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(SEAGULLS CALLING)
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(WAVES CRASHING)
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MAN: Please prepare to exit the ferry.
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(HORN BLARES)
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MAN: Attention, on deck.
We are now arriving at Fire Island Pines.
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All right, welcome to Fire Island, everybody.
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Please take care, exit slowly.
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Those steps can be wet.
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Also double-check
you have all your luggage...
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Have a good day.
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- Hey, Weeks!
- Hey, honey.
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How you doing?
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We're doing great.
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Here we are!
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What are you guys doing?
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Hairy is out. Your turn, teddy bear.
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No. No. I love my teddy.
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- Calvin Klein would not approve.
- NED: Oh.
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The baseball game is on
and my summer has officially begun.
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The thing is he actually means it.
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- Hey, baby.
- How are ya?
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- You want a beer?
- Nah, I've already had a couple.
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Nice stripes, Lieutenant. Hot.
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Oh, please. Captain.
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Just got back from the reserves.
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You know what they say.
Once a month, I get to play a real man.
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Ooh. I haven't seen you at the gym lately.
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Bruce!
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- Your turn, Bruce.
- What? What?
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Brucey, please.
Don't embarrass our house at the beach, hon.
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Uh-oh. (SIGHS)
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You gotta do it.
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You know what they say, Ned.
If you can't beat 'em,
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Join 'em!
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That's my guy-
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Craig was miserable
when you weren't interested.
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Now look, he's got Robert Redford.
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It shows you there is a god.
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How's John?
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- John?
- John.
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Oh, John! No, I'm with Gregory now.
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We're celebrating our 15th month anniversary.
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Fifteen... That's a long time for you, Mickey.
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Oh, please! We're lovers and we live together.
It's not like we're faithful to each other, too.
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He's not even Jewish.
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Don't tell my rabbi.
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(MEN GRUNTING)
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- Oh, my God.
-(BOTH LAUGHING)
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- Hey, Weeks! You suck!
-(POP MUSIC PLAYING)
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Why do you even come here anymore?
We don't want you.
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(MEN LAUGHING)
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You made us look terrible in your novel.
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Look around you. Sex is liberating.
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NED: All I said was having so much sex
makes finding love impossible.
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Do not put your failure to find someone
on the rest of us.
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BRUCE: Neddy!
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- Ow!
- Oh, jeez.
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(COUGHING)
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Oh, my God!
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(COUGHS)
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Guys!
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Hey, what happened?
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- Are you okay?
- I'm okay.
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I just got a little light-headed.
I got myself up. I'm fine.
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I think I just got a little dizzy.
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Does he seem okay?
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MEN: (SINGING) Happy birthday to you
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Happy birthday to you
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Happy birthday, dear Craig!
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Happy birthday to you!
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Blow!
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He's good at that!
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(ALL LAUGHING)
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(ALL CHEERING)
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(COUGHING)
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(UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING)
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I fucking love this place!
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(CHEERING)
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(MUSIC CONTINUES)
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(YOU MAKE ME FEEL PLAYING)
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Hey, Ned!
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Come on. Please?
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(THUNDER RUMBLING)
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(FAINT MOANING)
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(SIGHS)
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I sold you a ceramic pig once
at Maison France on Bleecker Street.
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I'm Sanford.
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Yes, I remember.
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Somebody I was friends with then
collected pigs
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and you had the biggest pig
I'd ever seen outside a real pig.
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(CHUCKLES)
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They just keep getting bigger
and won't go away.
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I'm her 20th case.
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And six of them are dead.
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(DOOR OPENS)
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Hey, Ned, won't be a minute.
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Hey, Buzzy, I didn't know you worked here.
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-(FAINT WHIRRING)
- BROOKNER: Who are you?
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Uh, Ned Weeks.
I spoke to you after The Times article.
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Come in. Take your clothes off.
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I only came to ask some questions.
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- You are gay, aren't you?
- Yes.
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Take your clothes off. Don't be nervous.
I've seen more men than you have.
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BROOKNER: To answer all of your questions,
I don't know.
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I've never seen or heard of anything like this.
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Have you had any of the symptoms?
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Most of the shit The Times said,
amoebas, gonorrhea, hepatitis.
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You don't know what it's been like
since the sexual revolution.
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What makes you think I don't?
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Any fever, night sweats, weight loss?
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Don't I wish.
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No.
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And purple lesions? Open your mouth.
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It's a cancer.
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There's a strange reaction
in the immune system.
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It's collapsed.
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Won't fight, so the diseases
most of my patients are coming down with
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are brought on by germs
that wouldn't hurt a baby.
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Ticklish.
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At least not a baby in New York City, anyway.
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I mean, the immune system
is the system we know the least about.
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So where's this big mouth I hear you've got?
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Is big mouth a symptom?
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No. It's a cure.
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This seems to only be happening to gay men.
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Buzzy says you are well-known
in the gay community
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and not afraid to say what you think.
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-(DOOR OPENS)
- I can't find any gay leaders,
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and I call gay organizations,
no one ever calls me back.
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Dr. Brookner, no one with half a brain
gets involved with gay politics.
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- There's no room for criticism.
- What's your criticism?
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I hate that we play victim when many of us,
most of us don't have to.
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Then you're exactly what's needed now.
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Maybe they're just waiting for someone
to lead them.
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I don't want to lead them.
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What exactly are you trying to get me to do?
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Tell gay men to stop having sex.
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Do you think that this cancer
is sexually transmitted?
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I think it is, yes.
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Can I prove it yet? No.
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Do you realize that you're talking about
millions of men
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who have singled out promiscuity
as their principal political agenda?
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How do you deal with that?
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Tell them they may die.
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- Where?
- Down the hall! Down the hall!
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NED: It's not that simple.
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It's more complicated than that.
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They think sex is all they have.
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Mr. Weeks, if having sex can kill you,
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doesn't anyone with half a brain
stop fucking?
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You can go.
I'm not finding what I'm looking for here.
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-(ELEVATOR BELL DINGS)
-(DOORS SLAM)
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BRUCE: Where is she?
MICKEY: Open up!
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- Where? Where?
- Right in that room.
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- Easy! Easy!
- Just put him up on the table.
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Up here.
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Just try to hold him.
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- Baby!
- Easy! Be still.
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- BUZZY: Can you tell me what happened?
-(MUFFLED GROANING)
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We were meeting him outside.
We turned the corner, he just collapsed.
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(TIRES SCREECHING)
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(HONKING)
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MAN: Jesus!
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Hey, get the fuck outta the street!
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(PANTING)
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Baby!
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Oh, my God.
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Help!
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-(SIREN BLARING)
-(SOBBING)
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- Who's the lover?
- BRUCE: lam, ma'am.
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- What's your name?
- Bruce Niles.
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- Brookner, I need a room immediately.
-(MUFFLED SCREAMING)
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Niles, you were Reinhardt's boyfriend?
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Yes, ma'am. How do you know that?
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He died three weeks ago.
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(DOOR SLAMS)
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(SIRENS ECHOING)
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(SIGHS)
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They wouldn't even let me say goodbye.
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Not even let me kiss him goodbye.
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He's dead?
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I'm so sorry.
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It can happen this fast?
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N just did.
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We have to do something.
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No one else will.
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MICKEY: What are we supposed to do?
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MORTON: You make these assumptions
on the basis of 46 cases!
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You wanted to know what I think.
This is what I think.
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You are all going to infect each other.
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(CLAMORING)
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Now only a few of you have.
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Unfortunately, we can't tell yet which ones.
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Long before we isolated the hepatitis viruses,
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we knew about the diseases they caused
and how they got around!
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Where are the medical journals? The Times?
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I sent my first report to the medical journals
over a year ago.
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Excuse me, how do you know
what you're looking for,
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real quick,
if you don't know what you're looking for?
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I'm sorry. I guess that's a dumb question.
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No, it isn't.
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It's the smartest question of all
and the hardest one to answer.
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Doesn't common sense tell you
you should cool it for a while?
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(ALL LAUGHING)
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(CLAMORING)
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NED: Why not?
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It doesn't leave much to look forward to.
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What if it turns out that you're wrong?
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Let her speak!
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The worst that could happen
would be that you cooled it for a while.
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No! Excuse me! Excuse me!
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That is not...
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Excuse me.
That is not the worst that will have happened.
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Guys will become frightened of sex,
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they will lose our self-respect
that we fought very, very hard for.
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We will be scapegoated worse than ever.
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The world will think we're carriers
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and the moral majority
will have even more of a field day.
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(CLAMORING)
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MAN: I am not coming back
until that bitch on wheels is gone.
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Wait! I see more cases each week
than the week before.
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Half of all my patients die.
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Okay, I hope she winds this up, 'cause
I've got a tiny little orgy in New Rochelle.
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Where's the health department?
Where's the Mayor?
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Shut the fuck up, John.
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Oh, you shut the fuck up, hon!
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What were the numbers?
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(VOICES OVERLAPPING)
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ls every gay meeting like this?
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Half these people just showed up to get laid.
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NED: Quiet! Quiet!
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We're starting a group!
We're starting a health crisis group.
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We're gonna meet here again.
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Next time bring some fucking food!
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TOMMY: Hey, hey, hey. That's not nice.
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- Welcome to gay politics.
-(ELEVATOR BELL DINGS)
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(CLEARS THROAT) Yeah. I'm very late for
an important meeting with Craig Claiborne.
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He's expecting me.
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(TELEPHONES RINGING)
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(TYPEWRITERS CLACKING)
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Hi, Felix Turner.
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- And you are?
- My name's Ned Weeks.
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You're very cute.
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You caught me at a rough moment, all right?
I have a deadline.
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The First Lady's coming to town.
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I've been told you're gay.
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And you might be able to help me
get some vital information in The Times.
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You've been told?
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And who was it who told you?
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Oh, honey, everybody's talking about it.
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(CHUCKLES)
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00:16:46,632 --> 00:16:49,092
Why does everyone gay
think that I run The New York Times?
254
00:16:49,176 --> 00:16:51,386
I can't help you with this.
255
00:16:51,470 --> 00:16:53,555
I'm sorry to hear that.
What would you suggest I do?
256
00:16:53,639 --> 00:16:54,681
(CHUCKLES) Take your pick.
257
00:16:54,765 --> 00:16:58,018
I got 23 parties, 37 new restaurants,
12 new discos.
258
00:16:58,101 --> 00:17:01,146
Listen, I can't get anyone here
to write another article.
259
00:17:01,230 --> 00:17:04,608
I've talked to half a dozen reporters
and the guy who worked on the first piece.
260
00:17:04,691 --> 00:17:06,944
Mr. Leather? Yeah, no.
261
00:17:07,528 --> 00:17:09,905
No one here will write about it, and I can't.
262
00:17:09,988 --> 00:17:11,573
Look, we're very compartmentalized.
263
00:17:12,199 --> 00:17:14,326
You wouldn't want science
to write about sweaters, would you?
264
00:17:14,409 --> 00:17:15,577
It's a very peculiar feeling
265
00:17:15,661 --> 00:17:18,497
having to go out and seek support
from the straight world for something gay.
266
00:17:20,415 --> 00:17:21,583
(WHISPERING) I wouldn't know about that.
267
00:17:22,251 --> 00:17:25,337
I just write about gay designers
and gay discos and gay chefs
268
00:17:25,420 --> 00:17:28,966
and gay models and gay rock stars
and gay celebrities and gay everything.
269
00:17:29,049 --> 00:17:30,342
I just don't call them gay.
270
00:17:31,969 --> 00:17:33,470
Isn't it time you start?
271
00:17:34,054 --> 00:17:35,055
(SCOFFS)
272
00:17:36,265 --> 00:17:38,141
- Look, I really do have a deadline.
- Hmm.
273
00:17:38,642 --> 00:17:40,602
- And you wouldn't want me to get fired.
- Hmm.
274
00:17:41,061 --> 00:17:42,396
Would you?
275
00:17:43,855 --> 00:17:46,567
Guys like you can be a pain in the ass.
276
00:17:49,027 --> 00:17:50,904
- You in the book?
- Yes.
277
00:17:57,327 --> 00:17:58,870
NED: Hi, guys. Give to gay cancer?
278
00:17:59,663 --> 00:18:01,415
Hi, give to gay cancer?
279
00:18:01,498 --> 00:18:03,375
No? Hi, give to gay cancer?
280
00:18:03,500 --> 00:18:04,835
Hi, sir...
281
00:18:05,043 --> 00:18:07,504
Hi, give to gay cancer?
There's a cancer in the gay community.
282
00:18:07,588 --> 00:18:08,589
Can you give to gay cancer?
283
00:18:08,672 --> 00:18:11,758
There's a crisis in our community right now.
We could really...
284
00:18:11,842 --> 00:18:13,385
We could use a little help.
285
00:18:13,468 --> 00:18:15,262
- No?
- I think you could be a little less aggressive.
286
00:18:15,345 --> 00:18:17,431
Less... We've tried that.
287
00:18:17,514 --> 00:18:20,267
Can you give to cancer in our community?
288
00:18:21,226 --> 00:18:22,686
Hi, give to gay..-
289
00:18:23,353 --> 00:18:25,355
Hi, give to gay cancer?
290
00:18:36,199 --> 00:18:37,200
(SNIFFLES)
291
00:19:28,794 --> 00:19:31,838
BRUCE: It's funny. My mother sent flowers
292
00:19:33,256 --> 00:19:35,717
and I had never told her I was gay.
293
00:19:35,801 --> 00:19:38,345
I just told her that Craig had died.
294
00:19:39,930 --> 00:19:41,264
I think she knew.
295
00:19:43,225 --> 00:19:45,227
I think somehow mothers always know.
296
00:19:57,698 --> 00:20:00,617
Doesn't spending $5 million
on a house frighten you?
297
00:20:01,535 --> 00:20:04,913
It scared the shit out of me
even having you handling my finances.
298
00:20:04,996 --> 00:20:06,790
You can have a house anytime you want,
299
00:20:06,873 --> 00:20:08,750
which reminds me,
your account needs more money.
300
00:20:09,543 --> 00:20:11,628
You're not doing too badly.
301
00:20:12,337 --> 00:20:15,132
I miss you being in the movie business.
I like movies.
302
00:20:15,215 --> 00:20:18,969
Do I detect a note of approval
from the big brother that called me Lemon?
303
00:20:20,387 --> 00:20:21,596
I don't want a house.
304
00:20:21,680 --> 00:20:23,890
Then why have you been searching
in the country for so long for?
305
00:20:23,974 --> 00:20:25,517
No fun living in it alone.
306
00:20:26,143 --> 00:20:27,477
This Bruce,
307
00:20:28,478 --> 00:20:29,479
is he someone you're seeing?
308
00:20:29,563 --> 00:20:32,065
(SCOFFS) I see him. He doesn't see me.
309
00:20:34,609 --> 00:20:38,405
Ben, could your law firm take this on for free?
310
00:20:38,488 --> 00:20:40,240
What's it called? Pro bono?
311
00:20:40,323 --> 00:20:43,118
We started an organization. I told you.
There's this new disease...
312
00:20:43,201 --> 00:20:45,996
Now this sounds like just another excuse
to keep from writing.
313
00:20:46,079 --> 00:20:47,581
Why Can't you just say yes?
314
00:20:47,664 --> 00:20:51,084
I told you, because we have a committee
that decides that kind of a thing.
315
00:20:51,168 --> 00:20:54,463
But you're the senior partner
and I'm your brother.
316
00:20:54,838 --> 00:20:57,007
Hey, Mario. How's Homer?
317
00:21:01,887 --> 00:21:04,431
If you're not gonna help,
I'm gonna have to find somebody else.
318
00:21:04,514 --> 00:21:06,850
- Well, you're more than free to do that.
- I don't want to do that.
319
00:21:06,933 --> 00:21:10,937
I want my big brother's
fancy, famous, big-time major law firm
320
00:21:11,021 --> 00:21:14,775
to be the first straight New York law firm
to do pro bono work for a gay cause.
321
00:21:14,858 --> 00:21:16,902
I would be real proud of that, and you.
322
00:21:18,945 --> 00:21:20,906
I'll ask my partners' approval
at the next meeting.
323
00:21:21,072 --> 00:21:23,575
I'll lobby them.
You don't sound like a very sure vote.
324
00:21:32,709 --> 00:21:33,794
Okay?
325
00:21:39,382 --> 00:21:40,425
You're getting better at it.
326
00:21:44,346 --> 00:21:46,598
BROOKNER: I'm seeing three to four
new patients a week.
327
00:21:46,681 --> 00:21:49,851
I've got seven in ICU.
The whole hospital only has room for 30.
328
00:21:50,393 --> 00:21:53,647
I've had to admit some of them
under other illnesses. That's a no-no.
329
00:21:53,730 --> 00:21:56,358
I've got 20 in private rooms they can't afford.
330
00:21:56,441 --> 00:21:59,861
Okay, what about the guys who don't
have health insurance? Artists, actors?
331
00:21:59,945 --> 00:22:02,239
I've got eight of them in another ward
where I shouldn't put them.
332
00:22:12,874 --> 00:22:15,252
Why don't you wear gloves and a face mask?
333
00:22:15,335 --> 00:22:18,839
I never have and I never will, and I'm still here.
334
00:22:21,007 --> 00:22:24,010
Why is all the food sitting outside their rooms
like this? It's getting cold.
335
00:22:24,094 --> 00:22:27,931
It's always cold because the appropriate staff
won't bring it into the rooms,
336
00:22:28,014 --> 00:22:30,642
so it sits and rots until one of my staff can.
337
00:22:30,725 --> 00:22:31,768
SANFORD: Park right there.
338
00:22:32,435 --> 00:22:36,773
Right there. Yeah.
Park there. Yeah. Right through the tunnel.
339
00:22:37,065 --> 00:22:39,442
Take the tunnel. We'll take the book back.
340
00:22:40,485 --> 00:22:42,612
I know him. Can I go inside with you?
341
00:22:45,323 --> 00:22:46,950
Only if you wear all the protective shit.
342
00:22:47,993 --> 00:22:49,870
If you don't, I don't.
343
00:22:52,747 --> 00:22:54,165
SANFORD: No, no, no. Over there.
344
00:22:55,083 --> 00:22:56,376
Go the other way.
345
00:22:56,459 --> 00:23:00,046
No, are you listening to me?
Are you listening to me? Go back.
346
00:23:00,130 --> 00:23:01,089
Hi, Sanford.
347
00:23:01,172 --> 00:23:04,467
You see it? Take the tunnel.
Go ahead. Ride straight through.
348
00:23:04,551 --> 00:23:05,552
How are we doing, soldier?
349
00:23:05,635 --> 00:23:08,096
I want my dog.
Can you please bring me my dog?
350
00:23:08,597 --> 00:23:10,807
He won't be able to live without me.
351
00:23:10,891 --> 00:23:11,892
I want my dog.
352
00:23:12,267 --> 00:23:13,310
I want my dog.
353
00:23:14,144 --> 00:23:16,897
Go ahead. That's right. Good, good.
354
00:23:16,980 --> 00:23:18,189
No, take the book back.
355
00:23:18,648 --> 00:23:21,401
Right there. Go park. Park right there.
356
00:23:22,110 --> 00:23:26,323
Can you please bring me my dog?
