:40:18,373 And I was just like, "Fuck," and... I don't know, it's just... 592 00:40:21,589 --> 00:40:22,758 I don't know. Uh... 593 00:40:24,260 --> 00:40:25,722 It's-- It's weird, it's just... 594 00:40:26,891 --> 00:40:29,855 It's just really difficult to... for me to explain right now. 595 00:40:47,933 --> 00:40:49,937 -Hey. -Well, hey, there, bud. 596 00:40:53,569 --> 00:40:55,573 [indistinct chatter] 597 00:40:56,449 --> 00:40:58,120 Ready? Come play with Daddy. 598 00:41:00,625 --> 00:41:02,921 Buddy, like this. Just one finger. 599 00:41:03,798 --> 00:41:04,716 Just one. 600 00:41:23,629 --> 00:41:24,882 [Zack] Hold him like this real fast. 601 00:41:24,965 --> 00:41:26,594 All right. I'll hold him for a second just do your thing. 602 00:41:26,677 --> 00:41:28,054 Come on. Yeah, come here. 603 00:41:38,033 --> 00:41:39,243 Yeah! 604 00:41:40,622 --> 00:41:42,208 We're gonna make it to the poles. 605 00:41:42,876 --> 00:41:45,088 We're gonna make it! Whoo! 606 00:42:06,507 --> 00:42:09,470 [Bing] Uh, what-- what have you guys been up to? 607 00:42:10,765 --> 00:42:14,940 [Zack] Uh... lately we've been adjusting to, uh... 608 00:42:15,900 --> 00:42:19,448 I don't know. Like, I-- I asked if I can see my son, like every day 609 00:42:19,533 --> 00:42:21,870 and I only get to see him, like, three times a week. 610 00:42:21,954 --> 00:42:23,916 It's really been bugging me out, and she's been like... 611 00:42:24,793 --> 00:42:26,505 She's talking lot of shit, you know, 612 00:42:26,589 --> 00:42:29,761 telling me, you're piece of shit and all the stuff, and... 613 00:42:30,638 --> 00:42:32,767 -It-- It got out of control, man... -So... 614 00:42:32,851 --> 00:42:35,355 -I don't know. -This is the video. 615 00:42:36,984 --> 00:42:39,488 [Nina screaming] 616 00:42:42,537 --> 00:42:45,083 'Cause I hate you and I'll fucking stab you. 617 00:42:45,292 --> 00:42:47,631 I will fucking stab you with the fucking knife, Zack. 618 00:42:47,797 --> 00:42:51,597 -Fucking die! Die! Die! -[Zack] Knock it off! 619 00:42:52,306 --> 00:42:55,354 -This is so fucking?? -[Nina] Get off of me! 620 00:42:55,730 --> 00:42:56,940 [Zack] Then stop it! 621 00:42:57,483 --> 00:42:59,821 -[Nina] Die! Die! -[Zack] Not gonna stop? 622 00:43:00,155 --> 00:43:03,829 [Nina] You're doing this... it's like you want me to fucking kill you. 623 00:43:05,374 --> 00:43:07,211 'Cause you're asking for it! 624 00:43:09,591 --> 00:43:12,514 [Bing] Keire showed me some recordings of you and Zack fighting. 625 00:43:12,931 --> 00:43:14,141 I bet, he did. 626 00:43:14,601 --> 00:43:17,481 [Bing] What-- What were those fights about? 627 00:43:17,565 --> 00:43:19,485 What were they like? 628 00:43:20,320 --> 00:43:21,406 Well... 629 00:43:22,157 --> 00:43:24,286 If he showed you the one where, I'm like, Zack, 630 00:43:24,370 --> 00:43:26,124 -I'm gonna fucking kill you right now. -Yeah. 631 00:43:26,834 --> 00:43:30,424 He beat my ass 10 minutes before Keire took that video 632 00:43:30,508 --> 00:43:32,762 and he didn't decide to record that part. 633 00:43:33,597 --> 00:43:36,269 You know, I've got a scar going down my eyebrow. 634 00:43:36,394 --> 00:43:40,945 I've got... He broke his coffee tables with my body, like... 635 00:43:42,574 --> 00:43:44,953 Obviously, I'm not in the state of mind, 636 00:43:45,036 --> 00:43:47,792 like, I'm not... I'm going crazy at this point 637 00:43:47,876 --> 00:43:50,673 because I'm a little girl, you know, what I mean? 638 00:43:51,048 --> 00:43:53,386 And you have wasted Zack... 639 00:43:54,305 --> 00:43:57,937 doing all that and then it's like, yeah, I'm gonna... yeah, like... 640 00:43:58,480 --> 00:44:01,235 of course I'm gonna tell you I'm gonna fucking kill you if you-- you know. 641 00:44:02,154 --> 00:44:03,114 I don't know. 642 00:44:03,866 --> 00:44:06,120 [Bing] I didn't know that? Why did he... Why was he hitting? 643 00:44:06,872 --> 00:44:08,793 Uh, he gets wasted. 644 00:44:09,502 --> 00:44:11,548 He, you know, will start fighting 645 00:44:11,632 --> 00:44:14,261 and then he'll take it completely out of control and... 646 00:44:15,973 --> 00:44:20,273 That, I mean, that's not the first time it's happened, either that recording... 647 00:44:20,650 --> 00:44:24,031 and I mean, I've been like pretty, like, bruised up 648 00:44:24,114 --> 00:44:27,204 like, I'd have, like a... From him, like, hitting me and like, 649 00:44:27,287 --> 00:44:31,045 I'd have, like a huge bruise and like, just all over and then... 650 00:44:31,462 --> 00:44:35,136 You know, he'd like, see them the next day and he, like, wouldn't even say anything 651 00:44:35,220 --> 00:44:37,182 like, not even a sorry or... 652 00:44:38,268 --> 00:44:39,186 anything like that. 653 00:44:40,731 --> 00:44:43,361 We just kind of ignore it like it didn't happen. 654 00:44:47,871 --> 00:44:48,747 So... 655 00:45:02,567 --> 00:45:05,363 In a way, your footage will offset with my footage because... 656 00:45:05,823 --> 00:45:09,706 this is the only time that I haven't shot in the movie, so, it's like it... 657 00:45:10,123 --> 00:45:13,881 You know, so, like, even when during the interview, when you're, like, 658 00:45:13,964 --> 00:45:16,427 shoot me, getting my reaction shots, it'll, like... 659 00:45:17,054 --> 00:45:18,056 I don't know. 660 00:45:20,477 --> 00:45:22,941 We moved to Rockford when I was eight or nine. 661 00:45:23,358 --> 00:45:25,988 And my mom met my step father... 662 00:45:26,573 --> 00:45:30,288 One day when she was working at the pizza restaurant, this man came in. 663 00:45:30,413 --> 00:45:32,835 He had been a regular, he had seen her before. 664 00:45:33,378 --> 00:45:37,845 Um, and he started getting to know her and then one day he followed her home, 665 00:45:38,262 --> 00:45:40,935 found out where we lived and... 666 00:45:46,112 --> 00:45:47,489 then he became my step dad. 667 00:45:52,917 --> 00:45:53,794 But, um... 668 00:45:54,671 --> 00:45:59,054 Uh, you know, I think I was blaming her for, sort of abandoning me 669 00:45:59,138 --> 00:46:00,432 when I was a kid. 670 00:46:31,410 --> 00:46:33,414 [indistinct conversation] 671 00:46:37,339 --> 00:46:40,679 Mom, can you, uh, can you clap your hands just in front of your face? 672 00:46:41,640 --> 00:46:42,642 OK. 673 00:46:43,727 --> 00:46:44,729 [Bing chuckles] 674 00:46:44,813 --> 00:46:47,400 -What's that for? -It's for a sound thing for later. 675 00:46:47,610 --> 00:46:49,196 -Oh. -Can you see my face OK? 676 00:46:49,572 --> 00:46:52,870 -[stammers] No... Now is OK. -No? OK. 677 00:46:52,995 --> 00:46:55,041 I'll just try it to hold it here for now. 678 00:46:55,166 --> 00:46:58,674 Now, [mumbles], I can see your eye. [indistinct] 679 00:46:58,882 --> 00:47:00,970 I know, it's hard with all the lights. I'm sorry. 