He won't know how to live without me.
357
00:23:27,574 --> 00:23:28,575
(TV BUZZING)
358
00:23:30,827 --> 00:23:32,329
Don't bother.
359
00:23:32,621 --> 00:23:34,915
Who's going to bring me my dog?
360
00:23:36,374 --> 00:23:39,461
His name is Skip.
He'll come when you call him.
361
00:23:40,211 --> 00:23:41,838
Please. (GASPING)
362
00:23:44,507 --> 00:23:45,842
I miss him.
363
00:23:46,009 --> 00:23:47,677
(SOBBING)
364
00:23:53,016 --> 00:23:54,392
I miss him.
365
00:23:57,312 --> 00:23:59,022
BROOKNER: Can you imagine this at 19?
366
00:23:59,481 --> 00:24:03,360
Your first boyfriend
you were gonna spend your whole life with.
367
00:24:05,028 --> 00:24:06,029
(DOOR OPENS)
368
00:24:10,492 --> 00:24:11,826
- Excuse me.
- MAN: Yeah?
369
00:24:11,910 --> 00:24:13,703
You're the TV guy.
370
00:24:13,995 --> 00:24:15,789
Please go to room 407 and fix it.
371
00:24:15,872 --> 00:24:16,915
No, I'm not gonna do that.
372
00:24:16,998 --> 00:24:18,792
Fix the TV! It's your fucking job.
373
00:24:19,042 --> 00:24:22,629
My union says I don't gotta risk my life
for some contagious fairy.
374
00:24:23,630 --> 00:24:26,716
If I have to go in there, then I fucking quit.
375
00:24:35,725 --> 00:24:38,561
So what exactly has your side been doing?
376
00:24:41,189 --> 00:24:44,609
(DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES)
377
00:24:47,404 --> 00:24:48,697
(MUSIC PLAYING)
378
00:24:53,034 --> 00:24:54,327
(DOORBELL RINGING)
379
00:25:03,670 --> 00:25:04,921
- Hi.
- Hey.
380
00:25:06,297 --> 00:25:07,507
Thanks.
381
00:25:08,383 --> 00:25:11,678
- You want some of this? Beer?
- Oh, beer is fine. Thanks.
382
00:25:14,639 --> 00:25:16,474
Oh. Hey, pooch.
383
00:25:16,558 --> 00:25:18,560
- Her name's Sam.
- Hi, Sam.
384
00:25:20,395 --> 00:25:22,564
You know, I really used to like high tech.
385
00:25:22,647 --> 00:25:24,441
I'm tired of it now.
386
00:25:24,858 --> 00:25:27,277
I think I want chintz back again.
387
00:25:27,444 --> 00:25:29,112
- Don't be insulted.
- Uh...
388
00:25:29,487 --> 00:25:30,739
I'm not.
389
00:25:31,072 --> 00:25:33,283
I want chintz back again, too.
390
00:25:35,118 --> 00:25:37,662
- So, here we are.
- Mmm-hmm.
391
00:25:38,079 --> 00:25:39,706
Two fellas who want chintz back again.
392
00:25:39,789 --> 00:25:41,166
I guess this really is a date.
393
00:25:44,794 --> 00:25:46,254
I'm starving.
394
00:25:47,881 --> 00:25:49,257
Are you glad I'm here?
395
00:25:49,340 --> 00:25:52,427
Oh, I'm pleased as punch you're here.
You're very good-looking.
396
00:25:52,510 --> 00:25:53,553
What are you doing here?
397
00:25:53,636 --> 00:25:55,847
- You think you're bad-looking or something?
- Mmm.
398
00:25:55,930 --> 00:25:58,516
- Where you from?
- I'm from Oklahoma.
399
00:25:59,851 --> 00:26:02,604
I left home at 18, put myself through...
400
00:26:03,229 --> 00:26:05,190
What, you want to dance?
401
00:26:05,315 --> 00:26:07,400
Put myself through college.
402
00:26:08,568 --> 00:26:11,446
My dad worked at the refinery in West Tulsa,
403
00:26:11,529 --> 00:26:15,116
and my mom was a waitress
in a luncheonette in Walgreens.
404
00:26:18,119 --> 00:26:21,956
It's amazing, isn't it, how a kid
comes out of all that to wind up on The Times
405
00:26:22,040 --> 00:26:25,126
dictating taste and style to the entire world.
406
00:26:25,210 --> 00:26:27,337
And we were just starting to talk so nicely.
407
00:26:28,004 --> 00:26:30,423
Talking's not my problem.
Shutting up's my problem.
408
00:26:30,507 --> 00:26:31,508
(CHUCKLES)
409
00:26:31,591 --> 00:26:33,676
Why do you write
all that fancy ball-gown bullshit?
410
00:26:33,760 --> 00:26:35,720
I bet you gobble it up every day.
411
00:26:36,638 --> 00:26:37,764
(SIGHS)
412
00:26:37,847 --> 00:26:39,265
I know 10 people who have died.
413
00:26:40,475 --> 00:26:41,976
When I came to you, it was only one.
414
00:26:43,520 --> 00:26:44,854
I'm sorry.
415
00:26:46,856 --> 00:26:48,274
Is that why you agreed to this date?
416
00:26:50,652 --> 00:26:51,653
(SCOFFS)
417
00:26:55,949 --> 00:26:57,575
Fork on the left,
418
00:26:59,035 --> 00:27:00,787
knife on the right.
419
00:27:03,665 --> 00:27:06,793
Did you know that Hitler's final solution
to eliminate the Polish Jews
420
00:27:06,876 --> 00:27:08,211
was first mentioned in The Times?
421
00:27:08,294 --> 00:27:11,297
It was on page 28,
on page six of The Washington Post.
422
00:27:11,381 --> 00:27:13,258
They were both owned by Jews,
their very own people.
423
00:27:14,342 --> 00:27:17,345
Scholars are finally writing honestly about it,
and it's damning to everyone.
424
00:27:17,428 --> 00:27:20,640
Where was the Christian churches?
The Pope? Churchill? Roosevelt?
425
00:27:20,723 --> 00:27:22,976
A few words from any of them
would have put Hitler on notice.
426
00:27:23,059 --> 00:27:26,729
Dachau was open in 1933.
Where the fuck was everybody?
427
00:27:28,064 --> 00:27:30,066
This is turning out to be
a very romantic evening.
428
00:27:32,235 --> 00:27:33,570
You've never had a lover, have you?
429
00:27:33,778 --> 00:27:35,780
I suppose you've had quite a few?
430
00:27:35,864 --> 00:27:38,908
I had a very good one for a number of years,
thank you.
431
00:27:41,244 --> 00:27:44,080
He was older than I was
and he found someone younger.
432
00:27:44,914 --> 00:27:47,917
- You're looking for a father?
- No. I'm not looking for a father.
433
00:27:48,001 --> 00:27:50,044
God. You're relentless.
434
00:27:59,512 --> 00:28:00,597
Okay.
435
00:28:01,222 --> 00:28:02,849
That's yours.
436
00:28:03,308 --> 00:28:05,685
Everybody had a million reasons
for not getting involved.
437
00:28:05,768 --> 00:28:07,145
The American Jews knew
438
00:28:07,228 --> 00:28:08,563
-exactly what was going on.
-(LAUGHS)
439
00:28:08,646 --> 00:28:11,691
Can you imagine if every Jew
had marched on Washington proudly, huh?
440
00:28:11,941 --> 00:28:12,942
Ned.
441
00:28:15,278 --> 00:28:17,488
You don't remember me, do you?
442
00:28:18,448 --> 00:28:20,867
It was at the baths a few years ago.
443
00:28:20,950 --> 00:28:22,160
(MUSIC PLAYING)
444
00:28:22,952 --> 00:28:24,537
ANNOUNCER: Come to Man's Country.
445
00:28:24,621 --> 00:28:27,749
See what we're all about
and what we have to offer.
446
00:28:27,832 --> 00:28:30,710
Man's Country is a full facility,
multi-level complex
447
00:28:30,793 --> 00:28:33,630
that's designed
to feature something for everyone.
448
00:28:34,130 --> 00:28:38,968
Come to Man's Country to develop your body
or a friendship with somebody else 's.
449
00:28:39,260 --> 00:28:42,263
Visit us once
and you'll come again and again.
450
00:28:57,862 --> 00:29:00,949
You would have thought I was applying
for the CIA the way you looked at me.
451
00:29:03,159 --> 00:29:05,119
And then what happened?
452
00:29:11,167 --> 00:29:12,502
FELIX: I followed you into your room.
453
00:29:24,347 --> 00:29:27,100
You couldn't even open your eyes.
454
00:29:28,142 --> 00:29:30,937
You told me your real name was Alexander.
455
00:29:34,649 --> 00:29:35,650
(GROANS)
456
00:29:36,359 --> 00:29:40,154
I asked what you did, and you said
something like you tried a number of things,
457
00:29:41,698 --> 00:29:44,158
and I asked if that included love.
458
00:29:46,077 --> 00:29:50,331
That's when you said,
I have to get up early in the morning." Yeah.
459
00:29:54,669 --> 00:29:56,879
Men do not naturally not love.
460
00:30:00,049 --> 00:30:01,718
They learn not to.
461
00:30:05,346 --> 00:30:06,431
I think you're a bluffer.
462
00:30:09,559 --> 00:30:10,643
How could I not remember you?
463
00:30:11,102 --> 00:30:12,895
(CHUCKLES) I don't know.
464
00:30:12,979 --> 00:30:14,230
It was very dark.
465
00:30:18,109 --> 00:30:19,235
Do you think we could start over?
466
00:30:22,405 --> 00:30:23,406
Yeah.
467
00:30:24,073 --> 00:30:25,074
(GRUNTING)
468
00:30:25,366 --> 00:30:26,701
(PANTING)
469
00:30:56,564 --> 00:30:58,066
(MOANING)
470
00:30:59,776 --> 00:31:01,402
(PANTING)
471
00:31:04,614 --> 00:31:05,615
(MOANING)
472
00:31:17,960 --> 00:31:20,713
NED: When I was going to Yale,
I thought I was the only gay guy there.
473
00:31:20,797 --> 00:31:21,798
I swear to God.
474
00:31:23,466 --> 00:31:26,469
I went to this shrink who tried to change me.
475
00:31:26,719 --> 00:31:30,765
Now they have Gay Weeks there,
and they throw the best dances of anyone.
476
00:31:30,848 --> 00:31:31,974
(LAUGHING)
477
00:31:32,558 --> 00:31:35,395
Imagine being able to dance
cheek to cheek with your boyfriend
478
00:31:35,478 --> 00:31:37,814
during your bright college days.
479
00:31:43,319 --> 00:31:45,655
Did you ever sleep with a woman?
480
00:31:50,993 --> 00:31:52,745
- Hey.
- Her name was
481
00:31:54,539 --> 00:31:56,249
- Delilah.
- Delilah? (LAUGHING)
482
00:31:58,042 --> 00:32:01,337
She was a stand-in on this movie I wrote.
483
00:32:02,505 --> 00:32:07,760
She was very nice, pretty,
always smiling at me.
484
00:32:09,345 --> 00:32:12,640
So I asked a straight friend to explain it to me.
485
00:32:13,349 --> 00:32:15,351
I thought I knew,
but I just wanted to make sure.
486
00:32:15,435 --> 00:32:16,519
(LAUGHING)
487
00:32:16,894 --> 00:32:18,813
And I had her to dinner
488
00:32:19,814 --> 00:32:22,733
and afterwards,
what I deemed to be a suitable moment,
489
00:32:22,817 --> 00:32:24,735
because I'd been communicating
with it down there,
490
00:32:24,819 --> 00:32:27,947
"Are you ready?
Are you absolutely certain you're ready?"
491
00:32:28,030 --> 00:32:31,742
And when it appeared,
Abercrombie was ready,
492
00:32:31,826 --> 00:32:35,705
I picked her up, very Rhett Butler,
and carried her to my bed.
493
00:32:36,581 --> 00:32:38,708
- Where I couldn't get it up.
- Oh!
494
00:32:38,958 --> 00:32:40,960
- But“
- I can certainly relate to that.
495
00:32:41,043 --> 00:32:44,547
In the middle of the night,
I woke up with this gigantic erection.
496
00:32:44,630 --> 00:32:47,175
God knows how.
497
00:32:47,258 --> 00:32:51,554
So I shake her shouting,
"Please, stick it in for me, Delilah." I was...
498
00:32:51,637 --> 00:32:54,307
I was afraid it would go away before I could,
499
00:32:54,390 --> 00:32:57,560
while I was hunting for the right place
to put it.
500
00:32:58,060 --> 00:33:02,315
And she did and I did and Abercrombie did.
501
00:33:02,398 --> 00:33:03,441
(LAUGHING)
502
00:33:03,858 --> 00:33:04,859
Ugh...
503
00:33:07,111 --> 00:33:09,238
The next morning, I woke up
504
00:33:10,323 --> 00:33:15,828
and I, who had been under the spell of this
shrink who was determined to change me,
505
00:33:15,912 --> 00:33:17,663
rushed into his office,
506
00:33:17,747 --> 00:33:22,001
and I, who had been fucking with fellows
since the seventh grade,
507
00:33:22,084 --> 00:33:27,548
hysterically, at the age of 32 proclaimed,
"Dr. Gillespie, I am no longer a virgin!"
508
00:33:27,632 --> 00:33:28,633
(CHUCKLES)
509
00:33:29,175 --> 00:33:30,176
Aw.
510
00:33:36,933 --> 00:33:38,309
(KISSING)
511
00:33:41,103 --> 00:33:42,146
(DOOR OPENS)
512
00:33:42,230 --> 00:33:44,732
HENRY: Here's in here. I think we'll catch him.
513
00:33:45,525 --> 00:33:47,902
- Go ahead.
- So I just go over and say hello?
514
00:33:47,985 --> 00:33:51,364
I told him I invited you
and we went to Yale together.
515
00:33:51,447 --> 00:33:54,367
It's my farewell party. What's he gonna do?
516
00:33:54,951 --> 00:33:56,619
Let's go.
517
00:33:56,702 --> 00:33:57,787
(GUARD CLEARS THROAT)
518
00:33:58,371 --> 00:33:59,956
His honor would like you to get lost.
519
00:34:00,039 --> 00:34:02,124
- This is my friend, Ned Weeks.
- Yeah, we know who he is.
520
00:34:03,960 --> 00:34:07,380
Mr. Mayor! We need your help!
There's this new disease.
521
00:34:07,463 --> 00:34:08,548
You must have heard about it.
522
00:34:08,631 --> 00:34:09,966
We need your help badly!
523
00:34:10,049 --> 00:34:12,260
Get off me, you pigs! This is America!
524
00:34:12,802 --> 00:34:15,221
Mr. Mayor! We're dying!
525
00:34:17,974 --> 00:34:21,519
Okay, this is what Ned wrote for us
to send out.
526
00:34:22,478 --> 00:34:25,898
"I am sick of guys moaning that giving up
careless sex until this blows over..."
527
00:34:25,982 --> 00:34:27,441
NED". "...is worse than death.
528
00:34:27,525 --> 00:34:30,403
"I am sick of guys
that can only think with their cocks.
529
00:34:30,486 --> 00:34:32,238
"I am sick of closeted gays.
530
00:34:32,321 --> 00:34:34,740
"It's 1982 now, guys.
When you gonna come out?
531
00:34:34,824 --> 00:34:36,993
"By 1983, you could be dead."
532
00:34:37,827 --> 00:34:39,203
(MURMURING)
533
00:34:39,287 --> 00:34:41,080
- That's nice.
- You're crazy.
534
00:34:41,163 --> 00:34:42,915
Am I, Bruce? Do you really think so?
535
00:34:42,999 --> 00:34:44,375
Aren't we supposed to
elect a president tonight?
536
00:34:44,458 --> 00:34:45,418
Yes.
537
00:34:45,501 --> 00:34:47,670
We can't tell people
how to live their lives, Ned.
538
00:34:47,753 --> 00:34:50,756
The entire gay political movement is fucking.
539
00:34:51,048 --> 00:34:52,216
- Hi.
- Hi.
540
00:34:52,300 --> 00:34:54,885
I'm very interested in starting up
some sort of services for the patients.
541
00:34:54,969 --> 00:34:56,596
We've gotta start talking about them.
542
00:34:56,679 --> 00:34:59,223
Also, there are a lot
of very scared people out there
543
00:34:59,307 --> 00:35:00,683
and they're desperate for information.
544
00:35:01,017 --> 00:35:03,102
- I'd like to start a hotline.
- Oh.
545
00:35:03,185 --> 00:35:06,606
- Who's he?
- Ooh, he does not know who I am yet.
546
00:35:06,731 --> 00:35:08,608
His name is Tommy Boatwright.
547
00:35:08,691 --> 00:35:12,528
In real life, he is a hospital administrator.
Uh, he's here to help,
548
00:35:12,653 --> 00:35:14,572
-and he's a Southern bitch.
-(ALL LAUGHING)
549
00:35:14,655 --> 00:35:16,032
Mr. Boatwright, Bruce Niles.
550
00:35:16,532 --> 00:35:17,742
- Nice to meet you.
- My pleasure.
551
00:35:17,825 --> 00:35:20,161
- You're very handsome.
- MAN: He knows.
552
00:35:21,662 --> 00:35:22,705
(FAINT MUSIC PLAYING)
553
00:35:22,788 --> 00:35:26,542
What the fuck is this?
Was this your idea, Ned?
554
00:35:27,209 --> 00:35:28,836
- I'm looking. What am I not seeing?
- Keep looking.
555
00:35:28,919 --> 00:35:30,338
What we put for our return address.
556
00:35:31,714 --> 00:35:33,966
Do you mean because the word "gay"
is on the envelope?
557
00:35:34,050 --> 00:35:36,636
Fucking-A, yes, instead of just our initials.
558
00:35:36,719 --> 00:35:37,720
We can't send these out.
559
00:35:37,803 --> 00:35:40,556
Excuse me,
if we want anybody to show up for this dance,
560
00:35:40,640 --> 00:35:42,058
we have to get these out tonight.
561
00:35:42,141 --> 00:35:44,518
We could go through and scratch out
the word "gay" with a magic marker.
562
00:35:44,602 --> 00:35:45,770
- Oh, honey, 10,000 times?
- Why not?
563
00:35:45,853 --> 00:35:49,398
Bruce, I have sympathy for kids living at home
on Long Island with their parents,
564
00:35:49,482 --> 00:35:51,776
but the guys who are getting these, I mean...
565
00:35:51,859 --> 00:35:55,363
Look at you. You live at home. You live alone.
You own your own apartment.
566
00:35:55,446 --> 00:35:56,822
Your mother lives in another state.
567
00:35:56,906 --> 00:35:57,990
Okay, what about my mailman?
568
00:35:58,074 --> 00:36:01,035
Oh, you don't expect me
to take you seriously.
569
00:36:01,118 --> 00:36:03,079
- Yes, I do.
- Okay, ladies, behave.
570
00:36:03,162 --> 00:36:06,832
Look, it's getting late
and we still haven't elected a president.
571
00:36:06,916 --> 00:36:10,127
Neddy, I think that it should be Bruce.
572
00:36:11,045 --> 00:36:13,673
Everybody knows him,
everybody likes him and everybody...
573
00:36:13,756 --> 00:36:15,675
Because he's popular
and everybody's afraid of me?
574
00:36:15,758 --> 00:36:16,759
ALL: Yes!
575
00:36:16,842 --> 00:36:19,011
I mean, look at him. He's gorgeous.
576
00:36:19,095 --> 00:36:21,180
And all the kids on Christopher Street
and Fire Island,
577
00:36:21,263 --> 00:36:23,683
they'll feel a little bit more comfortable
following him.
578
00:36:23,766 --> 00:36:25,643
- Just like high school.
- Yes!
579
00:36:25,726 --> 00:36:29,939
All right. All those in favor of Bruce Niles
as our first president, raise their hand.
580
00:36:32,566 --> 00:36:33,567
I don't think I want this.
581
00:36:33,651 --> 00:36:37,196
Oh, come on. You're gorgeous
and we're all gonna follow you.
582
00:36:38,447 --> 00:36:39,657
Fuck you. I accept.
583
00:36:39,740 --> 00:36:42,076
Well, fuck you. Congratulations.
584
00:36:42,243 --> 00:36:43,619
(CHEERING)
585
00:36:59,051 --> 00:37:00,720
(TRUMPET PLAYING)
586
00:37:09,562 --> 00:37:14,650
Felix, let's move somewhere far away,
just the two of us together on a desert island.
587
00:37:14,984 --> 00:37:18,446
Don't you dare stop for one single second
what you're doing.
588
00:37:20,156 --> 00:37:23,325
I appreciate you not yelling at me
about what The Times isn't doing
589
00:37:23,409 --> 00:37:25,077
and my not being more political.
590
00:37:26,078 --> 00:37:27,121
Why don't you?
591
00:37:27,204 --> 00:37:30,291
It's a relief not having
to have to talk politics to someone.
592
00:37:30,374 --> 00:37:32,501
- That's not the reason.
- No?
593
00:37:34,420 --> 00:37:37,173
It's because you're too good to be true.
594
00:37:37,339 --> 00:37:39,592
Because I've been waiting for a lover like you
my whole life,
595
00:37:39,675 --> 00:37:41,343
and you haven't showed up until now,
596
00:37:41,427 --> 00:37:44,513
and I'm scared shitless
that I'm gonna do something to fuck it up.
597
00:37:44,597 --> 00:37:46,182
- Am I crazy?
- Of course.
598
00:37:48,517 --> 00:37:50,311
That's why I'm here.
599
00:37:56,484 --> 00:37:58,152
Now we're getting warm.
600
00:37:59,069 --> 00:38:01,238
(FORGET ME NOTS PLAYING)
601
00:38:18,088 --> 00:38:19,089
(APPLAUSE)
602
00:38:55,626 --> 00:38:57,253
Did I look okay?
603
00:38:58,587 --> 00:39:00,840
Could you tell
that I was wearing all this makeup?
604
00:39:00,923 --> 00:39:02,800
You looked great.
605
00:39:05,469 --> 00:39:07,513
- NED: You have got to go see Emma.
-(HUFFS)
606
00:39:07,596 --> 00:39:10,099
Can we just forget about this?
607
00:39:10,182 --> 00:39:11,684
I'm all right.
608
00:39:12,142 --> 00:39:14,353
And if I'm not, I don't want to know,
because no one will hire me,
609
00:39:14,436 --> 00:39:17,356
and if I can't work, I just as soon be dead.
610
00:39:20,401 --> 00:39:22,444
I haven't lost any weight.
611
00:39:23,696 --> 00:39:25,656
I can still cover it up.
612
00:39:30,286 --> 00:39:32,788
- I told you not to tell him.
- Sorry.
613
00:39:38,043 --> 00:39:39,128
You're already afraid to kiss me?
614
00:39:40,296 --> 00:39:41,338
That's not true.
615
00:39:41,755 --> 00:39:42,965
(CHUCKLES LIGHTLY)
616
00:39:43,966 --> 00:39:46,385
It's okay. I'm afraid to let you.
617
00:40:00,941 --> 00:40:02,109
I love you.
618
00:40:08,908 --> 00:40:10,868
I'll walk him down.
619
00:40:11,911 --> 00:40:12,912
(DOOR OPENS)
620
00:40:14,997 --> 00:40:15,873
(DOOR CLOSES)
621
00:40:18,042 --> 00:40:20,794
BRUCE: Okay,
he's the third guy I've been with.
622
00:40:21,503 --> 00:40:26,717
Reinhardt, Craig,
and I don't know what I'll do if Albert has this.
623
00:40:26,842 --> 00:40:27,885
You're gonna fight.
624
00:40:29,011 --> 00:40:30,804
We'll fight together.
625
00:40:32,598 --> 00:40:34,934
You're my best friend, Ned Weeks.
626
00:40:35,017 --> 00:40:38,187
You're my best friend
and I've never met anyone like you before.
627
00:40:39,063 --> 00:40:42,232
- What do you mean "like me"?
- Like you meaning...
628
00:40:44,443 --> 00:40:48,822
Where I'm from, I mean, I didn't even
see a Jew until I was in the army,
629
00:40:50,032 --> 00:40:55,245
let alone a man that was smart, funny.
630
00:40:58,040 --> 00:40:59,375
(CHUCKLES)
631
00:41:01,377 --> 00:41:03,253
Decently good-looking.
632
00:41:05,631 --> 00:41:09,969
My friends stopped hanging out with me
because they say I depress them.
633
00:41:11,220 --> 00:41:12,513
So be it.
634
00:41:18,769 --> 00:41:20,020
And you,
635
00:41:21,897 --> 00:41:23,440
you don't look that Jewish.
636
00:41:23,649 --> 00:41:26,402
Well, you don't look gay, so I guess
we could both pass for white people.
637
00:41:26,485 --> 00:41:27,486
(LAUGHING)
638
00:41:31,573 --> 00:41:32,741
(CHUCKLES LIGHTLY)
639
00:41:35,869 --> 00:41:37,371
I love Albert.
640
00:41:39,081 --> 00:41:40,666
Bruce, look at me.
641
00:41:40,749 --> 00:41:42,126
I love him.
642
00:41:42,710 --> 00:41:44,586
Albert's gonna make it.
643
00:41:48,215 --> 00:41:50,092
And what if he doesn't?
644
00:41:54,138 --> 00:41:55,889
Let's get you home.
645
00:41:57,141 --> 00:41:58,600
(DISTANT SIREN WAILING)
646
00:42:03,897 --> 00:42:04,898
(BRUCE RETCHING)
647
00:42:10,029 --> 00:42:11,780
- I'm a mess.
- Yeah.
648
00:42:11,947 --> 00:42:13,490
(PANTING)
649
00:42:24,752 --> 00:42:26,170
(RUNNING WATER)
650
00:42:27,087 --> 00:42:28,464
- Classy moment.
- Yeah.
651
00:42:28,630 --> 00:42:29,882
(BREATHING HEAVILY)
652
00:42:47,649 --> 00:42:48,650
(THUDDING)
653
00:42:49,568 --> 00:42:50,569
(GROANS)
654
00:42:50,652 --> 00:42:51,779
Okay.
655
00:42:52,029 --> 00:42:53,697
(BREATHING HEAVILY)
656
00:43:04,500 --> 00:43:07,252
When I finally get you where I want you,
I don't want you anymore.
657
00:43:10,631 --> 00:43:12,758
Hey, Bruce, I'm in love, too.
658
00:43:22,392 --> 00:43:23,685
(DISTANT SIREN WAILING)
659
00:43:26,647 --> 00:43:27,689
Holy shit!
660
00:43:30,109 --> 00:43:33,195
Queen control.
It really works when it wants to.
661
00:43:39,201 --> 00:43:40,786
(INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS)
662
00:43:43,247 --> 00:43:45,749
Oh, hey, Felix, this is Dick Lombardo.
663
00:43:45,833 --> 00:43:46,792
Hi.
664
00:43:46,875 --> 00:43:48,794
I finally got us someone on our board
who isn't a disco dummy.
665
00:43:48,877 --> 00:43:50,462
Well, maybe tonight.
666
00:43:51,463 --> 00:43:52,464
- I'll see you.
- Nice to meet you.
667
00:43:52,548 --> 00:43:54,049
NED: Come on, babe.
668
00:43:57,427 --> 00:43:59,429
(I WILL SURVIVE PLAYING)
669
00:44:33,547 --> 00:44:34,548
(FEEDBACK)
670
00:44:35,090 --> 00:44:36,091
(MUSIC STOPS)
671
00:44:36,175 --> 00:44:37,176
(ALL GROANING)
672
00:44:37,259 --> 00:44:40,179
We are all so happy you joined us tonight!
673
00:44:40,304 --> 00:44:41,305
(ALL CHEERING)
674
00:44:42,389 --> 00:44:46,476
We are proving that we are more
than just looks, brains, talent and heart!
675
00:44:47,853 --> 00:44:51,273
Together, we raised
more than any gay group ever in this city!
676
00:44:54,151 --> 00:44:58,197
And I want to call over Mr. Ned Weeks.
677
00:44:58,280 --> 00:45:00,365
(CHEERING)
678
00:45:00,449 --> 00:45:01,909
Don't be shy!
679
00:45:09,416 --> 00:45:10,542
We did it!
680
00:45:10,626 --> 00:45:12,920
We will now reveal
just how much we raised together.
681
00:45:13,962 --> 00:45:16,048
In three, two, one.
682
00:45:16,548 --> 00:45:19,051
$53,000!
683
00:45:19,176 --> 00:45:20,886
(CHEERING LOUDLY)
684
00:45:28,143 --> 00:45:29,603
MANI $53,000!
685
00:45:35,901 --> 00:45:38,320
Gay Men's Health Crisis, come on up!
686
00:45:38,403 --> 00:45:41,073
Felix, honey, come up please. Come up.
687
00:45:41,156 --> 00:45:42,532
I love you.
688
00:45:45,911 --> 00:45:47,037
Let's dance!
689
00:45:47,496 --> 00:45:48,664
(MUSIC RESUMES)
690
00:46:07,266 --> 00:46:08,725
(PIANO PLAYING)
691
00:46:15,607 --> 00:46:19,236
MEN: (SINGING) Someday he'll come along
692
00:46:19,319 --> 00:46:22,322
The man I love
693
00:46:22,906 --> 00:46:26,535
And he'll be big and strong
694
00:46:26,618 --> 00:46:29,746
The man I love
695
00:46:30,414 --> 00:46:33,834
And when he comes my way
696
00:46:34,042 --> 00:46:36,295
I'll do my best
697
00:46:36,378 --> 00:46:43,385
To make him stay
698
00:46:45,887 --> 00:46:48,890
He'll look at me and smile
699
00:46:49,266 --> 00:46:51,893
I'll understand
700
00:46:52,686 --> 00:46:55,605
And in a little while
701
00:46:56,106 --> 00:46:59,192
He'll take my hand
702
00:46:59,901 --> 00:47:03,655
And though it seems absurd
703
00:47:03,739 --> 00:47:05,907
I know we both
704
00:47:05,991 --> 00:47:12,289
Won't say a word
705
00:47:14,249 --> 00:47:18,920
Maybe I shall meet him someday
706
00:47:19,588 --> 00:47:23,008
Maybe Monday
707
00:47:23,550 --> 00:47:28,180
Maybe not
708
00:47:28,764 --> 00:47:31,933
Still I'm sure to meet him one day
709
00:47:32,017 --> 00:47:33,769
Imagine if we had this when we were young.
710
00:47:35,437 --> 00:47:36,938
No fear, no shame.
711
00:47:37,022 --> 00:47:41,109
Maybe Tuesday will be my...
712
00:47:41,193 --> 00:47:43,945
I was imagining all those years with you.
713
00:47:47,741 --> 00:47:50,911
He'll build a little home
714
00:47:51,119 --> 00:47:54,122
Just meant for two
715
00:47:54,790 --> 00:47:57,918
From which I'll never roam
716
00:47:58,418 --> 00:48:01,213
Who would, would you?
717
00:48:02,214 --> 00:48:05,759
And so all else above
718
00:48:06,468 --> 00:48:09,805
I'm waiting for the man I love
719
00:48:09,888 --> 00:48:13,141
Felix Turner,
would you like to move in with me?
720
00:48:13,308 --> 00:48:14,309
Yes.
721
00:48:14,768 --> 00:48:16,144
- Yes?
- Yesterday.
722
00:48:16,228 --> 00:48:18,814
Yes! Yes! Yes!
723
00:48:19,564 --> 00:48:21,733
Yes! Yes!
724
00:48:23,610 --> 00:48:24,903
(WOMEN CHEERING)
725
00:48:25,987 --> 00:48:32,869
I'm waiting for the man
726
00:48:33,495 --> 00:48:40,377
I love
727
00:48:46,716 --> 00:48:51,346
NED: We are all walking time bombs
waiting for whatever it is to set us off.
728
00:48:51,721 --> 00:48:53,014
(LABORED BREATHING)
729
00:48:58,145 --> 00:48:59,146
Come on. We're almost there.
730
00:48:59,229 --> 00:49:01,231
NED: If this article
doesn't scare the shit out of you,
731
00:49:01,314 --> 00:49:04,151
gay men may have no future here on Earth.
732
00:49:04,234 --> 00:49:08,071
Our continued existence
depends on just how angry you can get.
733
00:49:08,155 --> 00:49:10,198
-(BELL DINGS)
-(POUNDING ON DOOR)
734
00:49:11,867 --> 00:49:13,201
They turned us away
from four emergency rooms.
735
00:49:13,285 --> 00:49:15,620
- Come in!
- I think he's lost his mind!
736
00:49:15,704 --> 00:49:18,290
- Ned, where can I take him?
- Put him on the couch there. I'll call Emma!
737
00:49:18,373 --> 00:49:20,250
- God damn it!
- I'll get some water.
738
00:49:21,877 --> 00:49:24,171
- NED: How long has he been like this?
- A couple hours.
739
00:49:24,254 --> 00:49:25,630
(LABORED BREATHING)
740
00:49:28,049 --> 00:49:30,886
NED: Well,
I'm glad you asked me that question.
741
00:49:31,178 --> 00:49:32,429
What do I think?
742
00:49:32,512 --> 00:49:36,683
I know that the government
is intentionally ignoring this epidemic.
743
00:49:37,434 --> 00:49:40,270
You're accusing the government
of the United States
744
00:49:40,353 --> 00:49:42,856
of a conspiracy to murder all gay men?
745
00:49:48,653 --> 00:49:49,654
Yes.
746
00:49:50,363 --> 00:49:53,408
Yes, you can say that.
Yes, Sarabeth, I am. Yes.
747
00:49:53,492 --> 00:49:56,286
That is a powerful accusation.
748
00:49:56,411 --> 00:50:00,290
This is an epidemic and it's being ignored
by the United States government.
749
00:50:00,373 --> 00:50:02,542
- Intentionally?
- Intentionally being ignored.
750
00:50:02,626 --> 00:50:06,254
This is a national emergency.
This is an epidemic. It's a plague!
751
00:50:06,338 --> 00:50:09,341
You can't go on national TV and
accuse the government of murder, Ned.
752
00:50:09,424 --> 00:50:10,383
Why not?
753
00:50:10,467 --> 00:50:13,345
Because one day,
we're gonna get money, research, grants.
754
00:50:13,428 --> 00:50:16,973
Congress still hasn't appropriated a dime.
The Mayor's still... On and on!
755
00:50:17,057 --> 00:50:20,519
Ned, when you go public, you have no right
to speak for this organization
756
00:50:20,602 --> 00:50:23,897
unless we have approved
what you have to say in advance.
757
00:50:23,980 --> 00:50:25,106
You know, in point of fact,
758
00:50:25,190 --> 00:50:29,402
you aren't even an officer of this organization,
and you shouldn't be speaking for us at all!
759
00:50:29,903 --> 00:50:31,947
Thank you for sharing that with me, Dick.
760
00:50:35,534 --> 00:50:37,577
(THEME MUSIC PLAYING)
761
00:50:46,002 --> 00:50:49,297
Why do you think the city has been so slow to
acknowledge and deal with this emergency?
762
00:50:49,631 --> 00:50:50,632
(SCOFFS)
763
00:50:50,715 --> 00:50:54,344
You're implying that the city's recognized
and acknowledged this emergency, Malcom.
764
00:50:54,427 --> 00:50:55,887
- It has not.
- Why not, do you think?
765
00:50:57,430 --> 00:51:01,059
'Cause the Mayor is gay and he's scared
shitless out of his panties it'll blow his cover.
766
00:51:01,142 --> 00:51:02,102
(OBJECTS CLATTERING)
767
00:51:02,185 --> 00:51:04,396
- MAN: What did he say? Get off! Commercial.
-Are we still rolling?
768
00:51:04,479 --> 00:51:05,480
(TONE BEEPS)
769
00:51:05,564 --> 00:51:07,899
You can't tell me what to say
when I'm speaking for myself.
770
00:51:07,983 --> 00:51:09,359
Bullshit. They all know you're one of us.
771
00:51:09,442 --> 00:51:11,820
It is totally and politically incorrect
to call someone gay
772
00:51:11,903 --> 00:51:13,572
who does not self-identify as being gay.
773
00:51:13,655 --> 00:51:16,700
I know it's been that way forever,
but something different is going on here now.
774
00:51:16,783 --> 00:51:17,742
We're dying.
775
00:51:17,826 --> 00:51:19,452
The Mayor, he's a personal friend of yours.
776
00:51:19,703 --> 00:51:21,329
You want him to appoint you a judge.
777
00:51:21,413 --> 00:51:23,206
Do you have a little conflict of interest
going on here?
778
00:51:23,290 --> 00:51:24,666
I told you. I sent him a memo.
779
00:51:24,749 --> 00:51:25,750
- When?
- Through channels.
780
00:51:25,834 --> 00:51:27,002
- When?
- He'll answer me.
781
00:51:27,085 --> 00:51:30,880
When? There's 110 new cases this month!
782
00:51:31,047 --> 00:51:33,216
Still, no meeting with our gay mayor.
783
00:51:33,300 --> 00:51:35,218
No meeting with his gay assistant!
784
00:51:38,680 --> 00:51:41,016
What, do I embarrass you, Bruce?
785
00:51:41,474 --> 00:51:43,018
Yes. You do.
786
00:51:43,101 --> 00:51:44,936
Yeah, you get more with honey
than with vinegar, babe.
787
00:51:45,020 --> 00:51:46,438
God, no one's told me that one, Tommy.
788
00:51:46,521 --> 00:51:48,481
No, obviously they haven't.
789
00:51:48,565 --> 00:51:49,899
I don't believe that bullshit anyway.
790
00:51:49,983 --> 00:51:52,027
We are in over our heads
with the patients we're trying to help.
791
00:51:52,110 --> 00:51:55,363
Tommy, will you please read this report
out loud for Ned?
792
00:51:55,447 --> 00:51:58,867
TOMMY: "We have trained
25 crisis counselors
793
00:51:58,950 --> 00:52:02,120
"to help the newly diagnosed
in whatever needs that they might have.
794
00:52:02,412 --> 00:52:04,039
"We have 12 group leaders
795
00:52:04,122 --> 00:52:07,375
"who meet with these counselors at least
once a week to go over their clients.