680 00:47:01,972 --> 00:47:05,353 Um, so, I'm curious, uh... 681 00:47:05,938 --> 00:47:07,942 -Who is Dennis? -[man] Hold on a second. 682 00:47:08,025 --> 00:47:08,902 -Oh! -[man] I'm sorry. 683 00:47:10,948 --> 00:47:11,825 [man] OK. 684 00:47:12,242 --> 00:47:13,745 "Who is Dennis?" 685 00:47:13,912 --> 00:47:15,583 Why did you ask that? 686 00:47:15,875 --> 00:47:19,507 -Uh, because... -You know who he is. 687 00:47:23,139 --> 00:47:25,226 Well, I don't feel like I know who he is. 688 00:47:28,775 --> 00:47:32,115 Did you know that, um... 689 00:47:33,242 --> 00:47:36,415 the first time I was ever alone with him, that's when he... 690 00:47:37,334 --> 00:47:38,629 -grabbed me. -You... 691 00:47:38,921 --> 00:47:40,173 He did-- Wait, what? 692 00:47:40,758 --> 00:47:45,601 The first time I was ever alone with him, was the first time he grabbed me. 693 00:47:45,726 --> 00:47:46,937 -And hit you? -Beat me. Yeah. 694 00:47:49,274 --> 00:47:52,239 I mean, how much did you know about what was happening? 695 00:47:52,907 --> 00:47:54,911 -Because you were always gone working -Right, right. 696 00:47:54,994 --> 00:47:59,378 Because he retired pretty soon after you, you and him married. 697 00:47:59,545 --> 00:48:01,508 -Right. -So, you weren't home that much. 698 00:48:01,591 --> 00:48:03,094 I was just with him. 699 00:48:03,679 --> 00:48:05,306 I think... 700 00:48:07,185 --> 00:48:08,563 [sighs] 701 00:48:08,855 --> 00:48:12,237 I don't-- I don't know what else to say now. 702 00:48:12,613 --> 00:48:17,330 I wish I can go over, do again, do differently, but... 703 00:48:17,832 --> 00:48:21,088 I-- I really... I don't know what else to say now. 704 00:48:21,213 --> 00:48:23,510 It's all past. I-- I... 705 00:48:24,971 --> 00:48:28,394 [sighs] I would not. I don't know it was that bad. 706 00:48:28,770 --> 00:48:31,526 I don't know he's that bad especially behind me. 707 00:48:33,739 --> 00:48:37,162 I was... [groans] 708 00:48:38,832 --> 00:48:41,880 I wish I was stronger and I wasn't. 709 00:48:42,172 --> 00:48:45,763 I don't know. I-- I-- I... 710 00:48:48,685 --> 00:48:50,856 I don't know what else to say. 711 00:48:54,279 --> 00:48:55,365 Well... 712 00:48:57,035 --> 00:48:58,663 Did you-- I mean... 713 00:48:59,540 --> 00:49:01,502 But didn't he... 714 00:49:01,795 --> 00:49:05,093 [stammering] When was the first time that he hurt you? 715 00:49:06,011 --> 00:49:08,809 I don't know what happened. He come to choke me. 716 00:49:11,564 --> 00:49:13,568 Yeah, he has, few times. 717 00:49:31,722 --> 00:49:32,757 ...and they showed up. 718 00:49:40,622 --> 00:49:44,421 -So... -But the thing is, I was as I tell you, 719 00:49:46,133 --> 00:49:47,636 with him... 720 00:50:28,425 --> 00:50:30,973 [female newscaster] The city of Rockford is ranked as the number two 721 00:50:31,098 --> 00:50:33,687 most dangerous city with a population under 200,000 people. 722 00:50:34,104 --> 00:50:35,857 [woman #2] Last year, the Department of Justice 723 00:50:35,941 --> 00:50:39,281 created a 63-page report just for Rockford 724 00:50:39,364 --> 00:50:41,451 to help it with it's violent crime problem. 725 00:50:41,536 --> 00:50:45,627 The Rockford police department presenting final crime statistics for 2015. 726 00:50:45,794 --> 00:50:47,673 About a fourth of that violent crime 727 00:50:47,756 --> 00:50:50,344 can be attributed to domestic violence incidents. 728 00:50:57,442 --> 00:51:00,532 [exhales, sighs, burps] 729 00:51:01,199 --> 00:51:02,995 You know what I found out today? 730 00:51:03,162 --> 00:51:05,626 Skateboarding thought me how to be passionate. 731 00:51:06,168 --> 00:51:08,840 -That's where it all started. -That's where it all started. 732 00:51:09,132 --> 00:51:10,510 -Yup. -[man laughing] 733 00:51:10,719 --> 00:51:12,890 -I'm telling you. -I didn't mean to laugh at you. 734 00:51:13,182 --> 00:51:14,935 It's all right. I knew that you were probably just kidding. 735 00:51:15,227 --> 00:51:16,981 I don't like emotions. 736 00:51:19,402 --> 00:51:21,114 And so, I mean, I'm like my dad, 737 00:51:21,198 --> 00:51:22,408 [heavy voice] "There is no such thing as emotions. 738 00:51:22,492 --> 00:51:24,538 Only work. Get back to it." 739 00:51:25,206 --> 00:51:27,502 [chuckles] "If you work hard enough, 740 00:51:27,711 --> 00:51:29,590 -all of your problems will go away. -[cell phone ringing] 741 00:51:31,051 --> 00:51:32,428 [ringing continues] 742 00:51:34,307 --> 00:51:35,226 Hello? 743 00:51:35,936 --> 00:51:37,438 [female speaking indistinctly] 744 00:51:38,107 --> 00:51:40,194 All right. I'll be there in, like, five minutes. Hold on. 745 00:51:41,279 --> 00:51:42,700 -[man] Zack? -Mmm. 746 00:51:42,866 --> 00:51:44,285 I thought you weren't with Nina anymore. 747 00:51:48,293 --> 00:51:50,464 Um, not really. 748 00:51:51,174 --> 00:51:52,511 We do a lot of talking. 749 00:51:54,431 --> 00:51:55,433 [music playing on radio] 750 00:51:55,517 --> 00:51:56,519 How's work? 751 00:51:57,145 --> 00:51:58,188 [Nina] Good... 752 00:51:59,399 --> 00:52:00,694 [Zack] I like your hair. 753 00:52:01,612 --> 00:52:02,948 It's all swirly. 754 00:52:04,075 --> 00:52:05,161 [chuckles] 755 00:52:05,704 --> 00:52:07,958 I'm sorry. I won't be nice to you next time. 756 00:52:08,041 --> 00:52:09,085 I'll not say anything. 757 00:52:09,169 --> 00:52:10,922 No, your hair looks like shit, Nina. 758 00:52:11,006 --> 00:52:12,509 -You are welcome. -[Nina] I'm not used to you being nice to me. 759 00:52:12,926 --> 00:52:14,304 [mocking] Na na na na. 760 00:52:14,513 --> 00:52:16,851 -[Nina] Stop, Zack. I'm driving! -[both laughing] 761 00:52:18,187 --> 00:52:21,276 -Stop. I'm driving. [continues laughing] -Think you're a badass, huh? 762 00:52:21,611 --> 00:52:22,946 [indistinct dialogue] 763 00:52:23,155 --> 00:52:24,575 [Elliot crying] 764 00:52:24,867 --> 00:52:27,790 -[Nina] You're freaking Elliot out. -Elliot's not freaked out. 765 00:52:28,123 --> 00:52:30,127 I mean, he's a little freaked out. 766 00:52:30,879 --> 00:52:32,340 -[roars] -Stop! 767 00:52:32,591 --> 00:52:33,885 [Elliot crying] 768 00:52:34,302 --> 00:52:37,726 I'll be back. Veggie burritos, potatoes, horchata. 769 00:52:38,018 --> 00:52:40,189 ♪ I'm feeling hot... ♪ 770 00:52:40,397 --> 00:52:41,526 [Bing] So, you guys are... 771 00:52:41,734 --> 00:52:43,696 looking better that ever. Like, what's... 772 00:52:43,905 --> 00:52:45,575 [Nina] I'm gonna take it day by day 773 00:52:45,992 --> 00:52:50,251 because I feel like he's just gonna let me down again. So... 774 00:52:50,794 --> 00:52:54,467 If I don't take him seriously, I'm not gonna be let down. 775 00:52:54,552 --> 00:52:56,556 So, I'm just, like, going with it, I guess. 