796
00:52:07,876 --> 00:52:12,005
"There are now 17 volunteer social workers,
psychologists and/or psychiatrists.
797
00:52:12,088 --> 00:52:14,341
"We helped draw up 75 wills last..."
798
00:52:14,424 --> 00:52:16,217
Seventy-five, Bruce.
799
00:52:16,676 --> 00:52:18,136
You used to be a fighter once.
800
00:52:18,219 --> 00:52:21,306
- Did you like being in the Green Berets?
- Yes. I loved it.
801
00:52:21,389 --> 00:52:23,350
Have you completely forgotten how to fight?
802
00:52:23,433 --> 00:52:25,477
Don't tell me how to fight.
I just fight differently than you do.
803
00:52:25,560 --> 00:52:27,604
- I haven't seen your way yet.
- No?
804
00:52:27,687 --> 00:52:30,315
Bruce, Albert may be dying.
805
00:52:30,398 --> 00:52:31,650
You son of a bitch!
806
00:52:31,733 --> 00:52:33,693
You say another word about him...
807
00:52:33,777 --> 00:52:34,944
Relax.
808
00:52:36,071 --> 00:52:37,322
And you,
809
00:52:38,365 --> 00:52:42,827
you have no right being on this board unless
you put pressure on your friend, the Mayor.
810
00:52:42,911 --> 00:52:45,789
That's why I asked you to join us
in the first place and you know it.
811
00:52:49,959 --> 00:52:51,544
(PANTING)
812
00:52:57,592 --> 00:52:59,344
- BEN: No. No, I'm not gonna do that.
- Why not?
813
00:52:59,427 --> 00:53:02,847
No, you get your free legal work from my firm.
I'm not gonna be on your board of directors.
814
00:53:02,931 --> 00:53:05,892
NED: It's only for the stationery.
You don't have to do a thing.
815
00:53:05,975 --> 00:53:08,353
That is just an evasion.
If you thought this was a straight disease...
816
00:53:08,436 --> 00:53:09,896
BEN: It's got nothing to do with
you being gay.
817
00:53:09,979 --> 00:53:11,981
NED: What else does it have to do with?
818
00:53:12,065 --> 00:53:13,525
One of these days I'm gonna get you to agree
819
00:53:13,608 --> 00:53:15,860
that over 20 million men and women
in this country
820
00:53:15,944 --> 00:53:18,363
don't require the services of a psychiatrist.
821
00:53:18,446 --> 00:53:20,115
Look, try to understand.
822
00:53:20,198 --> 00:53:21,991
You know, I read stuff. I see TV.
823
00:53:22,075 --> 00:53:25,620
Guys in leather, chains, dresses, high heels.
824
00:53:25,870 --> 00:53:27,455
You know, I say to myself, "This isn't Ned."
825
00:53:27,539 --> 00:53:30,291
You know the media
always dramatizes the most extreme.
826
00:53:30,375 --> 00:53:32,544
You guys have a dreadful image problem.
827
00:53:32,627 --> 00:53:35,380
Well, that's why it's so important
to have people like you supporting us.
828
00:53:35,463 --> 00:53:37,298
You already have your dignity.
829
00:53:37,382 --> 00:53:39,718
BEN: We better get to lunch.
I've got an important meeting.
830
00:53:39,801 --> 00:53:41,636
Do you? How important?
831
00:53:42,262 --> 00:53:43,388
I'm asking for your support.
832
00:53:43,471 --> 00:53:46,891
In every area I consider important,
you have my support.
833
00:53:46,975 --> 00:53:50,854
And the only area that I consider important,
I don't have your support at all.
834
00:53:52,313 --> 00:53:55,525
In some place deep down inside you,
you still think I'm sick, don't you?
835
00:53:55,608 --> 00:53:57,444
I think you've adjusted to life pretty well.
836
00:53:57,527 --> 00:53:58,570
All things considered.
837
00:53:58,653 --> 00:54:00,739
I saw how unhappy you were.
838
00:54:00,822 --> 00:54:03,908
So were you!
You wound up going to shrinks, too.
839
00:54:03,992 --> 00:54:05,994
We grew up side by side.
840
00:54:06,161 --> 00:54:08,705
We both felt the same about Mom and Pop.
841
00:54:08,788 --> 00:54:13,042
I'll agree to the fact that
I have any number of awful character traits,
842
00:54:13,126 --> 00:54:18,465
but not to the fact that whatever awful things
they did to us made me sick and gay
843
00:54:18,548 --> 00:54:20,759
while you stayed straight and healthy.
844
00:54:20,842 --> 00:54:23,094
We don't all react the same way to the thing.
845
00:54:23,178 --> 00:54:25,430
So you became a lawyer
and I became a writer.
846
00:54:25,513 --> 00:54:27,640
Well, we have a difference of opinion
over theory.
847
00:54:27,724 --> 00:54:30,101
But your theory
turns me into a man from Mars.
848
00:54:30,185 --> 00:54:31,352
My theory doesn't do that to you.
849
00:54:32,771 --> 00:54:36,191
Are you suggesting I did something wrong
in sending you into therapy so young?
850
00:54:37,150 --> 00:54:38,777
I didn't know
you were gonna stay there forever.
851
00:54:38,860 --> 00:54:41,446
I didn't think that I had done anything wrong
until you sent me there.
852
00:54:42,363 --> 00:54:45,909
Ben, you mean more to me
than anyone in the whole world.
853
00:54:46,409 --> 00:54:48,036
You always have.
854
00:54:48,119 --> 00:54:49,454
Ben, you've gotta say it.
855
00:54:49,537 --> 00:54:51,206
- Say what?
- I am the same as you.
856
00:54:51,289 --> 00:54:52,749
Just say it. Say it.
857
00:55:00,215 --> 00:55:01,216
No.
858
00:55:03,843 --> 00:55:05,220
You're not.
859
00:55:07,138 --> 00:55:08,932
I'm not gonna say it.
860
00:55:11,059 --> 00:55:14,771
Every time I lose this fight, it hurts more.
I'm going home.
861
00:55:15,396 --> 00:55:16,648
Oh, come on, Lemon.
862
00:55:16,731 --> 00:55:18,149
I still love you.
863
00:55:18,233 --> 00:55:20,652
Sarah still loves you. The cat still loves you.
864
00:55:20,735 --> 00:55:21,861
This is not a joke!
865
00:55:22,153 --> 00:55:25,698
You have my love, my legal advice,
my financial supervision.
866
00:55:25,949 --> 00:55:28,326
I can't give you the courage
to stand up to me and say
867
00:55:28,409 --> 00:55:30,078
you don't give a flying fuck
about what I think!
868
00:55:30,703 --> 00:55:34,582
Everybody's oppressed by somebody else
in some form or another.
869
00:55:35,667 --> 00:55:40,755
Most of us learn to fight against it despite
people's opinions without the help of others.
870
00:55:40,839 --> 00:55:44,551
Now stop trying to wring
some kind of admission of guilt out of me!
871
00:55:44,634 --> 00:55:47,220
Agreeing that you were born
just the same as I was born
872
00:55:47,303 --> 00:55:48,930
isn't gonna save your dying friends.
873
00:55:49,013 --> 00:55:52,517
That is exactly what is going to save
my dying friends!
874
00:55:52,600 --> 00:55:54,352
You make it sound like I'm the enemy!
875
00:55:54,435 --> 00:55:57,605
I am beginning to think that
you and your straight world are our enemy!
876
00:55:57,689 --> 00:55:59,941
I am furious with you
877
00:56:00,024 --> 00:56:04,320
and every goddamn doctor
who made me feel it was sick to love a man!
878
00:56:04,404 --> 00:56:09,701
I am trying to understand
why nobody gives a shit that we're dying!
879
00:56:11,494 --> 00:56:15,874
$5 million for a house?
We can't even get 27 cents from the city.
880
00:56:15,957 --> 00:56:20,044
I know 43 guys who have died
and you say it's my cause, not yours?
881
00:56:20,712 --> 00:56:22,755
You still think I'm sick!
882
00:56:23,590 --> 00:56:27,343
I simply cannot allow it
for one single second longer.
883
00:56:27,427 --> 00:56:32,390
I will not speak to you again
until you accept me as your equal!
884
00:56:32,473 --> 00:56:35,310
Your healthy equal! Your brother!
885
00:56:39,522 --> 00:56:40,565
(SIGHS)
886
00:56:40,815 --> 00:56:43,318
(DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES)
887
00:56:43,985 --> 00:56:47,322
Yeah, be careful with that, boys.
That is a precious antique.
888
00:56:47,405 --> 00:56:48,615
- Easy.
- Mmm-hmm.
889
00:56:48,740 --> 00:56:50,575
Don't you think
we should put that in the grand salon?
890
00:56:50,658 --> 00:56:52,410
Do we have a basement?
That's where it should go.
891
00:56:52,493 --> 00:56:54,996
Bella, I think it's time
we moved your filthy mouth above ground.
892
00:56:55,121 --> 00:56:56,581
-(LOUD KISSING)
- I'll decorate tomorrow.
893
00:56:56,664 --> 00:56:58,917
Just shove it all in there the best you can.
894
00:56:59,000 --> 00:57:00,084
(PURRS)
895
00:57:00,168 --> 00:57:02,712
- Yeah, okay. Knock it off, both of you.
-(LAUGHING)
896
00:57:03,046 --> 00:57:04,213
(KNOCKING AT DOOR)
897
00:57:04,297 --> 00:57:05,673
Excuse me.
898
00:57:05,757 --> 00:57:07,008
Yes? Hi.
899
00:57:07,216 --> 00:57:08,259
Hi.
900
00:57:08,635 --> 00:57:13,264
My name is Estelle,
and my best friend Harvey died last night.
901
00:57:17,018 --> 00:57:19,646
We went everywhere together, you know?
902
00:57:20,855 --> 00:57:24,442
Like Broadway and the Rockettes
and the ice skating.
903
00:57:27,195 --> 00:57:29,238
He was a beautiful skater.
904
00:57:30,281 --> 00:57:33,284
(TEARFULLY) I'm a klutz, but he didn't care.
905
00:57:35,286 --> 00:57:37,038
We had so much fun.
(WHIMPERS)
906
00:57:39,040 --> 00:57:41,459
Damn it, I want to do something,
907
00:57:41,542 --> 00:57:45,838
even though all my lesbian friends say,
"What have you guys ever done for us?"
908
00:57:45,922 --> 00:57:47,548
But I don't care.
909
00:57:49,384 --> 00:57:51,135
This is for Harvey.
910
00:57:51,719 --> 00:57:55,056
(SOBBING) Please.
Tell me you can use me for something.
911
00:57:59,310 --> 00:58:00,853
-(SOBBING)
- Oh.
912
00:58:03,898 --> 00:58:07,235
I need a hotline director.
Do you think you can do that?
913
00:58:07,318 --> 00:58:09,737
- I don't know how.
- I don't either.
914
00:58:13,116 --> 00:58:14,200
Hey.
915
00:58:15,451 --> 00:58:19,330
Let me buy you a cup of coffee
and we'll figure this out, okay?
916
00:58:19,414 --> 00:58:20,540
Okay.
917
00:58:20,623 --> 00:58:21,624
(SNIFFLES)
918
00:58:30,550 --> 00:58:33,803
- So, you want to set up here?
- Yeah, this is good, let's do it.
919
00:58:34,345 --> 00:58:35,388
What are you doing?
920
00:58:35,471 --> 00:58:37,974
- MAN: We're from the NBC affiliate.
- So?
921
00:58:38,057 --> 00:58:40,226
This is the new
Gay Men's Health Crisis office?
922
00:58:40,309 --> 00:58:42,603
- Who are you?
- I'm Bruce Niles. I'm the president.
923
00:58:42,687 --> 00:58:45,523
I didn't sign any consent form
for you to film me or this establishment.
924
00:58:45,606 --> 00:58:46,691
Please turn it off immediately.
925
00:58:46,774 --> 00:58:48,067
BRUCE: Right now.
MAN: Don't touch my camera.
926
00:58:48,151 --> 00:58:50,987
BRUCE: Who sent you here?
MAN: Somebody named Ned.
927
00:58:52,447 --> 00:58:53,614
Weeks.
928
00:58:53,698 --> 00:58:54,782
- Oh, great, you're here.
-(KNOCKING AT DOOR)
929
00:58:54,866 --> 00:58:56,451
- Anybody homo?
- Son of a bitch.
930
00:58:56,534 --> 00:58:58,161
Hello, is this thing rolling?
931
00:58:58,244 --> 00:59:01,539
Look at this!
We're in both of them the same week!
932
00:59:01,622 --> 00:59:06,169
Every major network,
and now finally, our very first office.
933
00:59:06,294 --> 00:59:09,464
I want to introduce you to our gay president
who's in the closet,
934
00:59:09,547 --> 00:59:11,466
and he's so handsome, don't you think?
935
00:59:11,549 --> 00:59:15,094
Such a very handsome cover boy
going to waste.
936
00:59:16,137 --> 00:59:17,138
(GRUNTS)
937
00:59:17,221 --> 00:59:20,099
Oh, great. Now you fight. Great! Fight, Bruce!
938
00:59:20,183 --> 00:59:22,602
You make me sound like a coward
and I'm not a coward.
939
00:59:22,685 --> 00:59:24,187
You know what? You have nothing to lose.
940
00:59:24,270 --> 00:59:26,230
Your brother invested for you
so you have income.
941
00:59:26,314 --> 00:59:30,693
You can be gay 24/7, Ned, but I can't. I can't.
So fuck you!
942
00:59:30,777 --> 00:59:32,236
No, fuck you, Bruce.
943
00:59:33,446 --> 00:59:35,239
- Man!
- MAN: Oh, oh, oh! Jesus!
944
00:59:35,990 --> 00:59:36,991
(SIGHS)
945
00:59:37,075 --> 00:59:40,578
When I look at you, I am filled with despair.
946
00:59:40,661 --> 00:59:43,164
When I look at you,
I worry we're not gonna win.
947
00:59:43,247 --> 00:59:44,957
How do you think this country was founded?
948
00:59:45,041 --> 00:59:48,544
I thought I was getting started
with Paul Revere, not some coward.
949
00:59:49,879 --> 00:59:51,172
(GRUNTING)
950
00:59:51,881 --> 00:59:55,259
Ned, look at me! Look at me! Look at me!
951
00:59:56,469 --> 00:59:59,639
We are doomed if we do it your way. Doomed!
952
01:00:00,139 --> 01:00:01,933
How are they gonna help us
if they don't know who we are?
953
01:00:02,350 --> 01:00:04,852
They won't help us, Ned, if they do.
954
01:00:04,936 --> 01:00:05,978
(PANTING)
955
01:00:07,021 --> 01:00:08,439
(TELEPHONE RINGING)
956
01:00:10,274 --> 01:00:11,484
(MUTTERING)
957
01:00:11,692 --> 01:00:13,277
MAN: Hey, hey, hey. Hey, wait.
958
01:00:13,361 --> 01:00:15,029
Come on! Come on!
959
01:00:15,530 --> 01:00:16,656
MAN: Shit.
960
01:00:18,366 --> 01:00:19,450
MAN: Shit!
961
01:00:21,035 --> 01:00:23,037
(TELEPHONE CONTINUES RINGING)
962
01:00:24,080 --> 01:00:25,081
(BREATHING HEAVILY)
963
01:00:35,007 --> 01:00:36,676
Okay, I'll get it. Sure.
964
01:00:37,385 --> 01:00:41,222
Hello? Yeah, you are our very first call.
How can I help you?
965
01:00:43,724 --> 01:00:46,352
I'm sorry. You have the wrong number.
966
01:00:51,190 --> 01:00:53,568
You two gotta
pull your shit together now, okay?
967
01:00:55,528 --> 01:00:57,363
And you need to stop being
such a fucking drama queen.
968
01:00:57,613 --> 01:00:58,906
God damn.
969
01:01:00,575 --> 01:01:02,160
This is Estelle.
970
01:01:03,244 --> 01:01:04,328
Hey.
971
01:01:04,912 --> 01:01:06,455
How's it going?
972
01:01:06,747 --> 01:01:07,957
Welcome.
973
01:01:14,839 --> 01:01:15,923
(MORE THAN THIS PLAYING)
974
01:01:59,217 --> 01:02:03,054
Well, we have four hands and two incomes.
You're not getting any younger, you know.
975
01:02:03,137 --> 01:02:05,973
All right. Let's leave my age out of this.
976
01:02:14,065 --> 01:02:16,651
- Very beautiful in the country.
- Very quiet in the country.
977
01:02:18,277 --> 01:02:19,695
(TELEPHONE RINGING)
978
01:02:20,571 --> 01:02:23,074
- No, no. Don't you dare.
- I have to.
979
01:02:25,117 --> 01:02:26,702
You didn't leave this number
on your machine...
980
01:02:28,496 --> 01:02:29,664
- You promised.
- Hello?
981
01:02:30,665 --> 01:02:33,334
I do think we should picket the Mayor.
982
01:02:34,252 --> 01:02:37,421
Yes, I said that and I stand by that. Thank you.
983
01:02:38,756 --> 01:02:39,840
- You promised.
-(TELEPHONE RINGS)
984
01:02:40,341 --> 01:02:41,759
No,no,no,no,no,no.
985
01:02:41,842 --> 01:02:42,927
Wait.
986
01:02:48,641 --> 01:02:49,642
(FELIX CLEARS THROAT)
987
01:02:49,725 --> 01:02:53,312
"And every gay man who is unable
to come forward and fight to save his own life
988
01:02:53,604 --> 01:02:55,481
"is truly helping to kill the rest of us."
989
01:02:55,940 --> 01:02:58,901
How many of us have to die before
you get scared off your ass and into action?
990
01:02:58,985 --> 01:02:59,986
Thank you.
991
01:03:00,194 --> 01:03:01,195
(SLAMS RECEIVER)
992
01:03:02,947 --> 01:03:03,990
Who was that?
993
01:03:05,700 --> 01:03:09,287
I hear it's being called
the Ned Weeks School of Outrage.
994
01:03:11,372 --> 01:03:14,041
I did speak to one of our science reporters.
995
01:03:14,125 --> 01:03:16,377
- What'd he say?
-It turns out he's gay and he won't...
996
01:03:18,587 --> 01:03:19,964
Don't yell at me.
997
01:03:22,967 --> 01:03:24,969
All those shrinks,
they must have done something right.
998
01:03:27,179 --> 01:03:29,849
- Dr. Ritvo, Dr. Malev.
- Malev.
999
01:03:31,017 --> 01:03:32,393
Dr. Gillespie.
1000
01:03:33,519 --> 01:03:36,564
Dr. Patti, Dr. Maxine, Dr. Laverne.
1001
01:03:39,233 --> 01:03:41,152
Why does it have to take so long?
1002
01:03:41,235 --> 01:03:43,404
All you ever eat is desserts.
1003
01:03:43,487 --> 01:03:46,282
Sugar is the most important thing in life.
All the rest is just to stay alive.
1004
01:03:48,409 --> 01:03:49,410
Mmm.
1005
01:03:54,123 --> 01:03:55,124
Argh!
1006
01:03:56,000 --> 01:03:57,001
(SCOFFS)
1007
01:03:57,084 --> 01:03:59,170
- Shit.