776 00:53:06,632 --> 00:53:07,828 -To him? Don't. -Yeah. 777 00:53:07,828 --> 00:53:11,459 That's a bad... That's... no. 778 00:53:11,544 --> 00:53:14,967 -I mean... -I just think it's so prevalent, 779 00:53:15,175 --> 00:53:17,305 uh, like, violence towards women. 780 00:53:17,639 --> 00:53:21,772 And I saw that towards my mother and I just think it's... 781 00:53:22,023 --> 00:53:23,818 Right. I don't think-- 782 00:53:23,902 --> 00:53:26,991 [Bing] She had the same idea. She was, like, "I don't wanna speak up." 783 00:53:27,241 --> 00:53:28,661 Right. I mean... 784 00:53:31,876 --> 00:53:33,045 I don't know. 785 00:53:33,378 --> 00:53:35,759 Especially like, with me and him, like, kinda... 786 00:53:36,259 --> 00:53:38,514 being OK right now and like hanging out. 787 00:53:38,598 --> 00:53:40,476 Like, all that would go down the drain. 788 00:53:40,936 --> 00:53:42,313 [Bing] OK. 789 00:53:42,940 --> 00:53:44,610 -[door opens] -But, yeah. 790 00:53:45,570 --> 00:53:47,239 That took a long time. 791 00:53:47,365 --> 00:53:48,618 [Zack] It's 50 bucks. 792 00:53:49,995 --> 00:53:51,832 -[Nina] That's 50? -Yeah. 793 00:54:02,980 --> 00:54:04,525 I'm fucking beat, dude? 794 00:54:05,527 --> 00:54:07,948 I don't know what else to say. I'm beat. 795 00:54:08,448 --> 00:54:09,702 Wait a second. 796 00:54:11,121 --> 00:54:12,791 Dude, what's today? 797 00:54:17,091 --> 00:54:18,803 I thought it was fucking Friday. 798 00:54:19,763 --> 00:54:21,517 I don't gonna have to go back to work. 799 00:54:24,313 --> 00:54:25,441 Yes! 800 00:54:26,026 --> 00:54:28,196 Oh, my God, yes! 801 00:54:28,656 --> 00:54:30,535 Oh, my God. 802 00:54:48,780 --> 00:54:50,032 [chuckles] 803 00:54:52,077 --> 00:54:55,250 I got my car probably a month or two ago. 804 00:54:56,169 --> 00:55:02,097 How many people you know have a portable ledge on the back? 805 00:55:06,231 --> 00:55:07,149 I quit. 806 00:55:17,671 --> 00:55:21,512 I feel like if I stay here, I'm just gonna get stuck here. 807 00:55:23,891 --> 00:55:25,143 [siren wailing] 808 00:55:25,603 --> 00:55:28,233 But, like, moving out has just always been scary. 809 00:55:28,734 --> 00:55:30,572 Like, I don't wanna just move out and just think, 810 00:55:30,822 --> 00:55:33,410 by the time rent comes around, I don't have the money. 811 00:55:33,578 --> 00:55:35,582 Because then, I would look stupid and irresponsible. 812 00:55:40,508 --> 00:55:41,969 What's good, Merlin? 813 00:55:43,681 --> 00:55:45,602 Yo, we're filming that rap video. 814 00:55:45,685 --> 00:55:47,229 We're, we're filming a rap video. 815 00:55:47,647 --> 00:55:51,822 [indistinct singing] 816 00:55:54,214 --> 00:55:55,622 [Merlin] No, we're not guilty. 817 00:55:55,622 --> 00:55:56,707 [man in wheelchair] That's what they all say. 818 00:55:56,790 --> 00:55:59,086 -[Merlin] We didn't do it. -He's like, "That's what they all think." 819 00:56:01,257 --> 00:56:04,221 Like, see, that shit right there. Like right above the pedometer, 820 00:56:04,556 --> 00:56:07,061 I have like my registration, my insurance, my license. 821 00:56:07,227 --> 00:56:08,981 So, you don't have to reach for anything in your pockets. 822 00:56:09,065 --> 00:56:11,152 Dude, coppers like, "License and registration." 823 00:56:11,235 --> 00:56:13,198 And I was like sure and I reached over there 824 00:56:13,323 --> 00:56:16,580 to the fucking... uh, the glove box. The cop over there is like... 825 00:56:16,997 --> 00:56:19,836 I was just like, "Oh, don't fucking shoot me." 826 00:56:19,962 --> 00:56:21,757 They are like, "Calm down." I was like, what do you mean, "Calm down"? 827 00:56:21,840 --> 00:56:23,552 You guys fucking calm down. 828 00:56:23,678 --> 00:56:27,476 You fucking pulled your gun on me for-- for... 829 00:56:27,727 --> 00:56:29,773 like, obeying what you said. [chuckles] 830 00:56:30,023 --> 00:56:32,444 It's just-- it's just... a bunch of shit, you know? 831 00:56:32,946 --> 00:56:34,281 [Zack] Did you see that one? 832 00:56:34,365 --> 00:56:36,411 -Like at the gas station? Yeah. -You saw that one? 833 00:56:36,537 --> 00:56:38,456 -He's like, give me your drivers licence. -That fucking terrified me. 834 00:56:38,582 --> 00:56:41,337 So, the guy turns around and goes in his car to get his driver's licence 835 00:56:41,421 --> 00:56:42,841 and the cop just shoots him, like, four times. 836 00:56:43,216 --> 00:56:45,805 I can die really easily here. 837 00:56:46,097 --> 00:56:49,771 -This is going to suck. -Here no, this is like the funniest video ever. 838 00:56:49,855 --> 00:56:51,232 I have to show you this. 839 00:56:51,441 --> 00:56:54,531 [man in video] ...dumb niggers, dork niggers, 840 00:56:54,906 --> 00:56:56,409 Asian niggers, 841 00:56:56,702 --> 00:56:57,871 white niggers. 842 00:56:57,996 --> 00:56:59,331 [man #2] Suck my dick, bitch! 843 00:56:59,415 --> 00:57:02,839 Pundits and niggas just waiting for your mother fucking call, 844 00:57:03,131 --> 00:57:06,304 they all talking shit about you. 845 00:57:06,680 --> 00:57:08,601 [video continues] 846 00:57:11,314 --> 00:57:12,817 [harmonica playing] 847 00:57:15,573 --> 00:57:20,833 [Keire] Growing up, my dad would always tell me, 848 00:57:21,417 --> 00:57:23,254 "Keire, like, you know, you have a lot of white friends, 849 00:57:23,338 --> 00:57:24,716 but don't forget that you're black." 850 00:57:38,994 --> 00:57:41,124 You mind taking a nap, buddy? 851 00:57:42,501 --> 00:57:44,923 -[woman] Hi! -[indistinct chat] 852 00:57:45,716 --> 00:57:47,344 Let me have a kiss first. 853 00:57:49,098 --> 00:57:52,479 I get him first. 854 00:57:54,316 --> 00:57:56,613 [Nina] We didn't, like, hug or anything in my family. 855 00:57:56,822 --> 00:57:59,786 So, when I first moved out from me and Zack's apartment, 856 00:57:59,995 --> 00:58:03,209 like, my aunt would give me a hug every night before I went to bed and... 857 00:58:03,293 --> 00:58:05,590 it was so weird to me and at first, I be like, "Ugh!" 858 00:58:05,965 --> 00:58:08,136 Like, you're touching me. Like don't please! 859 00:58:08,637 --> 00:58:11,518 And then after a while, I was, like, "OK, I'm going to bed." 860 00:58:12,477 --> 00:58:14,190 You know, "Where's my hug?" 861 00:58:14,481 --> 00:58:16,360 [Elliot cooing] 862 00:58:16,570 --> 00:58:18,198 It's nap time, baby. 863 00:58:18,574 --> 00:58:21,454 I never really knew what like a family was. 864 00:58:21,454 --> 00:58:24,878 I would be very like "Ah! Are you OK?" 865 00:58:24,878 --> 00:58:28,719 Like my aunt and uncle showed me that. They pretty much adopted me... 866 00:58:28,928 --> 00:58:30,472 [chuckling] ... at the age of 21. 867 00:58:30,556 --> 00:58:32,392 But it still scares me when he gets on the skateboard. 868 00:58:32,476 --> 00:58:34,313 -I'm just like... -[aunt] Mm-hmm. 869 00:58:34,564 --> 00:58:36,359 -We need to find him a little helmet. -Yeah. 870 00:58:37,277 --> 00:58:38,572 Come here. Come on, bubba. 871 00:58:38,906 --> 00:58:42,789 [Nina] Like, now I know, what I want my family to be like someday. 872 00:58:45,544 --> 00:58:47,172 [groans] 873 00:58:50,513 --> 00:58:52,850 [Bing] How've you and Zack been? 874 00:58:54,061 --> 00:58:59,446 Uh, same as always. He's just doing his own thing. 875 00:58:59,531 --> 00:59:01,785 [man on TV] Looks like a job for Superman. 876 00:59:02,829 --> 00:59:05,458 [Bing] Is it hard for you to move on from him? 877 00:59:05,793 --> 00:59:07,880 [Elliot playing with a car] 878 00:59:08,381 --> 00:59:09,759 I mean... 879 00:59:10,218 --> 00:59:13,349 I don't go one day without thinking about him. 880 00:59:14,143 --> 00:59:16,355 Really, like, worrying about him or, like, 881 00:59:16,857 --> 00:59:18,986 wishing he'd call and, like... 882 00:59:19,361 --> 00:59:22,618 You know, not even just for me, but for Elliot, too, like... 883 00:59:25,206 --> 00:59:27,002 I don't know. 884 00:59:28,379 --> 00:59:30,342 Why do you put up with that, though. 885 00:59:32,346 --> 00:59:35,561 I mean, even though, I've seen the worst of him, 886 00:59:35,811 --> 00:59:38,274 I've... you know, I know that there is... 887 00:59:38,609 --> 00:59:41,072 a lot of good things about him too. 888 00:59:47,459 --> 00:59:51,258 [indistinct conversation] 889 00:59:51,300 --> 00:59:53,304 [dishes clanking] 890 00:59:54,223 --> 00:59:57,354 I need, uh... fries, please, for the steak sandwich. 891 01:00:06,581 --> 01:00:09,879 Here you are, sir. All right. I'll go grab your menu. 892 01:00:09,963 --> 01:00:11,215 Seriously, man. 893 01:00:13,512 --> 01:00:16,058 This is, like, so much better than being back there 894 01:00:16,225 --> 01:00:17,937 and having to do all of that. 895 01:00:21,695 --> 01:00:26,287 Right now, it's like, I don't have to ask my mom for money. I can give her money. 896 01:00:26,538 --> 01:00:31,046 Like, our water was gonna get cut off and I, like, helped pay the bill. 897 01:00:31,840 --> 01:00:33,552 I felt good really about that. 898 01:00:38,562 --> 01:00:40,315 With Zack... 899 01:00:40,733 --> 01:00:42,737 we have drifted apart a little bit 900 01:00:42,945 --> 01:00:44,782 just 'cause, like, I'm not over there, like, everyday. 901 01:00:46,745 --> 01:00:48,999 I started hanging out with, like, my younger skate friends again. 902 01:00:50,043 --> 01:00:53,382 I noticed, like, they were on a better path. 903 01:00:55,136 --> 01:00:56,515 [man] What classes are you taking? 904 01:00:56,598 --> 01:00:58,267 Graphic cards technology or graphic design. 905 01:00:58,351 --> 01:00:59,896 [man] Sounds like a Gen. Ed. of Liberal Arts. [Evan] Yes. 906 01:00:59,979 --> 01:01:02,275 [man] I'm just, I'm just gonna get something general at first, like, 907 01:01:02,359 --> 01:01:03,904 and see what kind of jobs I can get. 908 01:01:05,699 --> 01:01:07,327 [Bing] You guys are getting your GED's? 909 01:01:07,703 --> 01:01:12,630 Um, I have. Evan has his. He-- he graduated and, like... 910 01:01:13,005 --> 01:01:15,928 I don't know, It's just, I can just prove people wrong. 911 01:01:17,180 --> 01:01:23,025 Oh, yeah! Dude. I remembered something that my like, dad told me about um, being black. 912 01:01:23,359 --> 01:01:25,698 He said, like, being black is cool 913 01:01:25,781 --> 01:01:27,994 because you get to prove people wrong like, everyday. 914 01:01:29,664 --> 01:01:32,168 Like, you sound the way that you sound, so, like, you don't... 915 01:01:32,419 --> 01:01:34,298 you know it's like, you just prove them wrong. 916 01:01:34,464 --> 01:01:38,932 [stammers] There's like-- they probably feel a little shitty for... for profiling you. 917 01:01:39,266 --> 01:01:41,646 Like, I can only imagine, like feeling like that. 918 01:01:41,980 --> 01:01:44,359 I was the only-- the only white kid for, like four years, 919 01:01:44,484 --> 01:01:45,863 at least, in my class. 920 01:01:46,238 --> 01:01:49,369 So, I had to learn real quick that like, "Oh, shit, I'm in trouble." 921 01:01:49,704 --> 01:01:52,083 Like right away, people were mad at me for being white 922 01:01:52,167 --> 01:01:53,461 after, like, first history class. 923 01:01:53,879 --> 01:01:57,218 In reality, you don't have like, as much say because you are white. 924 01:01:57,469 --> 01:01:59,515 But [stammers] But I'm educated, though. 925 01:02:00,099 --> 01:02:04,358 You're educated 'cause you went through just as much as high school as him? 926 01:02:04,483 --> 01:02:06,236 -So you know more than him? -No. 927 01:02:06,362 --> 01:02:09,493 Even though, your race didn't go through the same thing as his did. 928 01:02:09,702 --> 01:02:11,956 'Cause my race went through it, doesn't mean I went through it. 929 01:02:12,040 --> 01:02:14,962 [Evan] He doesn't have the same disadvantages everyday that you don't have? 930 01:02:16,215 --> 01:02:18,260 [man] There's a certain class of whites that's not-- 931 01:02:18,344 --> 01:02:19,764 "It's easy to be white in America." 932 01:02:19,889 --> 01:02:22,185 But then, if you're, like, trailer-trash white and shit, 933 01:02:22,268 --> 01:02:24,022 then it's not easy to live in America. Like... 934 01:02:24,189 --> 01:02:25,818 I feel like it is easy, though. 935 01:02:25,901 --> 01:02:28,322 Like you still... like you can fuckin' just cut your hair 936 01:02:28,406 --> 01:02:30,577 and go and get a fucking job because they don't look at you, like... 937 01:02:30,911 --> 01:02:32,915 [man] But when you're fucking stupid you can't do that. 938 01:02:32,998 --> 01:02:35,002 But if you're stupid you can't do that. 939 01:02:35,546 --> 01:02:36,548 [Keire] When I was younger, 940 01:02:36,673 --> 01:02:40,054 I didn't really understand what my dad was talking about being black so much. 941 01:02:40,723 --> 01:02:44,438 But I remember, he was like, if you could choose again, 942 01:02:44,856 --> 01:02:46,442 choose to-- to be black. 943 01:02:47,152 --> 01:02:49,406 And at first, I didn't get it. I was, like, 944 01:02:49,489 --> 01:02:52,495 "Why would you wanna be black when all that shit's happening to us?" 945 01:02:54,917 --> 01:02:57,506 But he explained it as like... 946 01:02:58,215 --> 01:03:00,470 Because we have to deal with these issues, 947 01:03:01,388 --> 01:03:03,476 it just makes... 948 01:03:04,019 --> 01:03:07,233 other things that, like, my white friends would complain about, 949 01:03:07,317 --> 01:03:09,321 like, not even be a problem to me. 950 01:03:10,114 --> 01:03:11,576 [sighs] 951 01:03:23,725 --> 01:03:27,983 [Joseph] My father's skatepark went under because of a downfall in skateboarding. 952 01:03:29,110 --> 01:03:33,244 Mine didn't succeed because I got hooked up with a bad partner. 