- What?
1008
01:03:59,253 --> 01:04:03,174
The fucking board! They say I'm causing
a panic, that I'm making myself a celebrity.
1009
01:04:03,257 --> 01:04:08,012
Not one of them will be interviewed or appear
on TV, so I do it all by default.
1010
01:04:08,095 --> 01:04:11,474
And you're becoming a leader.
And you love to fight.
1011
01:04:11,557 --> 01:04:14,685
- I like to fight? Moi?
- Who, you? Yeah.
1012
01:04:14,769 --> 01:04:16,687
And you're having a great time.
1013
01:04:16,771 --> 01:04:18,272
I am.
1014
01:04:20,441 --> 01:04:24,612
It's funny, I never wanted to be a leader.
I'm not doing very well.
1015
01:04:25,988 --> 01:04:27,365
It's sad how much time we lost.
1016
01:04:27,698 --> 01:04:29,784
We just weren't ready then.
1017
01:04:35,331 --> 01:04:36,665
(SIGHS)
1018
01:04:36,749 --> 01:04:40,252
If I had it, would you leave me?
1019
01:04:44,215 --> 01:04:46,384
I don't know.
1020
01:04:48,302 --> 01:04:50,721
Would you if I did?
1021
01:04:50,805 --> 01:04:51,806
No.
1022
01:04:53,307 --> 01:04:54,809
How do you know?
1023
01:04:54,892 --> 01:04:58,354
Because my mother ran the local chapter of
the Red Cross, and she put me to work
1024
01:04:58,479 --> 01:05:01,732
in the blood mobile when I was eight.
1025
01:05:01,816 --> 01:05:03,442
I'm not programmed for anything else.
1026
01:05:06,737 --> 01:05:07,822
Ned, I have something to tell you.
1027
01:05:10,366 --> 01:05:11,450
You're finally pregnant?
1028
01:05:11,534 --> 01:05:12,535
(CHUCKLES)
1029
01:05:15,955 --> 01:05:16,997
I was married once.
1030
01:05:21,919 --> 01:05:22,962
You never told me that.
1031
01:05:23,337 --> 01:05:24,630
Yeah, I...
1032
01:05:25,589 --> 01:05:29,093
She said I had been unfair to her,
which I had been.
1033
01:05:31,846 --> 01:05:32,888
I have a son.
1034
01:05:33,431 --> 01:05:34,515
You have a son?
1035
01:05:35,516 --> 01:05:36,559
She won't let me see him.
1036
01:05:36,642 --> 01:05:37,935
You can't see your own son?
1037
01:05:39,145 --> 01:05:40,771
But didn't you fight?
1038
01:05:41,856 --> 01:05:44,066
That means you're ashamed,
so he will be, too.
1039
01:05:45,693 --> 01:05:49,530
This is why I didn't tell you.
Who says I didn't fight, Ned?
1040
01:05:49,613 --> 01:05:52,658
Well, what happens to people who can't be
as strong as you want them to be?
1041
01:05:52,741 --> 01:05:55,119
Weakness scares the shit out of me.
1042
01:05:55,202 --> 01:05:58,372
My father was weak
and I'm afraid I'll be like him.
1043
01:05:58,456 --> 01:06:01,500
His life didn't stand for anything
and then it was over!
1044
01:06:01,584 --> 01:06:03,836
So I fight constantly, and if I can do it,
1045
01:06:03,919 --> 01:06:07,798
I can't understand why everybody else
can't do it too, okay?
1046
01:06:07,882 --> 01:06:11,385
Where are you going?
Felix, where are you going?
1047
01:06:11,469 --> 01:06:12,470
(DOOR SLAMS)
1048
01:06:12,553 --> 01:06:13,554
(BANGS ON TABLE)
1049
01:06:14,513 --> 01:06:15,514
(SIGHS)
1050
01:06:15,848 --> 01:06:21,395
Felix, I didn't mean anything by that, Felix.
I'm scared of lots of things, really.
1051
01:06:21,479 --> 01:06:24,607
Heights. I never told you I'm terrified of...
1052
01:06:24,982 --> 01:06:26,025
What?
1053
01:06:41,957 --> 01:06:46,128
It's... it keeps getting bigger and bigger.
It doesn't go away.
1054
01:06:50,925 --> 01:06:52,301
(THUDDING)
1055
01:06:59,308 --> 01:07:00,309
BROOKNER: Felix.
1056
01:07:03,979 --> 01:07:06,232
Who, may I ask, is Felix?
1057
01:07:07,441 --> 01:07:10,694
I've never been so in love in my life.
1058
01:07:10,778 --> 01:07:12,947
I've never been in love in my life.
1059
01:07:14,949 --> 01:07:18,452
Tell him to come see me
first thing tomorrow, 7:30.
1060
01:07:19,119 --> 01:07:20,162
Ned, God damn it.
1061
01:07:20,371 --> 01:07:23,415
What am I supposed to do,
not be with anybody ever?
1062
01:07:23,499 --> 01:07:25,584
It's not as easy as you might think.
1063
01:07:26,544 --> 01:07:29,129
- Oh, Emma, I'm sorry.
- Don't be.
1064
01:07:32,299 --> 01:07:33,801
How'd you get it?
1065
01:07:34,218 --> 01:07:36,929
I was five years old.
1066
01:07:37,012 --> 01:07:40,516
A woman from the Bahamas came to our town
carrying the polio virus.
1067
01:07:41,600 --> 01:07:46,063
She stayed with friends.
Their kid was in my kindergarten class.
1068
01:07:46,146 --> 01:07:49,650
Four of us in that class got polio.
1069
01:07:50,985 --> 01:07:56,073
I was all dressed up in my Halloween
costume to go trick or treating,
1070
01:07:56,156 --> 01:07:59,660
and my mother felt my forehead,
put me to bed.
1071
01:07:59,785 --> 01:08:02,788
In the middle of the night,
I realized my whole body
1072
01:08:02,871 --> 01:08:05,541
except my arms and my hands were paralyzed.
1073
01:08:05,624 --> 01:08:10,462
I was crying out for my mother,
"I can't move. I can't move."
1074
01:08:10,546 --> 01:08:16,260
They rushed me to the hospital,
were told I'd be dead in 24 hours.
1075
01:08:16,343 --> 01:08:17,386
I fought. I lived.
1076
01:08:17,845 --> 01:08:19,138
Were you in an iron lung?
1077
01:08:20,347 --> 01:08:21,599
- I was.
-(EXHALES SHARPLY)
1078
01:08:22,308 --> 01:08:24,226
Then I was in bed at home.
1079
01:08:26,437 --> 01:08:29,440
I was connected to my class with this little,
1080
01:08:31,191 --> 01:08:33,319
little loud speaker.
1081
01:08:33,402 --> 01:08:36,238
All the children were required to visit me.
1082
01:08:37,740 --> 01:08:42,453
We would say, "Hello,"
and then not know what to say next.
1083
01:08:43,537 --> 01:08:49,293
They were all terrified of me. Still are.
I scare the shit out of people.
1084
01:08:49,376 --> 01:08:52,880
The holy terror in a wheelchair.
1085
01:08:53,839 --> 01:08:55,174
I'm scaring people, too.
1086
01:08:55,466 --> 01:08:59,970
Learn how to use it.
Don't need everybody's love and approval.
1087
01:09:01,972 --> 01:09:05,017
Ned, your organization is worthless.
1088
01:09:05,142 --> 01:09:07,186
I can't get anyone important on the board.
1089
01:09:07,269 --> 01:09:09,938
I've seen over 300 patients, me, one doctor.
1090
01:09:10,022 --> 01:09:15,778
All these guys who made millions off of us,
fashion, rock, movies, real estate, forget it.
1091
01:09:16,403 --> 01:09:20,074
And anytime Bruce doesn't agree with me,
he puts it to a board vote.
1092
01:09:20,199 --> 01:09:21,200
And you lose.
1093
01:09:21,283 --> 01:09:25,579
I can't pass along sex recommendations
or any information that isn't 100% certain.
1094
01:09:25,663 --> 01:09:30,125
Nothing is 100% certain in science.
It wouldn't matter what you say anyway.
1095
01:09:30,250 --> 01:09:32,961
Don't yell at me for what I'm not doing.
What the fuck is your side doing?
1096
01:09:33,045 --> 01:09:34,421
- I don't know!
- Well, where's your AMA?
1097
01:09:37,883 --> 01:09:40,427
Does being Jewish always make you hungry?
1098
01:09:40,511 --> 01:09:41,804
I don't know. I'm not Jewish.
1099
01:09:43,806 --> 01:09:44,807
I'm German.
1100
01:09:46,517 --> 01:09:49,812
- Everybody thinks you're Jewish.
- I know.
1101
01:09:49,895 --> 01:09:50,896
In medicine, it helps.
1102
01:09:55,109 --> 01:09:57,027
You stayed in bed
the whole way through school?
1103
01:09:58,362 --> 01:10:03,325
By college I had my first braces
and I could walk a little.
1104
01:10:04,076 --> 01:10:07,204
I don't walk so good anymore,
probably because I'm too busy to practice.
1105
01:10:08,706 --> 01:10:12,418
You must practice. Right now. I mean it.
1106
01:10:12,876 --> 01:10:14,920
Right now. Come on.
1107
01:10:15,003 --> 01:10:16,922
- Don't scratch my Mathis.
-(CHUCKLES)
1108
01:10:23,387 --> 01:10:24,638
(CHANCES ARE PLAYING)
1109
01:10:26,348 --> 01:10:27,474
May I have this dance?
1110
01:10:28,475 --> 01:10:29,476
(CHUCKLES)
1111
01:10:32,146 --> 01:10:34,231
Okay. You asked for it.
1112
01:10:39,403 --> 01:10:40,779
Give me crutches.
1113
01:10:46,493 --> 01:10:47,745
Mmm. Thank you.
1114
01:11:04,428 --> 01:11:06,346
Mmm-mmm. I got it.
1115
01:11:11,393 --> 01:11:12,770
Oh! Okay. Okay.
1116
01:11:12,853 --> 01:11:14,021
Mmm-mmm. (CHUCKLES)
1117
01:11:36,210 --> 01:11:37,586
I'm afraid to leave him alone now.
1118
01:11:39,046 --> 01:11:41,673
I'm afraid a cure won't come in time.
1119
01:11:42,716 --> 01:11:45,302
I'm afraid of my anger.
1120
01:11:46,678 --> 01:11:47,971
I'm a terrible leader and...
1121
01:11:48,055 --> 01:11:49,640
A lousy dancer. Put me back.
1122
01:11:56,313 --> 01:11:57,564
(CLATTERING)
1123
01:11:57,981 --> 01:11:58,982
(I-HUFFS)
1124
01:12:09,868 --> 01:12:11,245
Polio was a virus, too.
1125
01:12:16,416 --> 01:12:18,252
Nobody gets polio anymore.
1126
01:12:39,982 --> 01:12:41,400
(ELECTRICITY CRACKLING)
1127
01:12:46,029 --> 01:12:48,615
Where is he? I mean, we've been here
for an hour and a half.
1128
01:12:49,491 --> 01:12:51,577
Who are these people?
We're in a fucking dungeon here!
1129
01:12:53,495 --> 01:12:56,999
He can't do this to us.
He cannot do this to us and get away with it.
1130
01:12:57,958 --> 01:12:59,042
(DOOR OPENS)
1131
01:12:59,126 --> 01:13:01,753
- Did you start? No? Thank God. Hi.
- Hi.
1132
01:13:01,837 --> 01:13:03,547
Jesus Christ, what a tomb.
1133
01:13:03,964 --> 01:13:06,174
What, do they not want us
to be seen above ground?
1134
01:13:06,258 --> 01:13:08,051
Where is he? I'm an hour late.
1135
01:13:08,135 --> 01:13:10,721
- NED: An hour and a half.
- Yeah, don't start on me, lamb chop.
1136
01:13:10,804 --> 01:13:13,807
- Tommy, where were you?
- I was up at Bellevue.
1137
01:13:13,891 --> 01:13:17,394
I had to put a sweet, dying child together
with his momma.
1138
01:13:17,644 --> 01:13:21,106
(SIGHS) They hadn't seen each other
for 15 years.
1139
01:13:21,189 --> 01:13:24,192
He never told her he was gay.
He didn't want to see her.
1140
01:13:24,276 --> 01:13:28,947
He refused to see her for weeks.
Oh, he was angry when I waltzed in with her.
1141
01:13:31,199 --> 01:13:35,746
That was a real weeper,
momma holding her son. He's dead now.
1142
01:13:37,331 --> 01:13:38,415
(DOOR OPENS)
1143
01:13:38,498 --> 01:13:42,127
(SIGHING) I'm truly sorry I'm late.
I'm Hiram Keebler.
1144
01:13:42,210 --> 01:13:43,253
- Hello.
- Hi.
1145
01:13:43,337 --> 01:13:46,089
Are you related to the folks who make
the crackers? I'm kidding.
1146
01:13:46,173 --> 01:13:48,425
- I'm Tommy Boatwright.
- Ned Weeks.
1147
01:13:50,177 --> 01:13:52,262
Bruce Niles. I'm the president.
1148
01:13:52,346 --> 01:13:54,932
The Mayor wants you to know how much
he cares and how impressed he is
1149
01:13:55,015 --> 01:13:58,185
with how you've been shouldering
your own responsibilities.
1150
01:13:59,186 --> 01:14:01,605
- Thank you.
- NED: Thank you? Responsibilities?
1151
01:14:01,688 --> 01:14:04,483
Everything we're doing is the stuff you
guys should be doing, and we need help.
1152
01:14:04,566 --> 01:14:07,611
What Mr. Weeks is trying to say,
sir, is that we're swamped,
1153
01:14:07,694 --> 01:14:11,823
and we're fielding over 500 calls a day
on our emergency hotline,
1154
01:14:11,907 --> 01:14:15,953
and we're providing information that quite
frankly the city should be providing and isn't.
1155
01:14:16,036 --> 01:14:18,246
Sir, we need office space.
We have one small room.
1156
01:14:18,372 --> 01:14:20,832
We have over 100 people calling or walking in
and out every day,
1157
01:14:20,916 --> 01:14:23,627
and plus, it's real hard when
people don't want to rent to us because...
1158
01:14:23,710 --> 01:14:26,296
- Oh, that's illegal discrimination.
- Yeah, we know that to be true, sir.
1159
01:14:26,380 --> 01:14:28,966
Mr. Keebler, it is not illegal
to discriminate against homosexuals.
1160
01:14:29,049 --> 01:14:31,593
We've been waiting for 14 months
to see the Mayor.
1161
01:14:31,677 --> 01:14:33,220
It's taken us a year
to get this meeting with you.
1162
01:14:33,303 --> 01:14:34,721
You're an hour and a half late.
1163
01:14:34,805 --> 01:14:36,974
Have you told the Mayor
there's an epidemic going on?
1164
01:14:37,057 --> 01:14:38,517
- Says who?
- The government.
1165
01:14:38,600 --> 01:14:40,686
Which government? What, our government?
An epidemic?
1166
01:14:40,769 --> 01:14:43,230
- The Centers for Disease Control declared...
- Seventeen months ago.
1167
01:14:43,313 --> 01:14:44,564
You can't not know this!
1168
01:14:44,648 --> 01:14:46,191
Will you please reduce your level of hysteria?
1169
01:14:46,274 --> 01:14:47,693
Certainly.
1170
01:14:49,152 --> 01:14:54,116
New York City, San Francisco,
Los Angeles, Chicago, Boston, Denver,
1171
01:14:54,199 --> 01:14:57,828
every single major American city is now
showing cases.
1172
01:14:57,911 --> 01:15:01,415
At least 25 foreign countries,
but New York City, our home,
1173
01:15:01,498 --> 01:15:04,710
the city that you have pledged to protect
has more than half of everything.
1174
01:15:04,793 --> 01:15:06,503
Half the cases, half the dead.
1175
01:15:06,586 --> 01:15:09,256
I know 57 of the dead ones.
I don't want to know any more.
1176
01:15:09,339 --> 01:15:11,258
Now, when do we get to see the Mayor?
1177
01:15:11,341 --> 01:15:13,593
Fourteen months is a long time
to be out to lunch.
1178
01:15:13,802 --> 01:15:16,430
- You wait a minute.
- No, you wait a minute. We can't.
1179
01:15:16,513 --> 01:15:20,600
Time is not on our side. Now if you won't
take word to the man, what are we gonna do?
1180
01:15:20,726 --> 01:15:23,520
Hire a hunky hustler
and send him up to Gracie Mansion
1181
01:15:23,603 --> 01:15:24,938
with a plea tattooed to his cock?
1182
01:15:25,022 --> 01:15:26,773
Mayor Koch is not gay!
1183
01:15:26,857 --> 01:15:29,985
- Oh, come on, Blanche!
-(ALL MURMURING)
1184
01:15:30,110 --> 01:15:31,111
(CHUCKLES)
1185
01:15:31,778 --> 01:15:34,823
Listen, don't you think I want to help you?
1186
01:15:36,116 --> 01:15:40,704
I have a friend who is dying of this shit
right now in the VA hospital.
1187
01:15:41,288 --> 01:15:42,289
But it's very tricky.
1188
01:15:43,331 --> 01:15:45,083
You can see that. It is very tricky.
1189
01:15:45,167 --> 01:15:49,046
Tricky, shit. There are a million gay people in
New York, a million and one counting you!
1190
01:15:49,129 --> 01:15:52,716
You know what? A fire goes out
in a school furnace on the West Side,
1191
01:15:52,799 --> 01:15:56,970
I get 3,000 calls in one day.
You know what I mean?
1192
01:15:58,096 --> 01:16:01,266
If so many of you are so upset,
why am I only hearing from this loud mouth?
1193
01:16:01,349 --> 01:16:02,726
That's a very good question.
1194
01:16:02,809 --> 01:16:05,937
Okay, so there are half a million
gay men in our area.
1195
01:16:06,021 --> 01:16:11,234
315 cases doesn't seem too high considering
how many of us, of you, there are.
1196
01:16:11,318 --> 01:16:12,861
- This is bullshit!
- Ned, please.
1197
01:16:13,612 --> 01:16:15,906
Look, I understand this is tricky,
sir, but we need your help.
1198
01:16:15,989 --> 01:16:18,575
I think, that is, the Mayor thinks,
you guys are overreacting.
1199
01:16:18,658 --> 01:16:24,331
You tell that cocksucker
he is a selfish, heartless son of a bitch.
1200
01:16:30,587 --> 01:16:32,214
You are Michael R. Marcus.
1201
01:16:32,297 --> 01:16:34,758
You hold an unsecure job
with the city's Department of Health.
1202
01:16:34,841 --> 01:16:36,468
I'd watch out for your friends if I were you.
1203
01:16:48,688 --> 01:16:50,565
(CHUCKLES)
I don't believe that just happened.
1204
01:16:50,649 --> 01:16:54,653
Mickey, I am going on The Today Show
tomorrow and I am telling them
1205
01:16:54,736 --> 01:16:57,823
that the Mayor just threatened your job
to shut us up!
1206
01:16:57,906 --> 01:16:59,658
The Today Show? You're gonna what?