953 01:03:35,081 --> 01:03:39,130 One day, he calls me and he's like, hey, I'm going to go on a vacation. 954 01:03:40,466 --> 01:03:42,220 I fucking never heard from the dude again. 955 01:03:42,428 --> 01:03:43,430 Never. 956 01:03:43,974 --> 01:03:45,226 Come to find out... 957 01:03:45,309 --> 01:03:48,148 the guy had never paid any of our bills. 958 01:03:48,357 --> 01:03:51,573 All the money we were making, everything, he just was keeping it. 959 01:03:52,490 --> 01:03:53,827 And that fucked me over. 960 01:03:53,994 --> 01:03:55,079 I mean, I've-- I've never-- 961 01:03:55,288 --> 01:03:58,712 I don't feel like I've done anything I've ever wanted to do with my life. 962 01:04:06,018 --> 01:04:07,103 [door squeaking] 963 01:04:07,395 --> 01:04:08,565 There it is. 964 01:04:09,482 --> 01:04:11,069 That's a five-day notice. 965 01:04:14,869 --> 01:04:16,581 I try not to come over here. 966 01:04:16,748 --> 01:04:18,500 Just like Zack and Kyle don't. 967 01:04:18,877 --> 01:04:23,678 Clearly, I mean... Do you even want to be here? No. 968 01:04:24,304 --> 01:04:26,058 [Bing] Why's all that shit broken? 969 01:04:26,726 --> 01:04:28,521 -What? -The ground. 970 01:04:28,688 --> 01:04:30,734 -The ground? -Yeah, what is all this? 971 01:04:30,943 --> 01:04:33,197 Poop, it's all poop, dude. 972 01:04:37,831 --> 01:04:41,004 All right. Let's get out of this fucking place. 973 01:04:45,681 --> 01:04:47,016 [man] I feel like I never see Zack. 974 01:04:48,143 --> 01:04:50,481 Remember when I used to like, skip school? 975 01:04:50,607 --> 01:04:52,360 I was just like, "Oh, he didn't finish school." 976 01:04:52,528 --> 01:04:54,740 Remember, like, he's doing fine. I'll be fine. 977 01:04:54,824 --> 01:04:57,788 Yeah, but, like, now, like, I see them now, I'm, like, "Fuck!" 978 01:04:58,080 --> 01:04:59,165 [man chuckling] 979 01:04:59,457 --> 01:05:03,132 I don't know, like, I don't think they have electricity right now. 980 01:05:03,842 --> 01:05:05,887 -Like, that's gonna... -Yeah, that's what I heard. 981 01:05:06,096 --> 01:05:07,056 That's fucked up. 982 01:05:08,727 --> 01:05:12,901 [Keire] When I was younger, everybody just seemed like they had it all figured out. 983 01:05:13,235 --> 01:05:17,870 You know like... which was the dumbest thing that I could have ever told myself. 984 01:05:18,078 --> 01:05:21,043 Like, no one knows what the fuck they're doing, like... 985 01:05:21,794 --> 01:05:23,882 [train bell tolling] 986 01:05:36,031 --> 01:05:37,075 Shwoop. 987 01:05:38,870 --> 01:05:41,751 What kind of filming are we doing? The kind where I pretend you are not there 988 01:05:42,043 --> 01:05:43,546 or the other kind? 989 01:05:45,663 --> 01:05:48,013 Where we talk the whole time. [both laughing] 990 01:05:58,952 --> 01:05:59,870 OK. 991 01:06:00,371 --> 01:06:01,289 All right, I think I got it. 992 01:06:02,584 --> 01:06:06,216 Oh, I didn't plan on moving here at all, like. 993 01:06:06,258 --> 01:06:08,638 Like, this girl that lives out here hit me up. 994 01:06:08,721 --> 01:06:11,476 She bought me a plane ticket. Got me, like $180 Uber 995 01:06:11,561 --> 01:06:13,355 to fucking the Milwaukee airport. 996 01:06:13,898 --> 01:06:14,942 Came out here. 997 01:06:15,527 --> 01:06:17,781 I was originally gonna be out here for two weeks. 998 01:06:18,783 --> 01:06:21,747 And, like, she's like no, you are just gonna live with me now. 999 01:06:22,833 --> 01:06:25,797 You know, not picky. I was like, "All right." 1000 01:06:27,175 --> 01:06:29,470 I don't know, fuck, I'm doing, like, pretty good out here, though. 1001 01:06:29,555 --> 01:06:30,515 Like, I'm working. 1002 01:06:31,266 --> 01:06:33,813 I've been like, drinking a lot less. And I'm definitely not like... 1003 01:06:34,607 --> 01:06:36,276 just fucking off as much. 1004 01:06:36,652 --> 01:06:38,113 Fucking... 1005 01:06:39,199 --> 01:06:40,994 Can you hear me, like, in your headphones right now? 1006 01:06:41,077 --> 01:06:44,500 -Yeah. -There's liquor in this cup. 1007 01:06:50,931 --> 01:06:54,229 -[Nina] So, west, fifth street. -[seatbelt alarm beeping] 1008 01:06:54,312 --> 01:06:57,360 This is Walnut, so I need to be going... 1009 01:06:57,736 --> 01:06:59,030 that way. 1010 01:07:02,203 --> 01:07:03,790 [Elliot mumbling] 1011 01:07:03,998 --> 01:07:05,209 -What? -Momma. 1012 01:07:05,877 --> 01:07:07,965 -Baby. -Take a right. 1013 01:07:08,257 --> 01:07:10,887 -What? -Take a right. 1014 01:07:13,016 --> 01:07:16,481 Zack told me that he was going to Colorado, but, um... 1015 01:07:16,565 --> 01:07:18,820 he said that he's only going like, for a couple of days. 1016 01:07:19,237 --> 01:07:22,536 Then he wound up calling me while he was there, like, 1017 01:07:22,744 --> 01:07:24,080 "Oh, I'm gonna stay here." 1018 01:07:31,595 --> 01:07:35,019 [inaudible chatter] 1019 01:07:37,858 --> 01:07:39,027 [Zack] Are my teeth yellow? 1020 01:07:41,197 --> 01:07:46,207 [Zack] When he does get stable, he's gonna wanna be with Elliot again. 1021 01:07:46,291 --> 01:07:49,506 And he's gonna wanna be a family becase that's what he tells me. 1022 01:07:49,590 --> 01:07:50,466 [explosive sounds] 1023 01:07:50,550 --> 01:07:52,053 [Nina] But then again, all I really have is his word, 1024 01:07:52,136 --> 01:07:55,935 which I don't even know if that's true because there's so many why's. 1025 01:07:56,144 --> 01:07:57,355 Do you know what I mean? 1026 01:07:59,943 --> 01:08:01,321 [Zack] Oh, I'm drunk as fuck! 1027 01:08:01,404 --> 01:08:02,699 This is a perfect night. 1028 01:08:04,285 --> 01:08:07,166 [Keire] It's hard to get who Zack actually is 1029 01:08:07,249 --> 01:08:11,424 because there's so many versions of him, that he might tell you about. 1030 01:08:16,017 --> 01:08:17,938 [Keire] It's frustrating. It's like... 1031 01:08:18,270 --> 01:08:22,154 You're supposed to be, like, my homie, but I feel like I don't know the real you. 1032 01:08:23,198 --> 01:08:26,496 [Nina gasps] You spilled juice all over your pants. 1033 01:08:26,622 --> 01:08:27,707 It's OK. 1034 01:08:31,590 --> 01:08:33,343 [aunt] Oh, hi, Elliot! 1035 01:08:33,385 --> 01:08:34,680 -Hey, Nina. -Hi. 1036 01:08:34,763 --> 01:08:35,682 [drums playing] 1037 01:08:35,765 --> 01:08:36,684 -[aunt] You look cute. -Yeah. 1038 01:08:36,767 --> 01:08:39,147 I figure that if I'm gonna go do this at the courthouse, 1039 01:08:39,272 --> 01:08:40,608 I need to look presentable. 1040 01:08:44,198 --> 01:08:46,912 He needs to know that there's consequences, 1041 01:08:47,037 --> 01:08:49,667 like, you can't just have a child and abandon them. 1042 01:08:50,502 --> 01:08:53,926 Life doesn't work like that and he needs a reality check 1043 01:08:54,093 --> 01:08:57,684 and I feel like, you know, this is a good way to do that. 1044 01:08:58,350 --> 01:09:02,694 I'm here to try and start the process of child support. 1045 01:09:02,944 --> 01:09:04,990 [woman] You said, child support? 1046 01:09:06,117 --> 01:09:09,666 [Nina] Maybe that'll also encourage him to wanna come around more. 1047 01:09:09,917 --> 01:09:12,589 It's like, maybe if he's paying for him, he'll wanna see him. 1048 01:09:12,714 --> 01:09:14,008 But, you know, like, I don't know. 1049 01:09:15,344 --> 01:09:17,223 I'm just trying to do what I can, I guess. 1050 01:09:19,185 --> 01:09:20,772 [Keire] I'm just, I'm just playing. Don't start crying. 1051 01:09:21,147 --> 01:09:22,943 Look how much fun jumping is, um, 1052 01:09:23,318 --> 01:09:25,782 when you don't have to cut-- Mom, Mom. 1053 01:09:25,865 --> 01:09:27,326 -He's making noises. -Come on, Coco. 1054 01:09:27,577 --> 01:09:28,537 Come on, child. 1055 01:09:28,621 --> 01:09:31,334 See, like, everyone loves grandma, no one likes their uncle. 1056 01:09:34,633 --> 01:09:37,805 [Bing] Are you still with... Are you still with your boyfriend? 1057 01:09:38,098 --> 01:09:39,350 What boyfriend? 1058 01:09:39,475 --> 01:09:41,145 I thought you had a boyfriend for a while. 1059 01:09:41,312 --> 01:09:44,068 No, he wasn't a boyfriend. He was a stupid friend. 1060 01:09:45,112 --> 01:09:48,243 No, he's not around anymore. 1061 01:09:48,368 --> 01:09:49,412 Thank goodness. 1062 01:09:49,580 --> 01:09:50,622 [playing sounds] 1063 01:09:52,919 --> 01:09:55,675 [Keire] The older I get, the more I think about it. 1064 01:09:55,883 --> 01:09:59,683 I feel like there is a part of me that really loves my family. 1065 01:10:00,183 --> 01:10:02,522 All right, all right, calm down. Just ca-- 1066 01:10:03,524 --> 01:10:07,824 I guess, because family will, will, like, always be there but... 1067 01:10:08,074 --> 01:10:10,370 but friends, kinda like come and go. 1068 01:10:10,622 --> 01:10:13,084 -Help me! -God! 1069 01:10:13,335 --> 01:10:15,172 -Wassup, bro. -Wassup, Zack. 1070 01:10:15,255 --> 01:10:16,382 All he's done is bitch and moan for the last ten minutes. 1071 01:10:16,466 --> 01:10:17,886 -[Bing] How's it going? -Good. 1072 01:10:20,245 --> 01:10:21,926 I know, happy to be home. I'll tell you what... 1073 01:10:22,938 --> 01:10:24,566 -Let's do this. -Observe. 1074 01:10:24,775 --> 01:10:26,612 -[grunts] -[woman] Zack! 1075 01:10:26,779 --> 01:10:29,033 [Zack] Denver wasn't really, like, my style. 1076 01:10:30,494 --> 01:10:33,960 I felt like a lot of the people that were down there, 1077 01:10:34,377 --> 01:10:36,297 a lot of them were, like, privileged. 1078 01:10:36,590 --> 01:10:40,682 So, Sam, my current girlfriend flew me back out to Rockford. 1079 01:10:41,015 --> 01:10:42,727 I have Sam's name tattooed on my wrist now. 1080 01:10:43,061 --> 01:10:45,190 [Bing] When did you get Sam's name tattooed on there? 1081 01:10:45,733 --> 01:10:47,236 -[Sam] When or why? -Uh, Saturday? 1082 01:10:47,737 --> 01:10:48,948 I don't know. 1083 01:10:49,741 --> 01:10:50,618 [Bing] You paid for it. 1084 01:10:50,743 --> 01:10:51,912 -[Zack] She paid for it. -I paid for it. 1085 01:10:54,041 --> 01:10:55,795 [Bing] Do you feel, like, concerned 1086 01:10:55,878 --> 01:10:58,968 that Elliot's gonna grow up like, messed up? 1087 01:11:01,932 --> 01:11:04,061 [sighs] I'm 50-50 about it. 1088 01:11:07,777 --> 01:11:12,327 Lately, I have been concerned over my influence on him. 1089 01:11:12,871 --> 01:11:16,377 And, as he gets older, 1090 01:11:17,756 --> 01:11:20,427 how he's gonna look at the difference between 1091 01:11:21,054 --> 01:11:22,974 the way his family lives 1092 01:11:23,099 --> 01:11:25,730 and the way I live. And... 1093 01:11:27,232 --> 01:11:30,030 A lot of people grow up, and they're all... 1094 01:11:30,363 --> 01:11:32,367 "I'm gonna play football, and I'm gonna go to college, 1095 01:11:32,493 --> 01:11:35,082 and I'm gonna get this nice office job, and start a family, 1096 01:11:35,332 --> 01:11:39,173 and have two point five kids, and a car, and a garage, 1097 01:11:39,256 --> 01:11:42,972 and everything's just gonna be nice, and I'll buy a boat, and a snowmobile." 1098 01:11:43,139 --> 01:11:45,185 Like, fuck you, you piece of shit. 1099 01:11:45,352 --> 01:11:48,316 Like, just 'cause you're too fucking weak to make your own decisions 1100 01:11:48,399 --> 01:11:50,153 and decide what you wanna do with your own life. 1101 01:11:50,320 --> 01:11:52,366 Doesn't mean everyone else is gotta be like you. 1102 01:11:53,034 --> 01:11:55,497 I don't know, fuck. 1103 01:11:56,457 --> 01:11:57,710 [continues chuckling] 1104 01:11:57,961 --> 01:12:00,423 -All right, ask me another question. -[man chuckles] 1105 01:12:00,842 --> 01:12:03,263 [Bing] I guess, my thing was like, you know... 1106 01:12:03,848 --> 01:12:06,687 I grew up without knowing my dad. 1107 01:12:06,812 --> 01:12:08,816 I saw him three times since I was five. 1108 01:12:09,108 --> 01:12:13,449 And, uh, my stepdad used to beat the shit out of me and my mom. 1109 01:12:13,576 --> 01:12:16,038 -Right. -And, so, I don't know how I-- 1110 01:12:16,372 --> 01:12:17,792 why did I choose this life? 1111 01:12:18,209 --> 01:12:20,882 Not that I'm, like, gonna get married, and buy a house. 1112 01:12:21,090 --> 01:12:22,342 But like, I don't know. 1113 01:12:22,426 --> 01:12:25,558 You want, you want me to comment on your direction? 1114 01:12:25,683 --> 01:12:26,852 [Bing] Yeah. 1115 01:12:28,146 --> 01:12:29,398 [Zack] That's, that's the difference. 1116 01:12:29,608 --> 01:12:34,116 Like you-- Some-- some people do take their negative experiences 1117 01:12:34,200 --> 01:12:37,624 and turn them into powerful, positive things. 1118 01:12:38,834 --> 01:12:43,051 I just don't think I'm that type of person. I think I've... 1119 01:12:45,013 --> 01:12:47,644 I've found myself in a position where I was... 1120 01:12:48,353 --> 01:12:52,612 so depressed that I just, I wanted it to just get as bad as it could, 1121 01:12:52,695 --> 01:12:54,240 just bad as it could until I died. 1122 01:12:54,699 --> 01:12:58,958 [singing] 1123 01:13:00,293 --> 01:13:02,214 -Could be worse. -[Sam] Don't play with my knife. 1124 01:13:02,507 --> 01:13:04,176 -Don't play with my knife. -Take it off. 1125 01:13:04,385 --> 01:13:05,763 Quit being a pussy. 1126 01:13:06,013 --> 01:13:09,019 ♪ I want you to be mine again Actually ♪ 1127 01:13:09,311 --> 01:13:14,781 ♪ I know my lifestyle Is driving you crazy ♪ 1128 01:13:15,156 --> 01:13:18,413 Cool. Saw my fucking head off. Don't be a pussy. 