1207
01:16:59,741 --> 01:17:02,869
They are treating us like shit
and we're allowing them!
1208
01:17:02,953 --> 01:17:06,498
No politicians... The only thing
they really respond to is pressure!
1209
01:17:06,581 --> 01:17:11,002
You heard him with his 3,000 West Side calls!
We're not yelling loud enough!
1210
01:17:16,299 --> 01:17:19,803
-(DOOR CLOSES)
- Get your stuff. Get your stuff.
1211
01:17:27,686 --> 01:17:31,064
(DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES)
1212
01:17:34,568 --> 01:17:35,694
(TYPEWRITER CLACKING)
1213
01:17:35,777 --> 01:17:37,070
(TELEPHONE RINGING)
1214
01:17:39,114 --> 01:17:43,118
- This is Tommy. Hey.
- Tommy, it's Ned. Nick died.
1215
01:17:44,911 --> 01:17:48,415
Shit. God damn.
1216
01:17:49,416 --> 01:17:53,378
I'll call later when I know more
about the memorial.
1217
01:18:00,302 --> 01:18:01,887
TOMMY: I have this tradition.
1218
01:18:03,889 --> 01:18:06,057
It's something I do now when a friend dies.
1219
01:18:09,311 --> 01:18:10,937
I save his Rolodex card.
1220
01:18:12,689 --> 01:18:17,235
What am I supposed to do?
Throw it away in the trashcan? I won't do that.
1221
01:18:18,528 --> 01:18:22,032
No, I won't. It's too final.
1222
01:18:25,619 --> 01:18:27,495
Last year, I had five cards.
1223
01:18:29,122 --> 01:18:32,000
Now I have 50.
1224
01:18:32,083 --> 01:18:36,463
A collection of cardboard tombstones
bound together with a rubber band.
1225
01:18:38,715 --> 01:18:42,552
I hate these fucking funerals. I really do.
1226
01:18:44,346 --> 01:18:48,391
And you know what else I hate?
I hate the memorials.
1227
01:18:48,475 --> 01:18:51,978
That's our social life now,
going to these things.
1228
01:18:58,902 --> 01:19:02,072
Nick was a choreographer.
1229
01:19:02,155 --> 01:19:04,950
I don't know if any of you knew that.
1230
01:19:05,242 --> 01:19:08,078
He was just starting out.
He didn't tell a lot of people.
1231
01:19:08,161 --> 01:19:09,579
(SNIFFLING)
1232
01:19:09,663 --> 01:19:13,291
He was waiting to invite you
to his big debut at Carnegie Hall
1233
01:19:13,375 --> 01:19:16,878
or some shit so we could all be proud of him.
1234
01:19:19,506 --> 01:19:22,717
But he was so good.
1235
01:19:22,801 --> 01:19:25,387
He had such promise.
1236
01:19:28,390 --> 01:19:31,893
We're losing an entire generation.
1237
01:19:32,852 --> 01:19:36,147
Young men at the beginning, just gone.
1238
01:19:37,691 --> 01:19:43,363
Choreographers, playwrights,
dancers, actors,
1239
01:19:45,824 --> 01:19:48,910
all those plays that won't get written now,
1240
01:19:51,413 --> 01:19:54,916
all those dances never to be danced.
1241
01:19:59,546 --> 01:20:03,008
In closing, I'm just gonna say I'm mad.
1242
01:20:03,091 --> 01:20:06,303
I'm fucking mad.
1243
01:20:06,386 --> 01:20:10,181
I keep screaming inside,
"Why are they letting us die?
1244
01:20:10,265 --> 01:20:12,392
(SOBBING) "Why is no one helping us?"
1245
01:20:17,397 --> 01:20:20,900
And here's the truth. Here's the answer.
1246
01:20:24,863 --> 01:20:26,823
They just don't like us.
1247
01:20:26,948 --> 01:20:28,199
(FAINT SOBBING)
1248
01:20:36,166 --> 01:20:37,917
-(WIND WHOOSHING)
-(BELLS JANGLING)
1249
01:20:44,632 --> 01:20:46,468
(MUSIC PLAYS FAINTLY)
1250
01:20:57,854 --> 01:20:59,564
(HIP HOP MUSIC PLAYING)
1251
01:21:41,314 --> 01:21:42,899
FELIX: I'm going to beat this.
1252
01:21:45,110 --> 01:21:48,613
I've always been lucky.
1253
01:21:50,073 --> 01:21:52,033
Good. That's the right attitude.
1254
01:21:54,202 --> 01:21:57,705
I wanted a job on The Times, I got it.
(CHUCKLES LIGHTLY)
1255
01:21:58,123 --> 01:21:59,833
I wanted Ned.
1256
01:22:05,046 --> 01:22:06,506
Have I given it to Ned?
1257
01:22:07,715 --> 01:22:08,716
I don't know.
1258
01:22:15,473 --> 01:22:20,603
One person has a cold, sometimes
the partner catches it, sometimes not.
1259
01:22:21,187 --> 01:22:24,357
Some doctors are saying
it's okay if we use condoms.
1260
01:22:24,482 --> 01:22:25,483
I know they are.
1261
01:22:40,623 --> 01:22:42,041
- Can we kiss?
- Felix,
1262
01:22:42,625 --> 01:22:46,129
you have nothing to fight back with.
You have no immune system to speak of.
1263
01:22:46,212 --> 01:22:49,174
Your body is now open to
every conceivable type of infection.
1264
01:22:49,257 --> 01:22:52,177
You must be careful.
I'm going to do my damnedest. So must you.
1265
01:22:54,888 --> 01:22:57,765
- I bet you say that to all the boys.
- As a matter of fact,
1266
01:22:58,766 --> 01:22:59,767
I do.
1267
01:23:01,978 --> 01:23:02,979
(SIGHS)
1268
01:23:21,164 --> 01:23:22,165
(FELIX GROANING)
1269
01:23:23,625 --> 01:23:25,502
FELIX: Oh, God.
1270
01:23:30,548 --> 01:23:31,925
Oh. (BREATHING HEAVILY)
1271
01:23:37,180 --> 01:23:42,393
NED: Once upon a time, there was a little boy
who always wanted to love another little boy.
1272
01:23:42,894 --> 01:23:45,939
One day, he finally found that love,
and it was wonderful.
1273
01:23:48,399 --> 01:23:52,362
I'm supposed to use gloves. I'm supposed to
do this. I'm supposed to do that.
1274
01:23:52,445 --> 01:23:54,197
I'm supposed to not kiss him.
1275
01:23:54,280 --> 01:23:55,240
FELIX: I'm so sorry.
1276
01:23:55,323 --> 01:23:57,617
NED: I'm not supposed to be only 45 years old
1277
01:23:57,700 --> 01:24:02,497
and taking care of a 35-year-old young man
who's 100 years old and dying.
1278
01:24:06,167 --> 01:24:07,210
(FELIX GROANING)
1279
01:24:07,293 --> 01:24:08,920
Emma calls it a seesaw.
1280
01:24:10,338 --> 01:24:14,509
He's fine. He gets sick. He gets better.
1281
01:24:17,554 --> 01:24:19,472
He gets sicker.
1282
01:24:19,639 --> 01:24:22,809
FELIX: God help me. (SOBBING)
1283
01:24:35,613 --> 01:24:38,449
He's afraid I'll leave him.
1284
01:24:38,950 --> 01:24:40,660
I told him I wouldn't leave him,
1285
01:24:42,203 --> 01:24:45,290
that I never, for one second,
would think of leaving him.
1286
01:24:45,498 --> 01:24:47,375
But he doesn't believe me.
1287
01:24:49,669 --> 01:24:53,006
It's hard to believe in much these days.
1288
01:24:53,089 --> 01:24:56,593
But we must never stop believing
in each other.
1289
01:25:02,056 --> 01:25:05,560
I'm a mess. That's what I am.
1290
01:25:09,480 --> 01:25:13,109
You cry and you cry
until you think you can't cry anymore.
1291
01:25:14,611 --> 01:25:17,488
And then you cry some more.
1292
01:25:19,032 --> 01:25:20,241
(SOBBING)
1293
01:25:23,036 --> 01:25:26,789
Not only for yourself and Felix,
but for all the little boys
1294
01:25:26,873 --> 01:25:29,834
who finally found their other little boys
they've wanted all their lives
1295
01:25:29,917 --> 01:25:32,253
now that we're men.
1296
01:25:35,548 --> 01:25:36,716
(TELEPHONE RINGING)
1297
01:25:37,050 --> 01:25:39,177
- GMHC.
-(TELEPHONES RINGING)
1298
01:25:39,260 --> 01:25:40,845
Estelle speaking. How may I assist you?
1299
01:25:41,346 --> 01:25:42,472
Someone needs a will.
1300
01:25:42,555 --> 01:25:43,890
Where's Ned? I want to speak to him.
1301
01:25:43,973 --> 01:25:45,516
- He's in the back.
- Here, give him this number.
1302
01:25:45,600 --> 01:25:46,601
GMHC.
1303
01:25:46,726 --> 01:25:47,727
GMHC.
1304
01:25:47,852 --> 01:25:51,314
Tommy, I think I got us maybe
four qualified social workers to volunteer.
1305
01:25:51,397 --> 01:25:53,191
They're all lesbians.
1306
01:25:53,274 --> 01:25:54,609
- Thank God for the lesbians.
-(CHUCKLING)
1307
01:25:54,692 --> 01:26:00,198
Your anus? Oh, Planet Uranus.
Thank you for sharing.
1308
01:26:02,742 --> 01:26:03,868
Mickey, why aren't you in Rio?
1309
01:26:04,369 --> 01:26:06,996
I put the phones on service.
You guys should get some rest.
1310
01:26:07,372 --> 01:26:09,791
We don't want any burn-out.
1311
01:26:09,874 --> 01:26:12,752
- TOMMY: Good night, Phil. Thank you.
- Good night, honey.
1312
01:26:13,544 --> 01:26:15,380
- Night. Good night, sweetie.
- Bye, baby.
1313
01:26:15,463 --> 01:26:17,590
- Good work today.
- All right.
1314
01:26:17,674 --> 01:26:18,925
(INDISTINCT CONVERSATION)
1315
01:26:21,803 --> 01:26:24,263
Phil got diagnosed today.
1316
01:26:29,477 --> 01:26:31,396
Mickey, why aren't you on vacation in Rio?
1317
01:26:31,938 --> 01:26:34,941
I was in Rio. Gregory and I were in Rio.
1318
01:26:36,359 --> 01:26:39,862
I get a call from Hiram's office
saying I should be in his office
1319
01:26:39,946 --> 01:26:41,239
right away first thing this morning.
1320
01:26:41,322 --> 01:26:43,074
From Rio? What kind of meeting?
1321
01:26:44,617 --> 01:26:48,496
I get to City Hall.
Hiram keeps me waiting forever,
1322
01:26:48,579 --> 01:26:51,332
and finally the commissioner comes out
and he says
1323
01:26:51,416 --> 01:26:54,293
that Hiram doesn't want to see me anymore.
1324
01:26:55,837 --> 01:26:59,966
I wanted to scream, "I haven't slept
in two days, you dumb fuck!"
1325
01:27:01,718 --> 01:27:07,640
But I didn't. Instead, I said, "Please, sir,
then why did he make me come
1326
01:27:07,724 --> 01:27:10,643
"all the way back from Rio?"
1327
01:27:10,727 --> 01:27:14,230
And he says, "Oh, I'm afraid
he didn't take me into his confidence,"
1328
01:27:14,313 --> 01:27:16,023
and he walks off.
1329
01:27:18,359 --> 01:27:22,029
Ned's article attacking Hiram just came out.
1330
01:27:22,113 --> 01:27:25,116
I'm not gonna lose my job
because Ned doesn't like himself.
1331
01:27:25,199 --> 01:27:26,200
What's that, Mick?
1332
01:27:28,369 --> 01:27:31,748
You keep trying to get us to say things
that we don't want to say,
1333
01:27:31,831 --> 01:27:35,543
and I don't think we can afford to make so
many enemies before we have enough friends.
1334
01:27:35,626 --> 01:27:40,757
Terry Spalding is calling all of his friends
from under his oxygen tank to say goodbye.
1335
01:27:40,840 --> 01:27:45,928
Tibby Maurer took an overdose.
Hal Schechter has got stumps for feet.
1336
01:27:46,012 --> 01:27:47,930
Frannie Santuzza has lost his mind.
1337
01:27:48,014 --> 01:27:49,599
Will you stop it? Just stop!
1338
01:27:51,058 --> 01:27:53,436
- Mickey, are you all right?
- I don't think so.
1339
01:27:55,730 --> 01:27:57,273
Why can't they find the virus?
1340
01:27:58,024 --> 01:27:59,025
Baby, it takes time.
1341
01:27:59,942 --> 01:28:05,072
I work all day for this city writing
stuff on breast feeding versus formula
1342
01:28:05,198 --> 01:28:06,783
and how to stay calm when you have herpes,
1343
01:28:06,866 --> 01:28:09,952
and at night, I work on our newsletter
and our health column for The Native,
1344
01:28:10,036 --> 01:28:12,205
and I don't... I just...
1345
01:28:12,330 --> 01:28:17,251
I can't take it anymore.
I have written about every single theory.
1346
01:28:17,335 --> 01:28:20,880
Repeated infection by a virus,
new appearance by a dormant virus,
1347
01:28:20,963 --> 01:28:26,928
single virus, new virus, old virus, multi-virus,
partial virus, latent virus, mutant virus...
1348
01:28:27,011 --> 01:28:29,138
TOMMY: Okay. Okay. Take it easy, honey.
1349
01:28:29,222 --> 01:28:31,891
No, we mustn't forget about fucking and
sucking and kissing and blood
1350
01:28:31,974 --> 01:28:35,937
and voodoo and drugs and paupers
and needles and Africa, Haiti, Cuba,
1351
01:28:36,020 --> 01:28:40,107
blacks, amoebas, pigs, fucking Uranus!
1352
01:28:44,153 --> 01:28:45,154
What if it isn't any of them?
1353
01:28:45,822 --> 01:28:46,906
I don't know.
1354
01:28:47,907 --> 01:28:50,952
The Great Plague of London was caused
by drinking water from a pump
1355
01:28:51,035 --> 01:28:54,539
that just, nobody noticed it.
1356
01:28:55,790 --> 01:28:58,876
Maybe it's predisposition or there's just
the theory of the herd.
1357
01:28:58,960 --> 01:29:03,214
Only so many of us are gonna get it
and then the pool's used up.
1358
01:29:03,297 --> 01:29:07,510
What's if it's monogamy?
Bruce, you and I could actually be worse off
1359
01:29:07,593 --> 01:29:11,389
because of constant bombardment
from a single source, our lovers.
1360
01:29:12,390 --> 01:29:15,309
So maybe the guys who go to the baths,
maybe they've built up the best immunity.
1361
01:29:15,393 --> 01:29:19,397
I don't know. I don't know what to tell
anybody anymore, and everybody asks me.
1362
01:29:19,480 --> 01:29:22,942
Who's right? I don't know. Who's wrong?
1363
01:29:23,067 --> 01:29:28,072
I feel so fucking inadequate.
How can we tell people, "Stop"?
1364
01:29:28,781 --> 01:29:32,285
It's just, I don't... it might be caused by...
1365
01:29:32,368 --> 01:29:33,828
I don't know. I don't know.
1366
01:29:34,245 --> 01:29:35,621
That's exactly how I feel.
1367
01:29:36,998 --> 01:29:40,084
And maybe he's right. And that scares me.
1368
01:29:40,960 --> 01:29:45,715
Neddy, you scare me.
You really think the President,
1369
01:29:45,840 --> 01:29:47,174
that he wants this to happen?
1370
01:29:47,258 --> 01:29:50,469
You really think the CIA
has unleashed germ warfare
1371
01:29:50,595 --> 01:29:53,139
to kill off all the queers
that Jerry Falwell doesn't want?
1372
01:29:53,514 --> 01:29:55,516
- Mick, try to hold on.
- To what?
1373
01:29:56,976 --> 01:29:58,853
I used to love my country.
1374
01:29:58,936 --> 01:30:01,314
The Native received an anonymous letter
describing top secret
1375
01:30:01,397 --> 01:30:04,233
Defense Department experiments
at Fort Detrick, Maryland,
1376
01:30:04,317 --> 01:30:07,820
that have produced a virus
that can destroy the immune system.
1377
01:30:07,904 --> 01:30:09,739
Its code name was "Firm Hand."
1378
01:30:09,822 --> 01:30:12,742
They started testing it in 1978
on a group of gays.
1379
01:30:12,825 --> 01:30:14,535
I never used to believe shit like this.
1380
01:30:14,619 --> 01:30:17,914
They're gonna persecute us.
They're gonna cancel our health insurance.
1381
01:30:17,997 --> 01:30:19,916
They're gonna put us into camps.
They're gonna quarantine us.
1382
01:30:19,999 --> 01:30:21,667
And you think that I'm killing people?
1383
01:30:21,751 --> 01:30:22,919
That is not what I said.
1384
01:30:23,002 --> 01:30:25,671
It is! You know you said it.
1385
01:30:27,089 --> 01:30:31,677
I've spent 15 years of my life fighting for
our right to be free and to make love
1386
01:30:31,761 --> 01:30:35,389
wherever, whenever, and you're telling me all
those years of what being gay stood for
1387
01:30:35,473 --> 01:30:38,976
is wrong and that I'm a murderer!
1388
01:30:41,187 --> 01:30:45,483
We have been so oppressed.
Don't you remember?
1389
01:30:45,608 --> 01:30:51,697
Can't you see how important it is for us
to love openly without hiding, without guilt?
1390
01:30:53,032 --> 01:30:55,868
(SOBBING) Why can't you see that?
1391
01:30:59,789 --> 01:31:01,749
I went to the top of the Empire State Building.
1392
01:31:01,874 --> 01:31:03,125
Okay, I'm taking you home.
1393
01:31:03,209 --> 01:31:05,086
You can jump off from there
when nobody's looking.
1394
01:31:05,169 --> 01:31:08,005
TOMMY: All right, Mickey.
Let's go home right now.
1395
01:31:13,219 --> 01:31:16,722
I'm not a murderer. I'm not.
1396
01:31:17,306 --> 01:31:23,020
All my life I've been hated for being gay,
for being short, for being Jewish.
1397
01:31:23,980 --> 01:31:25,231
So go ahead. You tell everybody.
1398
01:31:25,314 --> 01:31:27,483
Tell everybody that we were wrong
and I'm sorry.
1399
01:31:27,566 --> 01:31:31,570
Someday, somebody's gonna come along
and they're gonna stick the knife in you
1400
01:31:31,654 --> 01:31:34,949
and tell you everything that
you've fought for your whole life is shit!
1401
01:31:35,032 --> 01:31:39,245
Mickey! Mickey! Get up! Get up. Get up.
1402
01:31:39,370 --> 01:31:41,539
- It's okay.
- TOMMY: Come on.
1403
01:31:42,581 --> 01:31:45,793
I'm gonna take you home now, okay?
1404
01:31:45,876 --> 01:31:49,380
I don't want to go home.
Take me to St. Vincent's.
1405
01:31:50,047 --> 01:31:53,551
Okay. That's fine. Come. Let's go.