1129 01:13:18,496 --> 01:13:20,584 -No. -Oh, you're such a wuss. 1130 01:13:36,157 --> 01:13:40,666 [Keire] It's like this place just like eats away at you. 1131 01:13:40,958 --> 01:13:45,425 I don't know. I just don't wanna get trapped here and lockered 1132 01:13:45,760 --> 01:13:47,471 like a lot of people have. 1133 01:13:48,348 --> 01:13:51,395 [rap music playing on the stereo] 1134 01:13:52,815 --> 01:13:55,153 I tried stashing away my money 1135 01:13:55,529 --> 01:13:58,660 and then my fucking brother broke into my room and stole it. 1136 01:13:58,994 --> 01:14:01,165 [music continues playing] 1137 01:14:07,344 --> 01:14:10,475 If-- if I ever to told my dad what my brother did to me, 1138 01:14:10,851 --> 01:14:13,565 my dad would be like on his ass right now. 1139 01:14:13,732 --> 01:14:15,611 He'll like... He'd be so... Oh, my God! 1140 01:14:17,114 --> 01:14:19,201 I-- I remember, this one time... 1141 01:14:19,953 --> 01:14:23,501 I think, I, like, stole something or something, I was like little. 1142 01:14:24,879 --> 01:14:27,426 Like, 12, maybe. I stole something. 1143 01:14:28,136 --> 01:14:31,058 That was the worst ass whopping I've ever gotten. 1144 01:14:31,183 --> 01:14:34,398 But it definitely made me never steal, like... 1145 01:14:34,691 --> 01:14:36,318 I was, like, yeah... 1146 01:14:36,695 --> 01:14:38,907 Stealing sucks because it gets your ass beat 1147 01:14:39,116 --> 01:14:41,538 and, like, you burn bridges. 1148 01:14:41,872 --> 01:14:43,709 And burning bridges isn't cool. 1149 01:14:52,142 --> 01:14:55,064 Afterwards, after my ass stopped stinging, 1150 01:14:55,524 --> 01:14:58,697 he apologized for, like, beating me. 1151 01:14:59,114 --> 01:15:02,872 He totally just explained to me. It was just how he was raised. 1152 01:15:06,170 --> 01:15:09,844 I know that he loved me like, that's why he was so hard on me. 1153 01:15:15,063 --> 01:15:17,735 [Bing] So, what do you think that you've gotten out of this documentary? 1154 01:15:19,656 --> 01:15:20,908 Um... 1155 01:15:24,248 --> 01:15:27,045 It's almost like... fucking free therapy. 1156 01:15:27,128 --> 01:15:29,132 -[chuckles] -Yeah. 1157 01:15:30,051 --> 01:15:33,057 I'm making this film because I was... 1158 01:15:33,391 --> 01:15:35,228 physically disciplined by my step father 1159 01:15:35,436 --> 01:15:37,232 and it didn't make sense to me 1160 01:15:37,440 --> 01:15:40,823 and I saw myself in your own story. 1161 01:15:41,448 --> 01:15:42,367 Hmm. 1162 01:15:43,996 --> 01:15:45,081 Wow. 1163 01:15:48,672 --> 01:15:49,632 That's... 1164 01:15:50,926 --> 01:15:53,431 Wow, Bing, I had no idea, dude. 1165 01:15:53,974 --> 01:15:56,771 You know, that's really cool, though. 1166 01:16:01,196 --> 01:16:02,157 Wow. 1167 01:16:03,952 --> 01:16:06,248 [Bing] So, this might be a weird question, 1168 01:16:06,332 --> 01:16:09,338 but you spent a lot of time in Zack's house growing up. 1169 01:16:09,589 --> 01:16:12,637 Do you think Zack is capable of hitting a woman? 1170 01:16:15,308 --> 01:16:16,352 Hmm. 1171 01:16:17,980 --> 01:16:21,278 Maybe if he's drunk enough, and, like, she's, like, hitting him, 1172 01:16:21,487 --> 01:16:23,909 like, fucking beating the shit out of him or something, maybe. 1173 01:16:24,034 --> 01:16:26,455 But I don't think Zack would ever just like... 1174 01:16:27,792 --> 01:16:32,175 like, just fucking strike a woman. Like, I don't think he'd ever do that. 1175 01:16:44,745 --> 01:16:47,205 -My, my stepmom and my dad? Um... -Yeah. 1176 01:16:48,542 --> 01:16:49,877 Yeah, I mean, all the time. 1177 01:16:50,253 --> 01:16:52,424 They fucking, most of the time they argued about me. 1178 01:16:53,008 --> 01:16:54,554 [chuckles] Uh... 1179 01:16:55,430 --> 01:16:57,601 Like once or twice the cops came to my house, but... 1180 01:16:58,102 --> 01:17:00,941 that was when I was young, young, maybe, like, 10 or 12. 1181 01:17:01,275 --> 01:17:04,489 You know what I mean that? Not... not as a teenager. It never got... 1182 01:17:05,826 --> 01:17:07,747 I don't think it ever got, like, real physical. 1183 01:17:07,997 --> 01:17:10,042 I think just the fight got real gnarly. 1184 01:17:10,126 --> 01:17:14,217 I mean, shit, I've called the cops on fuckin' Nina, on my baby mama before. 1185 01:17:14,802 --> 01:17:17,056 Like, sometimes you just need the fight to stop. 1186 01:17:22,403 --> 01:17:23,194 Oh. 1187 01:17:23,194 --> 01:17:25,156 I don't know if you filmed the recording. 1188 01:17:25,364 --> 01:17:26,910 That was a pretty... 1189 01:17:27,787 --> 01:17:29,749 Like every other day occurrence. 1190 01:17:29,832 --> 01:17:33,005 She just fuckin' loses her damn shit. 1191 01:17:33,088 --> 01:17:34,884 And she won't shut the fuck up 1192 01:17:34,967 --> 01:17:38,140 and it just keeps escalating and escalating and escalating and... 1193 01:17:38,767 --> 01:17:39,936 [exhales] 1194 01:17:40,646 --> 01:17:45,404 You know, my deal with women, kinda the way I've dealt with it is, 1195 01:17:45,488 --> 01:17:48,452 you know, they get all fuckin' heated and mad about shit 1196 01:17:48,537 --> 01:17:50,039 or they're complaining about this... 1197 01:17:50,206 --> 01:17:53,087 I'm like all right, I'm leaving, bye! 1198 01:17:53,170 --> 01:17:54,924 But if a fuckin' woman, 1199 01:17:55,592 --> 01:17:57,303 is acting a fucking fool, 1200 01:17:57,387 --> 01:17:58,765 they're been acting a fool, 1201 01:17:58,849 --> 01:18:02,105 you've asked them to stop, you've tried to get away from the situation 1202 01:18:02,188 --> 01:18:05,779 and you've done everything that you can do, to avoid the situation peacefully, 1203 01:18:05,863 --> 01:18:07,198 and she's coming to you, 1204 01:18:07,323 --> 01:18:08,702 wanting to argue and fight like 1205 01:18:08,785 --> 01:18:11,331 she's a fuckin' man, like, she's ready to hurt you. 1206 01:18:11,331 --> 01:18:12,835 The... 1207 01:18:12,835 --> 01:18:13,795 Ah... 1208 01:18:14,922 --> 01:18:16,341 You can't beat up women. 1209 01:18:17,385 --> 01:18:20,517 But some bitches need to get slapped sometimes, does that make sense? 1210 01:18:27,405 --> 01:18:29,994 [Bing] You stayed with him because at times, he was sweet. 1211 01:18:30,286 --> 01:18:33,042 So what gave you the strength to finally leave him? 1212 01:18:42,352 --> 01:18:44,272 [Bing's mother] Seventeen years. 1213 01:18:47,691 --> 01:18:51,680 Um... but then he died anyway. 1214 01:19:00,981 --> 01:19:03,812 But that's how I have deal with it. 1215 01:19:03,812 --> 01:19:06,274 I don't like that, even now, I don't know what to do. 1216 01:19:17,798 --> 01:19:20,887 [Nina] Zack and I went to court for child support. 1217 01:19:21,179 --> 01:19:24,060 And you know, it was like one of those moments 1218 01:19:24,144 --> 01:19:27,275 where I was just like, wow, like, what am I doing with my life. 1219 01:19:29,362 --> 01:19:30,782 Wow, you're so cool! 1220 01:19:31,408 --> 01:19:34,080 [Zack] You know, on one hand of my brain, I'm like, 1221 01:19:34,164 --> 01:19:37,003 you shouldn't be around your kid ever, like, you-- you fucking suck. 1222 01:19:37,713 --> 01:19:40,510 And on the other hand, I'm like no, that's my child. 1223 01:19:42,681 --> 01:19:44,059 [Keire] "Happy fathers' day. 1224 01:19:44,894 --> 01:19:48,150 I hope you all get to spend some time with your fathers. 1225 01:19:48,610 --> 01:19:52,910 The last time I talked to my dad, I argued and fought with him. 1226 01:19:53,578 --> 01:19:55,999 I moved out the next day." 1227 01:20:06,521 --> 01:20:10,444 The, uh, the last time I came here, it was his funeral. 1228 01:20:14,662 --> 01:20:17,333 You don't wanna think about it. 1229 01:20:22,260 --> 01:20:26,686 Not necessarily, I get-- I feel, like, shaky and anxious. 1230 01:20:27,563 --> 01:20:29,900 I don't--I don't really think about him that much. 1231 01:20:39,502 --> 01:20:43,093 I've never been able to deal with myself. 1232 01:20:43,636 --> 01:20:45,055 Because I'm so busy. 1233 01:20:45,431 --> 01:20:48,437 I'm not even convincing other people, I'm convincing myself 1234 01:20:48,646 --> 01:20:51,819 that I'm a good person or... I feel like a clown. 1235 01:20:52,654 --> 01:20:53,698 Almost, you know? 1236 01:20:54,783 --> 01:20:57,956 You paint up your face and you put on your act for everybody. 1237 01:21:00,545 --> 01:21:03,843 And you let that act become you. 1238 01:21:11,776 --> 01:21:14,615 [Nina] I've always been something to someone, you know. 1239 01:21:14,698 --> 01:21:17,955 I was someone's daughter, someone's sister, someone's significant other 1240 01:21:18,038 --> 01:21:19,499 and then someone's mom. 1241 01:21:19,583 --> 01:21:23,090 [laughs] So it's like, I never got that chance to just, like, figure myself out. 1242 01:21:25,845 --> 01:21:29,561 I really wish, I could fucking just remember where it is. 1243 01:21:31,398 --> 01:21:34,571 It's like, it would make this day a lot better for me... 1244 01:21:42,211 --> 01:21:43,881 [Zack] I don't want my son... 1245 01:21:45,050 --> 01:21:46,303 I just don't want him to grow up... 1246 01:21:47,889 --> 01:21:51,062 you know, like fucked up, like me, you know? 1247 01:21:58,118 --> 01:22:01,207 I can't let myself think that the reason 1248 01:22:01,416 --> 01:22:05,424 I have to struggle so hard that's 'cause I fucking suck. 1249 01:22:06,719 --> 01:22:09,349 I can't... You know, that's what the drinking is about. 1250 01:22:09,641 --> 01:22:11,311 That's what it's all about. 1251 01:22:12,104 --> 01:22:14,610 I just wanna hide, I just wanna run away. 1252 01:22:25,089 --> 01:22:27,468 [Zack] It's such a crushing, hopeless feeling. 1253 01:22:28,178 --> 01:22:31,351 It just sucks knowing that you're your own enemy. 1254 01:22:31,602 --> 01:22:37,238 That every decision you've ever made has culminated in how shitty your life is now. 1255 01:22:39,283 --> 01:22:40,954 And there's no escaping it. 1256 01:22:41,956 --> 01:22:43,375 [Bing's mother] I don't know... 1257 01:22:43,543 --> 01:22:44,962 I tried to help you. 1258 01:22:54,648 --> 01:22:57,403 Well, the reason why I wanted to make this film was... 1259 01:22:57,821 --> 01:23:01,369 Maybe I'm-- maybe you're right, maybe I'm-- 1260 01:23:01,494 --> 01:23:03,916 I need to just move on and not dwell in the past 1261 01:23:16,984 --> 01:23:18,111 Hey, cut. 1262 01:23:28,591 --> 01:23:30,052 [Keire] Oh, my God. 1263 01:23:31,514 --> 01:23:33,058 Fucking, yes! 1264 01:23:34,811 --> 01:23:38,443 I fucking-- I finally fucking found it. 1265 01:23:39,613 --> 01:23:40,740 [laughs] 1266 01:23:41,366 --> 01:23:42,536 [sniffs] 1267 01:23:53,599 --> 01:23:55,310 [whispering] I'm so fucking happy. 1268 01:25:00,858 --> 01:25:01,819 Fuck! 1269 01:25:15,303 --> 01:25:16,389 Let's-- Let's go. 1270 01:25:28,914 --> 01:25:30,000 [exhales] 1271 01:26:11,792 --> 01:26:14,213 I get mad at skateboarding, like, a lot. 1272 01:26:14,338 --> 01:26:18,681 But at the end of the day I love it so much, I can't stay mad at it. [laughs] 1273 01:26:21,418 --> 01:26:22,688 Yeah, so did my dad. 1274 01:26:22,688 --> 01:26:24,274 But I love him to death. 1275 01:26:33,125 --> 01:26:34,168 [no audio] 1276 01:27:45,520 --> 01:27:47,106 I'm about to do this shit. 1277 01:27:47,189 --> 01:27:49,402 [laughs] Oh, my God, dude, I'm gonna fuckin' do it. 1278 01:27:52,032 --> 01:27:53,911 [exhales] Moving to Denver. 1279 01:27:53,911 --> 01:27:55,790 [sniffles and sighs] 1280 01:28:01,342 --> 01:28:02,721 [television blaring] 1281 01:28:10,820 --> 01:28:12,239 Can't you wait another month? 1282 01:28:12,323 --> 01:28:14,077 [Keire laughs] No. 1283 01:28:14,285 --> 01:28:16,582 -'Til it get warm? -No, Mom. 1284 01:28:24,347 --> 01:28:25,850 See you later, baby. 1285 01:29:03,091 --> 01:29:05,179 ["This Year" by The Mountain Goats playing] 1286 01:29:23,549 --> 01:29:26,471 ♪ I broke free on a Saturday morning ♪ 1287 01:29:26,764 --> 01:29:29,853 ♪ I put the pedal to the floor ♪ 1288 01:29:30,479 --> 01:29:32,943 ♪ Headed north on Mills Avenue ♪ 1289 01:29:33,694 --> 01:29:36,784 ♪ And listened to the engine roar ♪ 1290 01:29:37,368 --> 01:29:40,040 -Look, I made this for you! -Thanks! 1291 01:29:51,354 --> 01:29:52,983 ♪ My broken house behind me ♪ 1292 01:29:53,108 --> 01:29:54,485 ♪ And good things ahead ♪ 1293 01:29:54,569 --> 01:29:57,366 ♪ A girl named Cathy Wants a little of my time ♪ 1294 01:29:58,118 --> 01:29:59,538 ♪ Six cylinders underneath the hood ♪ 1295 01:30:04,756 --> 01:30:07,929 ♪ I am going to make it Through this year ♪ 1296 01:30:08,179 --> 01:30:09,850 ♪ If it kills me ♪ 1297 01:30:11,477 --> 01:30:14,651 ♪ I am going to make it Through this year ♪ 1298 01:30:14,943 --> 01:30:16,530 ♪ If it kills me ♪ 1299 01:30:18,491 --> 01:30:21,665 ♪ I drove home in the California dusk ♪ 1300 01:30:22,709 --> 01:30:25,673 ♪ I could feel the alcohol Inside of me hum ♪ 1301 01:30:25,757 --> 01:30:28,345 ♪ Pictured the look On my stepfather's face ♪ 1302 01:30:33,438 --> 01:30:35,400 ♪ As I pulled into the driveway ♪ 1303 01:30:36,277 --> 01:30:39,618 ♪ The motor screaming out Stuck in second gear ♪ 1304 01:30:39,701 --> 01:30:42,456 ♪ The scene ends badly As you might imagine ♪ 1305 01:30:43,041 --> 01:30:45,922 ♪ In a cavalcade of anger and fear ♪ 1306 01:30:49,679 --> 01:30:53,353 ♪ In Jerusalem next year ♪ 1307 01:30:53,436 --> 01:30:56,401 ♪ I am going to make it Through this year ♪ 1308 01:30:56,735 --> 01:30:58,739 ♪ If it kills me ♪ 1309 01:31:00,283 --> 01:31:03,206 ♪ I am going to make it Through this year ♪ 1310 01:31:03,582 --> 01:31:05,419 ♪ If it kills me ♪ 1311 01:31:12,391 --> 01:31:14,688 [woman] Cheese, come on boy, come on! 1312 01:31:26,962 --> 01:31:28,591 Awesome! 1313 01:31:33,183 --> 01:31:34,686 Fuck!