1406
01:31:55,011 --> 01:31:58,097
Look, we're all real tired, you hear me?
1407
01:31:58,264 --> 01:32:02,184
We got ourselves here
a lot of bereavement overload.
1408
01:32:09,275 --> 01:32:12,737
We're the fighters. Aren't we? We're the...
1409
01:32:12,820 --> 01:32:16,532
You bet, sweetness. And you're a hero.
1410
01:32:16,615 --> 01:32:20,119
You hear me?
You're a hero whether you know that or not.
1411
01:32:21,579 --> 01:32:24,790
You're our first hero. Let's go.
1412
01:32:31,213 --> 01:32:32,298
(DOOR CLOSES)
1413
01:32:34,967 --> 01:32:38,387
- You want to be president?
- I just want Felix to live.
1414
01:32:41,223 --> 01:32:42,558
(TELEPHONE RINGING)
1415
01:32:50,191 --> 01:32:53,694
Gay Men's Health Crisis.
1416
01:32:53,778 --> 01:32:56,405
Hiram, old buddy, how's it hanging?
1417
01:33:04,455 --> 01:33:06,123
-(SCRIBBLING)
- Mmm.
1418
01:33:10,836 --> 01:33:12,838
- Are you ready?
- Yeah.
1419
01:33:13,714 --> 01:33:17,551
The Mayor's found a secret little fund
for giving away money secretly.
1420
01:33:18,010 --> 01:33:21,222
We are not allowed to tell anyone
where we got it, and if we do,
1421
01:33:21,305 --> 01:33:22,348
we'll never get any more.
1422
01:33:23,390 --> 01:33:25,684
- How much?
-$9,000.
1423
01:33:27,353 --> 01:33:28,395
Ned.
1424
01:33:32,441 --> 01:33:33,692
Albert's dead.
1425
01:33:37,488 --> 01:33:41,742
His mother wanted to see him in Phoenix
before he died,
1426
01:33:41,826 --> 01:33:45,204
and this was the last
week when it was obvious,
1427
01:33:45,287 --> 01:33:48,958
so I got permission from Emma
and took him to the airport.
1428
01:33:58,259 --> 01:33:59,385
And when we got to the airport,
1429
01:34:00,219 --> 01:34:03,556
-(INDISTINCT CONVERSATION)
-the pilot refused to fly the plane,
1430
01:34:03,639 --> 01:34:07,309
so I refused to get off of it.
1431
01:34:07,393 --> 01:34:10,062
You would have been very proud of me, Ned.
1432
01:34:11,397 --> 01:34:13,899
So finally we get another pilot,
1433
01:34:15,901 --> 01:34:17,194
and when we take off,
1434
01:34:18,863 --> 01:34:20,906
Albert just loses his mind.
1435
01:34:22,324 --> 01:34:24,201
- I don't want to be in this plane.
-It's okay.
1436
01:34:24,285 --> 01:34:25,661
I don't want to be in this...
1437
01:34:25,744 --> 01:34:27,288
I'm just gonna go.
1438
01:34:27,371 --> 01:34:30,875
- No. Albert.
- I don't want to be here.
1439
01:34:30,958 --> 01:34:32,251
- I don't want to...
- MAN: Tell him to sit down.
1440
01:34:32,668 --> 01:34:33,752
(PASSENGERS MURMURING)
1441
01:34:33,919 --> 01:34:35,421
Sorry. Sorry.
1442
01:34:35,546 --> 01:34:37,965
Sir? Sir? You have to keep seated.
1443
01:34:38,924 --> 01:34:39,925
MAN: Sit down!
1444
01:34:40,009 --> 01:34:42,219
- Sir, I repeat. You have...
-(SCREAMS) No!
1445
01:34:43,012 --> 01:34:44,013
(GRUNTING)
1446
01:34:44,096 --> 01:34:45,598
- Sir! Sir!
-Stop!
1447
01:34:46,265 --> 01:34:49,435
You have to sit down, okay?
1448
01:34:49,602 --> 01:34:52,354
MAN: Get him back in his seat.
BRUCE: He doesn't recognize me.
1449
01:34:54,148 --> 01:34:55,608
-(BREATHING HEAVILY)
-it's me.
1450
01:34:55,691 --> 01:34:57,067
He doesn't know where we're going.
1451
01:34:57,151 --> 01:34:58,194
We're almost home.
1452
01:34:58,277 --> 01:35:00,446
That we're going to see his mother
in Phoenix, nothing.
1453
01:35:03,324 --> 01:35:04,491
He just becomes...
1454
01:35:04,617 --> 01:35:05,701
(RETCHING)
1455
01:35:06,660 --> 01:35:09,330
Oh, shit. Can I get a goddamn towel, please?
1456
01:35:09,413 --> 01:35:12,708
When we land in Phoenix
and when we get to the hospital
1457
01:35:13,792 --> 01:35:16,754
where his mother had fixed up
the room real nice,
1458
01:35:20,466 --> 01:35:21,967
Albert's dead.
1459
01:35:27,348 --> 01:35:31,560
The hospital doctors refused to examine
him and give him a cause of death
1460
01:35:31,644 --> 01:35:34,355
on his death certificate.
Without the death certificate,
1461
01:35:34,438 --> 01:35:37,858
the undertakers will not take him
and neither would the police.
1462
01:35:37,942 --> 01:35:39,568
Come on, man. Pull it down.
1463
01:35:40,653 --> 01:35:43,530
Finally, some orderly comes
and then stuffs my Albert
1464
01:35:44,240 --> 01:35:47,743
in an oversized Glad garbage bag
and puts him in the alley
1465
01:35:47,826 --> 01:35:49,328
with the rest of the garbage.
1466
01:35:51,121 --> 01:35:55,626
I did you a favor, man. I got him out.
I want 50 bucks.
1467
01:36:01,090 --> 01:36:02,216
(WHINING)
1468
01:36:05,803 --> 01:36:07,513
(MOTHER WAILING)
1469
01:36:10,474 --> 01:36:11,892
(SCREAMING)
1470
01:36:15,437 --> 01:36:17,106
(SOBBING)
1471
01:36:19,775 --> 01:36:21,068
Is that all of him?
1472
01:36:21,151 --> 01:36:24,989
Yep. You want him? $3,000.
1473
01:36:33,330 --> 01:36:35,708
He's gone. He's gone.
1474
01:36:37,209 --> 01:36:38,544
Oh, my God.
1475
01:36:43,590 --> 01:36:44,591
(GASPING) Oh, God.
1476
01:36:47,344 --> 01:36:50,723
NED: I am telling you, they are murdering us
and we are letting them.
1477
01:36:51,056 --> 01:36:52,683
- We're gonna die.
-(COUGHING)
1478
01:36:52,766 --> 01:36:54,310
We're gonna die very soon
1479
01:36:54,393 --> 01:36:57,146
unless you get off your fucking asses
and fight back.
1480
01:36:57,229 --> 01:36:58,230
(COUGHING)
1481
01:37:11,243 --> 01:37:13,037
(DISTANT SIREN WAILING)
1482
01:37:13,829 --> 01:37:15,289
Emma's in there waiting.
1483
01:37:28,761 --> 01:37:30,721
Come on, two bites. Come on.
1484
01:37:30,804 --> 01:37:32,097
(SIGHS)
1485
01:37:33,140 --> 01:37:34,767
Don't make me break out the yogurt.
1486
01:37:39,521 --> 01:37:43,233
- One more.
- Have you talked to your brother yet?
1487
01:37:47,154 --> 01:37:48,155
NED: Mmm.
1488
01:37:50,699 --> 01:37:52,451
I remember that about you.
1489
01:37:54,286 --> 01:37:57,122
You don't talk to the people
you love most in the world.
1490
01:38:04,338 --> 01:38:08,634
You want me to get better, and I'm not
getting better and I feel so fucking guilty.
1491
01:38:19,019 --> 01:38:20,396
(PAPER RUSTLING)
1492
01:38:21,980 --> 01:38:25,484
You have a lunch meeting
with Bill Blass on Friday. Fancy.
1493
01:38:25,567 --> 01:38:26,568
Mmm.
1494
01:38:28,404 --> 01:38:30,239
I'll call with my regrets.
1495
01:38:33,158 --> 01:38:34,159
What are you doing?
1496
01:38:34,493 --> 01:38:36,370
I'm making a date with you
two months from now.
1497
01:38:37,329 --> 01:38:40,833
I've been invited to speak
at Yale's Gay Week and we're going.
1498
01:38:41,208 --> 01:38:43,627
Remember how I told you they had
those dances there now?
1499
01:38:43,710 --> 01:38:45,003
You're my date.
1500
01:38:45,254 --> 01:38:46,380
(SCRIBBLING)
1501
01:39:07,443 --> 01:39:08,986
(SOBBING)
1502
01:39:15,284 --> 01:39:16,660
I want you to live so much.
1503
01:39:16,743 --> 01:39:19,621
- Don't say it.
- I'm not supposed to say that.
1504
01:39:23,041 --> 01:39:24,042
(SIGHS)
1505
01:39:25,752 --> 01:39:28,714
Please, God, give us one more year.
1506
01:39:32,885 --> 01:39:34,803
I promise I'll eat my spinach.
1507
01:39:34,928 --> 01:39:36,346
(CHUCKLES)
1508
01:39:50,068 --> 01:39:51,570
(WHEELCHAIR MACHINE HUMMING)
1509
01:40:00,662 --> 01:40:05,667
I am taking care of more victims of
this disease than anyone in the world.
1510
01:40:06,126 --> 01:40:08,212
We have more frozen blood samples,
1511
01:40:08,295 --> 01:40:11,882
more data of every kind
and much more experience.
1512
01:40:13,258 --> 01:40:14,259
(CLICKS)
1513
01:40:15,344 --> 01:40:18,764
MAN: Dr. Brookner,
the government's position is this.
1514
01:40:19,348 --> 01:40:22,768
There are $5 million
in the pipeline for which we have received
1515
01:40:22,851 --> 01:40:25,687
over $55 million worth of requests.
1516
01:40:25,771 --> 01:40:29,566
5 million doesn't seem quite right
for some 2,000 cases?
1517
01:40:29,650 --> 01:40:34,321
The government spent 3 million
investigating seven deaths from Tylenol.
1518
01:40:34,446 --> 01:40:35,697
We're entering the third year.
1519
01:40:35,948 --> 01:40:37,699
We voted to reject
your application for funding.
1520
01:40:39,493 --> 01:40:40,494
Oh.
1521
01:40:42,120 --> 01:40:43,622
I'd like to hear your reasons.
1522
01:40:43,956 --> 01:40:48,335
The direction of the research you're
suggesting is imprecise and unfocused.
1523
01:40:48,418 --> 01:40:49,419
Oh, it is, is it?
1524
01:40:51,171 --> 01:40:53,340
You don't know what's
going on any more than I do.
1525
01:40:53,423 --> 01:40:56,677
Could you tell me precisely
why you're blocking my efforts?
1526
01:40:56,760 --> 01:40:59,555
Dr. Brookner,
there are now other investigators.
1527
01:40:59,638 --> 01:41:02,641
This is no longer only your disease,
though you seem to think it is.
1528
01:41:02,724 --> 01:41:04,309
Oh, I do, do I?
1529
01:41:04,393 --> 01:41:07,396
And you're here to take it away from me,
is that it?
1530
01:41:07,479 --> 01:41:10,190
Well, I'll let you in on a little secret, Doctor.
You can have it.
1531
01:41:10,274 --> 01:41:11,316
I didn't want it in the first place.
1532
01:41:11,400 --> 01:41:13,944
You think it's a privilege
to watch young men die?
1533
01:41:14,027 --> 01:41:15,571
What am I arguing with you for?
1534
01:41:15,654 --> 01:41:18,073
You do not know enough
to study boiled water.
1535
01:41:18,156 --> 01:41:20,242
How dare you come down here and judge me?
1536
01:41:20,325 --> 01:41:23,537
We only serve on this peer review
panel at the behest of Dr. Murray.
1537
01:41:23,620 --> 01:41:27,082
Another idiot, and, by the way,
a closeted homosexual
1538
01:41:27,165 --> 01:41:30,669
doing everything in his power
to sweep this under the rug.
1539
01:41:31,670 --> 01:41:34,047
And I vowed I'd never say anything
like that in public.
1540
01:41:34,923 --> 01:41:37,593
How does it always
happen that all of the idiots
1541
01:41:37,676 --> 01:41:39,011
are always on your team?
1542
01:41:39,094 --> 01:41:45,434
How can you refuse to fund my research
or not invite me to participate in yours?
1543
01:41:45,517 --> 01:41:51,273
Your National Institutes of Health received
my first request for money two years ago.
1544
01:41:51,356 --> 01:41:54,610
It took you one year
just to print up application forms.
1545
01:41:54,693 --> 01:41:58,780
It's taken you three years from my first
reported case just to show up here for a look,
1546
01:41:58,864 --> 01:42:02,743
and the paltry amount of
money you are forcing us to beg for
1547
01:42:02,826 --> 01:42:07,456
out of the $4 billion
you now receive each and every year
1548
01:42:07,539 --> 01:42:11,168
to protect the health of the American people
1549
01:42:11,376 --> 01:42:14,421
won't come to anyone
before only God knows when.
1550
01:42:14,588 --> 01:42:17,007
A promising virus has been discovered
in France.
1551
01:42:17,090 --> 01:42:19,009
Why do you refuse to cooperate
with the French?
1552
01:42:19,092 --> 01:42:22,596
Why are we
told not to cooperate with the French
1553
01:42:22,679 --> 01:42:24,806
just so you can steal a Nobel Prize
1554
01:42:24,890 --> 01:42:28,935
while something is being passed around
that causes death?
1555
01:42:31,021 --> 01:42:32,564
Women have been discovered
to have it in Africa
1556
01:42:32,648 --> 01:42:35,442
where it is clearly transmitted heterosexually.
1557
01:42:35,525 --> 01:42:39,071
It is only a question of time.
We could all be dead
1558
01:42:39,154 --> 01:42:41,573
before you do anything. You want my data?
1559
01:42:41,657 --> 01:42:44,368
You want my ideas? You want my pages?
Take 'em!
1560
01:42:44,451 --> 01:42:46,578
(SCREAMS) Just do something with them!
1561
01:42:52,292 --> 01:42:55,837
You're fucking right.
I am imprecise and unfocused,
1562
01:42:55,921 --> 01:42:57,839
and you are all idiots!
1563
01:43:09,309 --> 01:43:10,310
(CLICKS)
1564
01:43:12,396 --> 01:43:14,147
DICK: Did you organize
that picketing of the Mayor?
1565
01:43:14,231 --> 01:43:15,190
NED: Yes.
1566
01:43:15,273 --> 01:43:17,693
- And the signs?
- Yes.
1567
01:43:17,776 --> 01:43:22,364
And your next play is about a first lady
who gave the best blowjobs in Hollywood?
1568
01:43:22,447 --> 01:43:24,991
- Yes.
- This place is perfect for a new office.
1569
01:43:25,075 --> 01:43:26,159
Yes.
1570
01:43:36,420 --> 01:43:37,421
Tidy.
1571
01:43:39,297 --> 01:43:40,340
Here.
1572
01:43:42,008 --> 01:43:43,802
- Oh.
- I got him. I got it.
1573
01:43:43,885 --> 01:43:45,512
Come on. Let's get you back to bed.
1574
01:43:45,595 --> 01:43:46,722
Okay.
1575
01:43:49,182 --> 01:43:50,183
There you go.
1576
01:43:51,476 --> 01:43:53,395
Estelle made you some stuffed cabbage
for later.
1577
01:43:53,478 --> 01:43:54,604
FELIX: Ooh.
1578
01:43:56,982 --> 01:43:59,025
NED: There's this new drug in Paris.
1579
01:44:00,318 --> 01:44:02,529
Kessler's lover's flying out to get it.
1580
01:44:04,656 --> 01:44:06,032
Here it is.
1581
01:44:06,116 --> 01:44:07,909
HPA-23.
1582
01:44:10,662 --> 01:44:11,705
Ned...
1583
01:44:15,459 --> 01:44:16,543
He looks awful.
1584
01:44:16,918 --> 01:44:19,880
Do you think this is anything or
is this just another shit drug like all the rest?
1585
01:44:25,177 --> 01:44:28,513
I think you need to prepare yourself
for letting go.
1586
01:44:30,640 --> 01:44:33,685
You can't stop fighting for the ones you love.
1587
01:44:34,394 --> 01:44:36,646
Haven't you ever had to
fight for somebody you love?
1588
01:44:39,775 --> 01:44:41,026
(SIGHS)
1589
01:44:46,823 --> 01:44:50,035
Tommy, you gotta start
putting yourself out there
1590
01:44:50,118 --> 01:44:52,704
in a way that everyone else
could see what I see.
1591
01:44:56,666 --> 01:45:00,212
- What kind of a fucked up love scene is this?
-(CHUCKLES)
1592
01:45:04,007 --> 01:45:05,300
(TELEPHONE RINGING)
1593
01:45:10,931 --> 01:45:14,059
Yes? Yes, ma'am.
1594
01:45:15,894 --> 01:45:17,395
4:30 tomorrow?
1595
01:45:17,729 --> 01:45:18,730
Yes, ma'am.
1596
01:45:21,399 --> 01:45:22,400
The fucking White House.
1597
01:45:23,860 --> 01:45:26,822
Fuck the Mayor.
I've just been invited to the White House!
1598
01:45:26,905 --> 01:45:27,989
They're gonna do something!
1599
01:45:33,078 --> 01:45:35,205
-(SCANNING)
- N ED: Oh, just so I understand,
1600
01:45:35,288 --> 01:45:38,917
what exactly does your title mean
in terms of our plague?
1601
01:45:39,251 --> 01:45:40,252
Ah...
1602
01:45:40,335 --> 01:45:43,129
We prefer not to use negative terms.
It only scares people.
1603
01:45:43,338 --> 01:45:47,175
Well, there's 3,339 cases so far.
1604
01:45:47,259 --> 01:45:49,469
1,122 dead.
1605
01:45:50,136 --> 01:45:53,181
It sounds like a plague to me.
I'm scared. Aren't you?
1606
01:45:53,265 --> 01:45:56,017
What does your title mean again?
1607
01:45:56,101 --> 01:46:00,230
I come up with ideas for the President about
what he ought to be doing and not doing.
1608
01:46:00,313 --> 01:46:03,525
Okay, good. Got it.
So, the money's there, right?
1609
01:46:03,608 --> 01:46:07,112
It just hasn't been spent.
So there's this new drug in France.
1610
01:46:07,696 --> 01:46:10,740
Why doesn't the NIH study it?
I mean, what I want, what we want,
1611
01:46:10,824 --> 01:46:15,412
what we desperately need is for somebody
to help us cut through all this red tape.
1612
01:46:15,495 --> 01:46:17,497
I can assure you that not a week goes by
1613
01:46:17,581 --> 01:46:20,292
that I don't bring new information
and reports to the President.
1614
01:46:20,375 --> 01:46:22,294
The progress that's been made
on this disease is unprecedented.
1615
01:46:22,377 --> 01:46:25,922
But it's contagious.
Can't you see that because it's contagious,
1616
01:46:26,006 --> 01:46:28,133
(STAMMERS) you have to work faster?
1617
01:46:30,969 --> 01:46:34,723
Do you really believe that anybody
in a serious public policy position
1618
01:46:34,806 --> 01:46:38,768
in their heart of hearts, or even in their
most closeted meeting says to each other,
1619
01:46:39,060 --> 01:46:41,646
"Hey, guys, let's not get
too upset about this"?
1620
01:46:41,730 --> 01:46:45,108
Yes. Your boss hasn't said
the word "AIDS" out loud.
1621
01:46:57,954 --> 01:47:00,332
Answer me this one question. Um...
1622
01:47:01,082 --> 01:47:05,420
This shit, can hookers get it or, you know,
someone who had a one-night stand?
1623
01:47:05,503 --> 01:47:07,505
- Of course!
- You can't prove that.
1624
01:47:07,589 --> 01:47:09,341
I mean, from what I understand,
from what I've read,
1625
01:47:09,424 --> 01:47:12,969
female-to-male transmission through
normal vaginal intercourse
1626
01:47:13,053 --> 01:47:14,137
does not seem to be very efficient.
1627
01:47:14,262 --> 01:47:17,474
That simply isn't true. It's a virus.
It doesn't discriminate.
1628
01:47:17,557 --> 01:47:21,770
Yes, but it's very difficult, isn't it?
1629
01:47:21,853 --> 01:47:26,691
It's almost impossible for a straight,
you know, regular
1630
01:47:26,775 --> 01:47:28,652
heterosexual guy to get it. Am I right?
1631
01:47:28,735 --> 01:47:31,154
- I'm sorry?
- There's no documented cases, am I right?
1632
01:47:31,237 --> 01:47:35,825
I mean, there's not a single
documented case of a heterosexual man
1633
01:47:35,909 --> 01:47:39,621
getting it, not from fucking or a blowjob.
1634
01:47:39,704 --> 01:47:41,581
I don't have that information.
1635
01:47:47,921 --> 01:47:50,215
Great. That's what I thought.
1636
01:47:56,346 --> 01:48:00,934
Susan, call my meeting.
I'll be about 15 minutes late. Thanks.
1637
01:48:06,690 --> 01:48:07,899
Thank you so much.
1638
01:48:07,983 --> 01:48:10,485
- Call me any time.
- Wait. Please, sir. Wait...
1639
01:48:10,819 --> 01:48:12,070
(TELEPHONE RINGING)
1640
01:48:18,243 --> 01:48:24,416
(YELLING) One hundred million predicted and
nobody is paying any attention!
1641
01:48:24,582 --> 01:48:25,542
(TELEPHONE RINGING)
1642
01:48:25,625 --> 01:48:27,752
WOMAN: I need security on the second floor.
1643
01:48:46,104 --> 01:48:47,188
(DOOR CREAKS)
1644
01:48:57,615 --> 01:48:58,783
Why are you sitting on the floor?
1645
01:48:59,284 --> 01:49:02,162
I fell down trying to get from there to here.
1646
01:49:07,625 --> 01:49:09,335
Oh, don't touch me. God.
1647
01:49:09,753 --> 01:49:10,795
(SIGHS SHARPLY)
1648
01:49:13,590 --> 01:49:15,383
I hate it when you look at me.
1649
01:49:19,471 --> 01:49:22,307
You hungry? I'm hungry. How about you?
1650
01:49:24,809 --> 01:49:26,186
I looked in all my date books.
1651
01:49:27,771 --> 01:49:31,107
No one else I slept with is sick.
Maybe you're the carrier.
1652
01:49:37,947 --> 01:49:40,658
We don't have to do this to each other.
1653
01:49:41,701 --> 01:49:43,369
You're gonna get better, Felix. You are.
1654
01:49:47,832 --> 01:49:48,958
- Emma says the NIH...
- Emma, oh, God.
1655
01:49:49,042 --> 01:49:51,419
...is finally starting research.
We have to hope.
1656
01:49:51,503 --> 01:49:52,712
- Oh, do we?
- Yes, we do.
1657
01:49:52,796 --> 01:49:55,882
Do we?
And how am I supposed to do that? Huh?
1658
01:50:02,097 --> 01:50:03,598
Stop eating that shit!
1659
01:50:05,141 --> 01:50:06,392
No!
1660
01:50:08,269 --> 01:50:10,105
You know how important it is
to watch your nutrition!
1661
01:50:10,188 --> 01:50:12,315
I have a life expectancy of 10 more minutes.
1662
01:50:12,398 --> 01:50:14,526
I'll eat what I want to eat.
1663
01:50:17,695 --> 01:50:18,696
(GROANS)
1664
01:50:21,699 --> 01:50:22,700
Ned...
1665
01:50:25,370 --> 01:50:27,038
It's getting messier, okay?
1666
01:50:28,790 --> 01:50:31,459
I don't want to make you see it.
1667
01:50:31,543 --> 01:50:34,379
Nobody can make me do anything.
You should know that better than anybody.
1668
01:50:34,462 --> 01:50:36,714
Now are you gonna sit there
on the floor for the rest of your life?
1669
01:50:37,048 --> 01:50:38,133
- Do you hear me?
- Do you hear me?
1670
01:50:38,216 --> 01:50:40,009
No!
- No?
1671
01:50:40,093 --> 01:50:42,345
I've had over 40 treatments. No?
1672
01:50:43,388 --> 01:50:47,517
I've had three, no, four different
kinds of chemo. No!
1673
01:50:47,976 --> 01:50:49,727
I've had three different experimentals.
1674
01:50:49,811 --> 01:50:53,565
Emma has spent more time on me
than anyone else, and it hasn't done a thing!
1675
01:50:55,859 --> 01:50:58,319
You cannot force the goddamn sun
to come out!
1676
01:50:58,403 --> 01:51:05,326
I am so sick of fighting and everybody's
stupidity and blindness and guilt trips.
1677
01:51:05,743 --> 01:51:07,495
You know, if you can't
eat the food, don't eat the food.
1678
01:51:07,579 --> 01:51:09,789
I don't care. Take your poison. I don't care!
1679
01:51:10,790 --> 01:51:13,251
Fish is good for you!
Don't want any of that, do we?
1680
01:51:13,626 --> 01:51:14,878
No green salad!
1681
01:51:15,920 --> 01:51:19,966
No broccoli! No vegetables!
No bread with seven grain!
1682
01:51:21,759 --> 01:51:23,052
Why would anyone ever want any milk?
1683
01:51:23,261 --> 01:51:26,139
- You might get some calcium in your bones!
-(YELPS)
1684
01:51:26,222 --> 01:51:29,601
-(CRASHES)
- Do you want to die, Felix? Die!
1685
01:51:33,354 --> 01:51:34,689
(CLATTERS)
1686
01:51:46,159 --> 01:51:47,785
(SOBS)
1687
01:51:56,920 --> 01:51:59,631
-(WHIMPERS) Please don't leave me, Felix.
- I'm sorry.
1688
01:52:07,347 --> 01:52:09,224
CROWD: (CHANTING)
Keep out! Keep out! Keep out!
1689
01:52:09,307 --> 01:52:11,809
Keep out! Keep out! Keep out!
1690
01:52:11,893 --> 01:52:14,270
Keep out! Keep out!
1691
01:52:14,354 --> 01:52:16,689
Keep out! Keep out! Keep out!
1692
01:52:16,773 --> 01:52:20,777
Keep out! Keep out! Keep out!
Keep out! Keep out!
1693
01:52:20,860 --> 01:52:23,821
Keep out! Keep out! Keep out!
1694
01:52:24,656 --> 01:52:26,199
(CHANTING CONTINUES)
1695
01:52:34,165 --> 01:52:35,166
(GRUNTS)
1696
01:52:35,750 --> 01:52:37,085
Assholes.
1697
01:52:37,335 --> 01:52:38,836
- Gay Men's Health Crisis.
- NED: And the other reporter,
1698
01:52:38,920 --> 01:52:39,921
and they're gonna be there?
1699
01:52:40,004 --> 01:52:40,964
Thrush is a fungus, yes.
1700
01:52:41,047 --> 01:52:42,423
Can you tell him that we'll be picketing there?
1701
01:52:42,507 --> 01:52:44,676
And not afraid of arrest or police brutality.
1702
01:52:44,759 --> 01:52:45,760
That's right.
1703
01:52:45,843 --> 01:52:49,430
The Mayor has four more hours before
we carry out our threats of civil disobedience
1704
01:52:49,514 --> 01:52:50,682
if he doesn't meet with us.
1705
01:52:50,848 --> 01:52:52,141
Tommy got the call yesterday, Ned.
1706
01:52:54,852 --> 01:52:56,187
Why didn't you tell me?
1707
01:52:57,355 --> 01:52:58,606
You see, it works!
1708
01:52:59,357 --> 01:53:02,360
- When? When?
- Only two can go to the meeting, Ned.
1709
01:53:04,195 --> 01:53:05,238
When?
1710
01:53:05,321 --> 01:53:07,490
- Tommy's executive director.
- I'm going.
1711
01:53:09,284 --> 01:53:12,328
- I polled the fucking board, Ned.
- I wrote that letter to the Mayor.
1712
01:53:12,412 --> 01:53:16,082
That meeting is mine. I am going to
go and represent this organization
1713
01:53:16,165 --> 01:53:18,876
that I've spent every minute
of my life fighting for
1714
01:53:18,960 --> 01:53:21,379
and that was started in my living room,
or I quit.
1715
01:53:29,012 --> 01:53:30,054
You'd let me quit?
1716
01:53:37,228 --> 01:53:38,229
(CLEARS THROAT)
1717
01:53:39,939 --> 01:53:42,025
The board asked me to read this
out loud to you.
1718
01:53:42,108 --> 01:53:43,276
- Read what?
- A letter.
1719
01:53:44,402 --> 01:53:45,862
(CLEARS THROAT)
1720
01:53:51,075 --> 01:53:52,076
Go on. Read it.
1721
01:53:55,872 --> 01:54:00,084
"We are circulating this letter widely among
people of judgment and good sense.
1722
01:54:02,086 --> 01:54:05,340
"You are on a colossal ego trip
we must curtail.
1723
01:54:07,008 --> 01:54:11,179
"To manipulate fear, as you have done
repeatedly, is to us sheer barbarism.
1724
01:54:13,598 --> 01:54:16,934
"To exploit the deaths of gay men,
as you have done on television
1725
01:54:17,560 --> 01:54:22,774
"and in publications all over America,
is to us an act of vandalism.
1726
01:54:24,150 --> 01:54:29,947
"And after years of liberation,
you helped make sex dirty again for us,
1727
01:54:31,282 --> 01:54:33,910
"terrible and forbidden.
1728
01:54:34,952 --> 01:54:39,791
"We are more angry
at you than ever in our lives toward anyone.
1729
01:54:40,917 --> 01:54:43,503
"We think you want to lead us all.
1730
01:54:44,462 --> 01:54:48,341
"Well, we do not want you to lead us.
1731
01:54:52,970 --> 01:54:58,684
"In accordance with our bylaws as drawn
out by Weeks, Frankel, Levinstein,
1732
01:54:59,936 --> 01:55:04,524
"Mr. Ned Weeks is hereby removed as
a director of Gay Men's Health Crisis.
1733
01:55:05,983 --> 01:55:08,236
"We beg that you leave us quietly
1734
01:55:09,987 --> 01:55:13,491
"and not destroy us
and what good work we manage
1735
01:55:14,409 --> 01:55:18,162
"despite your disapproval,
effective immediately."
1736
01:55:35,680 --> 01:55:36,848
(DOOR BANGS)
1737
01:55:37,890 --> 01:55:38,891
(DOOR CLOSES)
1738
01:55:42,270 --> 01:55:47,984
Ned, the executive director isn't on the board.
You know that. I don't have a vote.
1739
01:55:48,192 --> 01:55:49,944
(STAMMERS) And what could I have done?
1740
01:55:50,027 --> 01:55:52,196
- You didn't support me.
- That's not true.
1741
01:55:52,280 --> 01:55:55,575
You're all nothing but undertakers.
This whole organization is a funeral parlor.
1742
01:55:55,658 --> 01:55:57,785
- Ned.
- All you do is take care of the dying.
1743
01:55:57,869 --> 01:55:59,620
Who's fighting so the living can go on living?
1744
01:56:00,413 --> 01:56:02,248
Who's fighting for my Felix?
1745
01:56:02,331 --> 01:56:04,584
Tommy, we need you upstairs.
1746
01:56:10,882 --> 01:56:15,803
I belong to a culture that includes Marcel
Proust, Walt Whitman, Tennessee Williams,
1747
01:56:15,887 --> 01:56:19,390
Alexander the Great, so many
popes and cardinals you wouldn't believe.
1748
01:56:20,057 --> 01:56:23,186
Mr. Green Beret, did you know
that it was an openly gay Englishman
1749
01:56:23,269 --> 01:56:25,480
who was responsible for winning
World War ll?
1750
01:56:25,563 --> 01:56:28,691
His name's Alan Turing
and he cracked the German's Enigma code.
1751
01:56:29,108 --> 01:56:32,195
After the war was over, he committed
suicide 'cause he was so hounded
1752
01:56:32,278 --> 01:56:35,781
for being gay.
Why didn't they teach any of that in schools?
1753
01:56:36,782 --> 01:56:40,495
A gay man is responsible
for winning World War ll!
1754
01:56:42,413 --> 01:56:44,999
If they did, maybe he wouldn't have
killed himself and you wouldn't be so
1755
01:56:45,082 --> 01:56:46,626
terrified of who you are.
1756
01:56:50,922 --> 01:56:52,798
That's how I want to be remembered,
1757
01:56:54,050 --> 01:56:55,301
as one of the men who won the war.
1758
01:57:00,097 --> 01:57:05,770
Bruce, I know that I'm an asshole.
But please don't shut me out.
1759
01:57:44,141 --> 01:57:45,184
Go.
1760
01:58:00,324 --> 01:58:02,285
Your brother and I are lovers.
1761
01:58:04,412 --> 01:58:06,330
I'm dying and I need to make a will.
1762
01:58:09,667 --> 01:58:11,335
- Please.
- Thank you.
1763
01:58:25,224 --> 01:58:27,935
I want to leave everything to Ned.
1764
01:58:31,272 --> 01:58:32,273
How's my brother?
1765
01:58:32,481 --> 01:58:35,318
Well, he blames himself for everything,
1766
01:58:35,401 --> 01:58:39,864
from my dying to the state of the entire world.
1767
01:58:40,698 --> 01:58:43,200
All that plus you two still not talking.
1768
01:58:46,412 --> 01:58:48,372
You must be as stubborn as he is.
1769
01:58:51,000 --> 01:58:52,752
I'll call him right away.
1770
01:58:52,835 --> 01:58:55,421
Do. He's at home packing.
1771
01:58:55,504 --> 01:58:58,215
We're going to Yale in a few days
1772
01:58:58,299 --> 01:59:00,468
(CHUCKLES) for Gay Week.
1773
01:59:02,386 --> 01:59:03,888
He says he can't believe it.
1774
01:59:06,682 --> 01:59:09,185
He tried to kill himself there
when he was a freshman.
1775
01:59:14,899 --> 01:59:16,734
I haven't much, uh,
1776
01:59:18,903 --> 01:59:23,616
except for a beautiful piece of land
on the Cape in Wellfleet.
1777
01:59:25,576 --> 01:59:29,538
Ned doesn't know about it.
It was to have been a surprise
1778
01:59:30,247 --> 01:59:35,378
for when we'd live there together
or riding away happily ever after.
1779
01:59:36,921 --> 01:59:41,926
I also have an insurance policy
with The Times.
1780
01:59:42,009 --> 01:59:45,262
I'm a reporter for The New York Times.
1781
01:59:45,346 --> 01:59:47,139
It's meant to come to my next of kin.
1782
01:59:49,016 --> 01:59:50,726
I'm afraid they might not give it to him.
1783
01:59:50,810 --> 01:59:52,853
Well, if he's listed as a beneficiary, they must.
1784
01:59:52,937 --> 01:59:55,272
You're smarter than that. Don't be so naive.
1785
01:59:55,398 --> 01:59:58,442
I assure you, I will fight to
make sure that they do.
1786
02:00:02,238 --> 02:00:04,323
I was hoping you'd say that.
1787
02:00:05,658 --> 02:00:07,451
(COUGHING)
1788
02:00:12,957 --> 02:00:14,166
Felix,
1789
02:00:16,752 --> 02:00:18,713
I wish we'd met sooner.
1790
02:00:34,061 --> 02:00:35,146
(ELEVATOR DINGS)
1791
02:00:58,961 --> 02:01:00,963
(SOBBING)
1792
02:01:14,685 --> 02:01:17,188
(FAINTLY) I should be
wearing something white.
1793
02:01:17,271 --> 02:01:19,023
You are, honey.
1794
02:01:20,357 --> 02:01:25,654
It should... It should be something
Perry Ellis ran up for me
1795
02:01:25,738 --> 02:01:26,739
personally.
1796
02:01:28,157 --> 02:01:29,200
(CHUCKLES)
1797
02:01:34,246 --> 02:01:35,289
Ned...
1798
02:01:41,295 --> 02:01:43,297
You find a way to fight again.
1799
02:01:45,883 --> 02:01:47,301
NED: I Will.
1800
02:01:51,096 --> 02:01:52,389
(SOBS)
1801
02:01:52,848 --> 02:01:57,019
Hey, hey, hey- Hey-
1802
02:02:02,566 --> 02:02:03,609
(WHIMPERS)
1803
02:02:06,070 --> 02:02:08,781
Emma, Emma,
1804
02:02:09,031 --> 02:02:10,074
could we...
1805
02:02:10,658 --> 02:02:12,785
Could we start now, please?
1806
02:02:19,500 --> 02:02:20,584
(CLEARS THROAT)
1807
02:02:22,127 --> 02:02:26,507
We are gathered here in the sight
of God to join together these two men.
1808
02:02:28,175 --> 02:02:29,593
They love each other
1809
02:02:30,511 --> 02:02:36,433
very much and want to be married
in the presence of their family and friends.
1810
02:02:40,855 --> 02:02:45,526
I see no objection. Do you, Felix Turner,
1811
02:02:46,652 --> 02:02:47,945
take Ned Weeks...
1812
02:02:48,028 --> 02:02:50,781
Alexander. Yeah.
1813
02:02:53,993 --> 02:02:55,286
To be your...
1814
02:02:55,369 --> 02:02:59,248
My great true love.
1815
02:03:05,129 --> 02:03:07,590
- I do.
- Yeah?
1816
02:03:10,467 --> 02:03:13,637
I do. I do.
1817
02:03:15,180 --> 02:03:21,145
I do. I do. I do. I do.
1818
02:03:40,998 --> 02:03:42,541
(TELEPHONE RINGS)
1819
02:03:50,382 --> 02:03:52,509
This is Tommy.
1820
02:04:00,017 --> 02:04:01,852
Thanks for letting me know.
1821
02:04:18,327 --> 02:04:20,204
(THE ONLY LIVING BOY
IN NEW YORK PLAYING)
1822
02:08:11,435 --> 02:08:13,020
(INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC PLAYING)
1823
02:08:13,044 --> 02:10:14,044